I'm very aware of my mind over reacting making me afraid and panicky all the time like something is going to go wrong and I won't be able to handle it. I'm over a year off and it's horrible. I just want this all to end. I have a friend coming over for dinner, and who knows how I'll feel or act. I just want to calm down and relax and laugh and not be in fear and anxiety mode for no reason at all.