[Ma...] Posted July 1, 2008 Share Posted July 1, 2008 Carole will be one year free on Monday! http://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/cheerleader.gifhttp://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/Congrats5Fmc2DHT5FSmiley5B15D.gifhttp://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/cheerleader.gif http://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/4cm5c78.gif BEST WISHES ON YOUR SPECIAL DAY, LOVE FROM MACKIE [move]http://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/cheerleader.gifhttp://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/welldone.gifhttp://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/cheerleader.gif[/move] http://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/cheerleader-1.gifhttp://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/cheerleader-1.gifhttp://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/cheerleader-1.gifhttp://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb240/mackie_033/cheerleader-1.gif Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ti...] Posted July 1, 2008 Share Posted July 1, 2008 great job carole Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ca...] Posted July 1, 2008 Share Posted July 1, 2008 Thank you Mackie...my Benzo Bashing Buddy :smitten: Remember when we both started this long journey? I am thrilled to get so much attention! Thank you..... Carole Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Je...] Posted July 1, 2008 Share Posted July 1, 2008 Wooo hoooooooooo :yippee: :yippee: Congrats!! Love, Jen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Co...] Posted July 1, 2008 Share Posted July 1, 2008 Maybe soon you will be posting to our new 'Success Stories' board!? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[na...] Posted July 3, 2008 Share Posted July 3, 2008 Congratulations!!!! :thumbsup: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ca...] Posted July 3, 2008 Share Posted July 3, 2008 AS you all know, I have suffered mental anguish during my taper and all this past year. It is not a normal depression or a normal feeling of doom and gloom. It is an unholy circumstance! Only those who have been there can really understand. Now that I am coming upon my one year mark, I am hoping to see some relief to this torment. There have been glimmers out of the darkness when I have a fleeting feeling of what it must be like to be happy and content and full of hope. I will state without any reservation what-so-ever, that if any of you are feeling hopless and in dispair, that it is NOT YOU...you are recovery from a traumatic brain injury caused by the poison pills. The only way out this through and nothing can help you except the "tincture" of time. But be assured, the brain does heal, and you will come out of this nightmare! Carole Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[tr...] Posted July 3, 2008 Share Posted July 3, 2008 Hi Carole, Congratulations on your one year! (almost ) I'm glad to hear that the brain comes back, it sure keeps me guessing. I'm 8 1/2 months out from a ct and still have some fog especially in the mornings and I'm looking forward to the day when I want to say something and all the words are there! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [Pe...] Posted July 3, 2008 Share Posted July 3, 2008 CONGRATULATIONS!!! :yippee: :yippee: :yippee: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ma...] Posted July 4, 2008 Share Posted July 4, 2008 [move]http://img397.imageshack.us/img397/9713/glitteryourwayc5b20117zwd5.gif [/move] http://img397.imageshack.us/img397/3353/44qe2.gif http://img65.imageshack.us/img65/1605/4953514xw3.gif Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Co...] Posted July 7, 2008 Share Posted July 7, 2008 Well, if I'm not very much mistaken, today's the day! Again, congratulations, Carole. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ca...] Posted July 7, 2008 Share Posted July 7, 2008 Thank you everyone for the warm congratulations.. :smitten: To celebrate my one year off.....I fainted and fell off the toliet. :crazy: I went on my usual morning walk, took a shower, got out felt dizzy and knew I was about to faint so sat down to put my head between my legs. Next thing on knew I was on the floor. :sick: I think my blood sugar must have been low or something as I never fainted before during this journey. Carole Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[el...] Posted July 7, 2008 Share Posted July 7, 2008 OH my gosh Carole, I'm sorry! Did you miss breakfast? Do you normally have low blood sugar? Or low Blood pressure? Congrats on you big day anyway! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ma...] Posted July 7, 2008 Share Posted July 7, 2008 To celebrate my one year off.....I fainted and fell off the toliet. :crazy: Oh, Carole! You poor little thing. Keep those blood sugars level, honey. Stay safe, OK? http://img58.imageshack.us/img58/4088/hugbig3tut3.gif Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ca...] Posted July 7, 2008 Share Posted July 7, 2008 Thanks Eljay.....no history of this happening before. Curious things happen when we come off of these benzos. Even the toilet seat is not a safe place. Carole Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ou...] Posted July 10, 2008 Share Posted July 10, 2008 hi carole congrats on one year clean im 6 days from 9 mos clean and your right it is strange what takes place after were off the garbage but heres the good news all the symptoms are from healing the seratonin receptors are reseting themselves back to normal just like they were before the drugs dizzy no balance all the little symptoms well i call them little compared to the big symptoms will slowly go away as the healing is completted so look to these symptoms as a sign of healing because it is and believe that your life is coming back soon im praying for your real life soon peace the outlaw Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [Vi...] Posted July 10, 2008 Share Posted July 10, 2008 Congratulatins Carole!! Well done you!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[tr...] Posted July 10, 2008 Share Posted July 10, 2008 [move] :yippee: CONGRATULATIONS CAROLE!!!! :yippee: [/move] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ma...] Posted July 13, 2008 Author Share Posted July 13, 2008 Hi Carole, i was thinking about you on Monday, what a way to celebrate, huh ??? falling off the toilet seat. still, you made it to the one year off mark, i'm so proud of you another 6 month's and i'll be where you are. :yippee: yeahhhh!!!!!!! you made it lotsaluv, Mackie :smitten: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[...] Posted September 7, 2009 Share Posted September 7, 2009 hi carole How are you feeling at more than 2 years free? how has the last year been>? or anyone that knows carole thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ca...] Posted September 7, 2009 Share Posted September 7, 2009 Hi everyone, I have suffered mental anguish and such emotional pain as I had never known it was possible to experience. I thought these things were reserved for the anguish suffered by those in hell....I felt like I had died and gone to hell. I made it through each day, moment by moment, and my goal was just to survive each day. I had always been so happy and joyous all my life and to be suddenly thrown into the pit of dispair was almost unbearable. I could not think my way out of it....no amount of "positivity" helped. It was all caused by the pills. A constant surge of adrenalin was welling up within me causing me to dispair and consquently I would attach situations past and present to identify with this feeling. The bad feeling welled up....and then I attached circumstances to those feelings. I walked for 2 years, twice a day, morning and night, up and down the sidewalk, crying all the way and grasping for anything to hang on to to keep me going for one more day. I am a Christian, but I struggled to pray and just cried out in my soul to be rescued. I now know that the internal mind can be a hell that you cannot escape unlike external circumstances that wax and wane and of which you can escape. I knew that I had to treat my situation like a life threatening illness and allow myself to be sick. Today, I am getting better. I still wake up with a sinking feeling in my stomach and a rush of adrenalin. But, it had calmed down a lot. I no longer cry day and night and anguish over every little thing. I am slowly coming out of this hell. I have setbacks, but continue to move forward. I now laugh and enjoy life and can function normally in society. If you are suffering mental anguish, hold on.....IT IS THE PILLS... AND NOT YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES! Carol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[el...] Posted September 7, 2009 Share Posted September 7, 2009 Hi Carole! Thanks so much for coming back and posting your story. I'm sure it will help a lot of people realize this can and will get better. I'm so glad you are starting to see the light! Keep us posted! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[...] Posted September 7, 2009 Share Posted September 7, 2009 Sounds great that your getting your life back! and thanks for posting this, it means alot to me as im still really sick at 1 year like you were. I will now keep fighting for another year in hope that i will be where you are in a years time thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[st...] Posted September 8, 2009 Share Posted September 8, 2009 Wow, Carole. So glad you posted. You did suffer a great deal and I am so happy that your true self is starting to shine. You fought really hard to get there. This is an inspirational post for BB's members. Wishing you continued healing. Hugs and kisses. Patty xo Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ma...] Posted September 19, 2009 Author Share Posted September 19, 2009 Hi Carole, i've been wondering how you were doing, i kept asking around the sites after you but we lost touch, Congratulation's on getting to the 2 year mark,,.it must have been so hard, i wish we hadn't lost touch because we could have held one another's hand. it's been tough not knowing how you were and not being able to give you a hug, tough going for me too but we've made it this far. i'm so glad i came here today, i've not checked in for a long time but just to know you are safe and well has made my day! love you alway's my long lost friend! Mackie :smitten: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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