Author Topic: You will heal too!  (Read 108538 times)

[Buddie]

You will heal too!
« on: April 15, 2012, 05:38:59 pm »
I [...] to encourage those of you who are [...] suffering in withdrawal today.

Itís been 2 years since I took my last pill and my health is great!  At about 9-10 months off I was doing fantastic and could not believe all my symptoms had finally disappeared. The truth is I donít even think about withdrawal anymore, but wanted to come and share my success story with you all.

I was prescribed Ativan, Klonopin and Xanax at different times for about 13 years for anxiety and depression. Eventually I reached a point that the benzoís were no longer working, so my body was forced to get off of them. At the time I noticed it wasnít working any longer I was up to 4 mgís Klonopin a day. At first I went off the Klonopin cold turkey, but that sent me to the ER, so I tapered for about a year. The year I tapered and the year after that I was recovering from getting off the benzoís were the most horrific years of my life. The withdrawal symptoms were excruciatingly painful.  Some of the withdrawal symptoms I experienced were:

Extreme hot and cold flashes
Sweating
Nausea/ vomiting
Body aches/ muscle pain
Extreme sensitivity to hot, cold, sound and light
Shaking/ tremors
Occasional numbness and tingling in fingers and toes
Electrical shocks throughout entire body
Inability to focus on anything (reading and driving was impossible)
Distorted vision and hearing
Hallucinations
Night terrors (terrifying dreams that felt and seemed physically real)
Insomnia (sometimes no more than 1-2 hours a night)
Headaches
Weight loss
Dizziness (unable to walk without holding on to something or someone)
Crawling sensations on the skin
Tooth pain (as though my teeth were made out of metal and metallic taste in my mouth)
Agoraphobia

I often wore sunglasses even indoors because light hurt my eyes so much. My ears were sensitive too. For many months even the sound of a pen falling was painful so I wore earplugs.  When I was able to, I listened to TV and radio on the lowest settings. Certain fabrics hurt my skin. My teeth felt metallic and eating foods high in salts and sugars was painful. It felt like every nerve in my body was damaged to the extreme. I was bedridden for a year and wasn't sure the pain would ever end.....but it did.

Things that helped me survive these symptoms were:

Heating pads
Ice packs
Watching movies to distract from the pain
Eating whole unprocessed foods
Drinking lots of water
Avoiding things high in caffeine like coffee, tea and soda
No alcohol
Warm baths
A deep desire to not let benzoís beat me
Positive speech
Prayer

I read the success stories here and it gave me [...] that I would one day recover too. It was very hard to hold on, but Iím glad I did. Life is beautiful now and I am so grateful that I am off all medications and doing well on a healthy diet alone. I donít need antidepressants or benzo's at all anymore and actually feel better now than I did when I was taking them. Exercise and eating healthy can change your life. Itís hard to do this when you feel so bad, so take small steps and accept your friends and families help. There are no heroes in withdrawal, so donít be afraid to ask for help when you need it.
 
There is so much to say about what I went through, but I wanted to keep this as short as possible. I encourage everyone to stay focused on the end goal of getting off of benzo's and staying off, but please do not stop them cold turkey.  There are so many ways to combat anxiety without meds. I only wish I had learned that before.

Healing is possible.  Focus on speaking positively about your life and getting well, also focus on your health rather than stressing and worrying about every little symptom. Eventually they will all go away with time. Even sleep will come back! Your body will remember. What I learned is that when this is over youíll be much stronger and youíll appreciate life like never before.

All my best for a happy and healthy recovery!
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[Buddie]

Re: You will heal too!
« Reply #1 on: April 15, 2012, 05:45:25 pm »
[...],

Your "success story" timing was brilliant. I [...] posted about how scared I'm getting as I approach the end of my taper. I go from .05mg Klon to .025Klon tonight (equiv to 1mg Val --> .5mg Val) and then I take my last poison pill on Saturday. As noted in my signature, I was on .25mg Klon for 9 weeks and have a 6 week taper plan. I am so terrified that, even with the withdrawal I feel now, that the worst is yet to come and that my life will never be the same. Seeing that after your long-term use, you consider yourself healed and feeling great is so inspiring and helpful right now. Keeps me focused on the goal - no turning back. I want my life back and I'm willing to fight for it, even I don't know what the next weeks or months may bring. And, as you said, I am so much more appreciative of all that I have and will never take things for granted again.

Thanks for the support!
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[Buddie]

Re: You will heal too!
« Reply #2 on: April 15, 2012, 06:55:10 pm »
So happy this encouraged you to keep going Stanford!  Don't worry, you'll be well again!

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[Buddie]

Re: You will heal too!
« Reply #3 on: April 15, 2012, 07:00:55 pm »
Thank you so much for coming back and giving us your success story. You went through so much; it is great to see you are doing so well.
It gives such [...] and affirmation to read your story. Again, thank you, go well and enjoy your [...].
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[Buddie]

Re: You will heal too!
« Reply #4 on: April 15, 2012, 07:04:07 pm »
Congratulations [...],

I am happy for you, and thanks for sharing your story.  I am also completely healed now, but I can appreciate the encouragement that those who are [...] suffering can gain from reading success stories.

the best to you

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[Buddie]

Re: You will heal too!
« Reply #5 on: April 15, 2012, 07:08:39 pm »
[...] and [...], thanks for posting, we need all the [...] we can get!!
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[Buddie]

Re: You will heal too!
« Reply #6 on: April 15, 2012, 08:22:12 pm »
[...],

After 20 years use of Librium (equiv to 12mg Valium per night) i am now 9.5 months into a very slow taper, i am at equivalent to 3.8mg Valium now and i am looking at a lot longer to get free...

THANK YOU for posting this, it was really needed as i am often of the opinion that i can and will get through this via a slow taper and yet at other times i think i have been on this drug for too long to ever heal, your post really helped me today.

It is [...] so good to hear you are healed, i have had many of the symptoms you had but not all and i am also wondering what the rest of my taper will be like, yet with your post, the fact that you healed and your symptoms fell away is enormously encouraging, i am very grateful you took time to pass on a message and that healing is possible.

It goes without saying, i am hugely happy for you to have held on for the good stuff to happen, it is a HUGE accomplishment, well done and congratulations on getting your life back, that is [...] wonderful.

Enjoy it. :thumbsup:

You have helped many by posting here, much appreciated.

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[Buddie]

Re: You will heal too!
« Reply #7 on: April 15, 2012, 08:54:57 pm »
Thanks [...] for posting this. We all need to hear that healing happens and that we'll be fine again.

Congratulations of being 2 years free and having your life back.

Laura
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[Buddie]

Re: You will heal too!
« Reply #8 on: April 15, 2012, 10:01:49 pm »
[...]...Thanks for taking the time to come back and post your success story. I fear that many people when they start to feel much better [...] move along and get back to their lives, and who can blame them. The unfortunate part for us left behind is that we didn't see that they were successful and garner encouragement from it. Your taking the time to do this has been immensely important and uplifting to us all. Thanks again, and enjoy your new healthy life.

Bill
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[Buddie]

Re: You will heal too!
« Reply #9 on: April 15, 2012, 11:14:08 pm »
[...],

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your healing story! It brings me great [...] - [...] what I needed today!  I am 9+ months off, and hoping that things are going to really turn around soon, but the progress has been slow.  Thanks for making it easier to look forward to the future - you stated things so well! Best wishes to you in your wonderful [...]!

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