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[Buddie]

Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #20 on: September 06, 2012, 08:16:42 pm »
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[Buddie]

Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #21 on: September 06, 2012, 09:07:52 pm »
Hi there [...]  :)

Congratulations on your healing success  :thumbsup: I am just 15 months as of yesterday and would say I'm hitting around 90% healed. I"m having a few days here and there that are close to normal again. I find myself in a very strange in between state, right now. I know I'm not done healing yet because I have that "looking over my shoulder" feeling still. The days where I feel normal is when that feeling and all s/x are gone. So I struggle with how to be in a benzo healing world but have one foot in a healed world. Did you struggle with this at all? The hardest part for me is when those around me think I'm "back to normal" and want me to be "keeping up" with my old schedule, etc.....but I can't do it just yet. Then I get angry. I get angry at my family, the dr's who prescribed the benzo, my friends who are no longer asking how I'm doing....etc. I'm finding this last few months of healing to be very stressful on relationships. We're all feeling so worn out and tired.


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[Buddie]

Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #22 on: September 06, 2012, 09:12:26 pm »
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[Buddie]

Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #23 on: September 06, 2012, 11:19:29 pm »
Hi there [...]  :)

Congratulations on your healing success  :thumbsup: I am just 15 months as of yesterday and would say I'm hitting around 90% healed. I"m having a few days here and there that are close to normal again. I find myself in a very strange in between state, right now. I know I'm not done healing yet because I have that "looking over my shoulder" feeling still. The days where I feel normal is when that feeling and all s/x are gone. So I struggle with how to be in a benzo healing world but have one foot in a healed world. Did you struggle with this at all? The hardest part for me is when those around me think I'm "back to normal" and want me to be "keeping up" with my old schedule, etc.....but I can't do it just yet. Then I get angry. I get angry at my family, the dr's who prescribed the benzo, my friends who are no longer asking how I'm doing....etc. I'm finding this last few months of healing to be very stressful on relationships. We're all feeling so worn out and tired.

Thanks [...]. I found that early in the second year, I thought I could take on more than I actually could handle.  Thus, my setback at 14 months.  Also, I did consume some coffee and wine which didn't agree with me completely.  As you start feeling more healed, one starts to do more activity and may occasionally lead to a mini setback or perhaps some fatigue.  It's pretty much par for the course.  My CNS was still sensitive to stress in the 2nd year off.   That being said, I took on some challenges that I might not have done before benzos, like coaching my son's sports team... The more we keep getting out, the more confidence one can build.  I like that phrase "one foot out and one foot in the healing world".

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[Buddie]

Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #24 on: September 07, 2012, 10:36:42 am »
Anyone else?

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[Buddie]

Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #25 on: September 08, 2012, 01:06:58 pm »
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Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #26 on: September 08, 2012, 09:16:17 pm »
Comments on recovery?

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Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #27 on: September 08, 2012, 09:53:54 pm »
3 years off and still not well i still find myself isolated from others thinking they can see me how i really feel so i stay away alot still have some sleep issues if i get the slighest bit upset my adrenal glands dump the whole bucket into my veins and it feels like my chest is gonna explode hurts bad for 60 to 90 seconds still wake up vibrating sometimes still depressed and a real healthy dose of post traumatic stress disorder some digestive issues but not all the time. dont know how to move on and forget about all this crap thought after this long it would be a distant memory but still rolling in the damage.
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[Buddie]

Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #28 on: September 09, 2012, 12:00:41 pm »
I'd like to make a few comments about the term "withdrawal".   I believe that the word "withdrawal" seems to be overused, particularly after one has been through the "acute" phase which typically lasts a few weeks to a few months off a benzodiazapene.   A majority of folks seem to be feel relatively well by six months off the benzo, despite possibly having a few stubborn issues remain.  I believe that the  first few weeks to possibly couple of months off a benzo (for most) can rightly be labeled "withdrawal".  Unfortunately, if one continues to use that word beyond that acute phase, particularly with doctors (and even with family members), one can get looks and reactions that are of disbelief and sometimes defensiveness.  In our culture, "withdrawal" is often used to describe the process one goes through in "addiction".  Sadly, that often means with regard to illegal substances like heroin, cocaine...There seems to be a kind of stigma attached to that label.  Sometimes it may be best to stop using the term "withdrawal" in describing the physical condition one may find oneself in after a few months (and longer) off a benzo and sooner than later (IMHO). 

  I think it may be more helpful to use some other phrases with family members, friends and even our doctors.  For example, instead of saying one is "in withdrawal" at 6, 12 or even 15 months off the benzo, one can say something like "my nervous system still feels very sensitive and reactive to stress" or "even though it has been a year or over a year, the discontinuation of benzodiazapenes seems to have impacted my ability to deal with certain kinds of stress smoothly".   In speaking with one's doctors, one can perhaps use some more specific  terms such as "discontinuation syndrome".  One could say "you know doc, I have been off benzodiazapenes for over six months and my CNS (central nervous system) feels like what I've read some folks experience when they discontinue certain types of antidepressants or othe medications".  Or one could perhaps mention to a more flexible doctor that "although the benzodiazapene processed out of my body many months ago, I feel like the part of my brain that was calmed by it (GABA) is still hyperexcitable". 

 Finally, it may be appropriate to at least consider that some of one's reactions, whether physical or psychological, could be a manifestation of some "pre benzo" issues for which one first took the benzo. For example, if one took a benzo for anxiety, once the physical acute withdrawal has passed (could be a few months), is the fearfulness or perhaps even a specific phobia about something likely to be suddenly gone?  Maybe there are some kinds of therapy or coping skills that one has not done that could help address certain problems.   With anxiety, I noticed that even up to six months off the benzo, rebound anxiety for me was stronger than the anxiety I had before the benzo.  I never had a panic attack before the benzo yet had two mini "panics" at 3 and 6 months off.  Fortunately, I had done some reading to understand the process as well as worked on developing mindfulness and some other defusion techniques so that the "panic" was contained and eventually never came back.  That being said, I welcome panic or strong anxiety now because I know I can handle whatever might come, which is half the battle.  Trying to push away or escape panic or certain kinds of anxiety seems to make them stronger and only lead to the possibility of more panic in the future.  Self compassion can also be a key.  Research has shown that most people who experience some blues or anxiety also have a higher amount of self criticism.  Learning ways to be more compassionate and accepting of oneself or one's circumstances can help as well.

 Labeling one's  life circumstance as "withdrawal" seems to be vague and often confusing to our loved ones and friends.   I found that spending too much energy trying to "defend or justify"  post benzo CNS sensitivity can sometimes lead to lack of empathy in others.    It may  be that  less is more when it comes to the explanations one gives, although using the one word "withdrawal" may be too simple and even confusing for some.  Sometimes, one can make oneself a victim when using terms like "withdrawal" for too long.   It may keep one down and prevent one from healing more quickly, especially if there might be a  tendency to blame some of life's circumstances on "withdrawal" rather than taking responsibility for a reaction or one's behavior.  I am not accusing anyone of not taking responsiblity.  I know many are suffering and in most cases, not one's fault.  That being said, sometimes one can take more responsibility and be proactive in certain ways.

I wonder how others may feel about the term "withdrawal" and whether one might feel it is being overused or even misused?

Best,

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[Buddie]

Re: After benzo "withdrawal" is over, what now for recovery?
« Reply #29 on: September 09, 2012, 02:06:21 pm »
3 years off and still not well i still find myself isolated from others thinking they can see me how i really feel so i stay away alot still have some sleep issues if i get the slighest bit upset my adrenal glands dump the whole bucket into my veins and it feels like my chest is gonna explode hurts bad for 60 to 90 seconds still wake up vibrating sometimes still depressed and a real healthy dose of post traumatic stress disorder some digestive issues but not all the time. dont know how to move on and forget about all this crap thought after this long it would be a distant memory but still rolling in the damage.

Thanks for the post, Billy.  Adrenalin surges can be frustrating, particularly when one is still sensitive to certain experiences.   Sometimes, trying to forget about our past or push it away, can make things worse.  Learning to deal with memories or even reframing some of them can be helpful.  The book "Finding Life Beyond Trauma" by Victoria Follette might be helpful to you.

Best,

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