For many months now, my very worst symptom has been feeling like my painful, swollen midsection is just turning into scar tissue. It gets worse and worse instead of better and better.
I have been working really really hard at trying to gain weight and have been following a medical protocol for that that involves, of course, increasing calories. To get those calories in, I've had to eat lots more fats, dairy, and meats. I've been a good girl, even when eating just another bite was more painful than I felt I could possibly handle. I go to bed every single night with such pain in my gut that it is nearly impossible to sleep. It just gets worse every day and every night.
The literature on "refeeding" after extreme weight loss says to expect pain. So I have told myself everyday that the pain is "normal". Benzo use, I'm SURE, makes it even worse. I've just been keeping on keeping on, in spite of the intense pain. Isn't that we are ALL doing here at BB, whatever our own worst symptoms are? It's all about putting one foot in front of the other and getting through each day.
Today I have hit the "intolerable" state. My pain, particularly in the right ribcage gallbladder and liver area, are more than I can manage on my own. I updosed my Valium slightly 5 days ago and don't think updosing more will really make this better. In fact, I can't help but think that the meds are taxing my liver and contributing to making it worse.
In desperation, I did a lemon juice & olive oil flush predawn this morning in hopes of maybe moving any stones that might be causing this terrible pain. I got great gurgling and squishing sounds from it and that actually felt good. I also did a hot castor oil pack on the right ribcage and abdomen. But now that that is over, I don't really perceive any significant relief. My stinging, burning pain is still there and still as bad.
Has anyone here had experience with gallbladder attacks while taking their benzo meds? What did you do about it? Are there any dietary tips you can suggest that might help? The web information pretty much says avoid saturated fats, dairy, meats, nuts, and eggs. I have absolutely no clue how I'm going to get the necessary calories if I cut all these out of my diet. And I am already very endangered by my low weight.
Doctors have been no help. The latest gastroenterologist I saw last week just looked at me and shrugged. When I explained the pain and showed him my red inflammed belly (yeah, it's actually visible on the exterior of my body) he pretty much just said that's what happens when you have gastro problems. He didn't offer ANYTHNG else. I think he must diagnose a lot of generalized IBS that is of unknown cause and he also didn't seem concerned about my extreme low weight. He told me to reschedule a recheck in 6 weeks. Yeah, I'm thinking "if I SURVIVE 6 weeks".
Anyone have any suggestions? Benzo Buddies is about all I have at this point for resources. My poor husband is starting to tank under the heavy burden of being distraught at my condition and working hard every minute all day every day just trying to keep me alive.
Any and all suggestions would be most greatly appreciated.