Oh man, I know too
Every person I talk to (the nurse, doctor, my therapist, my friends) all tell me to just relax. They say trust the doctor, they know what they are doing.
I also printed out the wikipedia article showing the contraindications of benzos with people who have breathing problems, plus the effects they have on the elderly, and the potential for dependancy, and I got shoved off saying that nothing should be taken to heart from wikipedia.
My grandma's cognitive skills aren't doing well at all. I remain positive and reassuring, I tell her she need not worry about anything. I do my best. Yeah, ever since they sedated her, her memory is horrible, shes depressed, and constantly worrying. She is definetely not the grandma that I always known. She is defenetly not the same person that she was before she was sedated. Now, she often doesn't make sense when she talks, and she has trouble figuring out what's going on. It's kind of like alzheimers. I make her a sandwich, she eats it, then 5 minutes later, asks me if I made that sandwich or not. The doctors did this to her, then send her home with only me to take care of her. Like I said, she was very sharp and had good memory before all this.
She is prescribed 0.5mg Ativan, 3 times a day when needed. I really want to push not taking it, but everyone else says she needs
it. They tell me to stop worrying and relax.
I really can see this all going down-hill. And if only you'd know how much I love my grandma. We've been living together supporting each other for 7+ years. Now shes turning into somebody I don't even know.
I've asked for help from my therapist, I advised her nurse and doctor, and everyone thinks I'm really over-reacting. Why is everyone so ignorant about the damaging effects of benzos???
I can see how damaging just a couple of doses are; it's happening right before my eyes.