I've been benzo fre for 11 months now, and was feeling quite ok in general, was starting to feel mostly like myself again, even starting to sleep a bit (insomnia has been one of my worst wd symptoms). I was feeling so reasonably good that I began to think about my benzo belly, my hair loss and so on (symptoms I had not paid attention to because there were other much worse and disturbing ones). And I decided to go to a nutritionist. She did this kinesiology testing and ordered saliva testing for candida and the adrenals, as well as a hair sample testing to find out about nutritional deficiencies. Tests are not back yet but she put me on a strict diet of no sugar, no yeast, no gluten, no wheat, no dairy. And recommended I start taking some adrenal supplement which has adrenal tissue in (more on this later). Then she said to start taking a low dose caprylic acid supplement and a probiotic, because the kinesiology showed I had candida (along with adrenal deficiency, but this has to be confirmed with the tests).
I have barely been able to stick to the diet at all, some days I can, others I cannot because I have these terrible cravings for anything sugary and/or floury (bread, pastries). I decided not to take the adrenal supplement because I'm really scared about it, and anyway I would not even start to consider taking it before having the test results. And even then I'd be immensely cautious before and if I start taking it.
I did some research online regarding the caprylic acid and the probiotics, and decided it was probably safe to start very slowly taking them. I have just taken them for 5 days, but the last two nights have been hell. Basically I began to have a lot of my withdrawal symptoms from early on, such as confused thinking, repetitive thoughts, songs getting stuck in my head, very negative thoughts, strange thoughts, my mind completely out of control with thoughts all night, unable to sleep. And having to get up frequently at night to urinate (this was a symptom I had very early on too). Yesterday I stopped the probiotic, but I have had such an awful night that today I'm stopping the caprylic acid too.
I just feel like I have gone back, that I'm now worse than I was months ago, I was feeling so normal again. I was even feeling strong and confident gain.
I don't think I'm going to take another supplement ever again, unless it's one of the three or four I can take that doesn't drive me crazy. I thought after 11 months off benzos I was quite safe and I could start doing a normal life, more or less, but this setback now is showing me I still need to be very very careful. I can't believe how fragile I must still be, this whole benzo hell is the hardest thing in the world.
Is there anyone who has had a similar experience, or is there any feedback you can give me to make me feel better. Last night I had such negative thoughts I really scared myself. Any help will be appreciated, many thanks to all.