From everything I have read, 6 months - 3 years is the recovery range.
The extremely few out there that last longer, are very very rare.
Many see good improvements by month 10.
This is only temporary and once we feel those open windows, we see the relief ahead.
Don't give up.
We are all praying for u.
If u r feeling self harm, please get help because this is very difficult thing to go thru alone.