Author Topic: My Journey  (Read 40136 times)

[Buddie]

Re: My Journey
« Reply #250 on: January 31, 2019, 12:10:04 pm »

thank you very much for your story is similar to mine but I [...] have not reached success. I have read it many times especially because I had taken valium just like me. I also had a depression in 2013 for which I had to take escitalopram and I had never had that feeling before and I think that benzodiazepines helped to decrease the production of serotonin. Now for the great moment in which he finds himself, I hope he does not take long to arrive
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[Buddie]

Re: My Journey
« Reply #251 on: March 16, 2019, 11:11:15 am »
Did the agoraphobia went away ?
Thank you your story is so inspiring

Thank you for stopping by [...] sorry I am late with my reply.  I have been so busy on and off the forum, I will send a pm.   Yes the agoraphobia did go away but it took a while.  16/18 month mark, the fear lessened in intensity and I gained some of the strength I had lost. I got back some of the push I always had!.     It was far from easy, I couldnít just get up and go.  I sat outside my door for short periodsÖ5 then10 minutes at first!   Then made it to the gate,   to the end of the avenue,  it took a few weeks.  I remember my first walk with the dog to the local park, (10 minutes away) my heart racing, shaking!  My hood up and head down all the way avoiding eye contact.

My agoraphobia started in tolerance, long before I found out the root of all my symptoms.  I had been struggling and housebound for a long time.    I remember my first trip to the shopping centre was sheer terror.  I was sweating, shaking.. crying at one point.  The supermarket seemed a lot bigger than before.   It took me quite a few attempts before I was able to stop myself running out to sit in the car.   It was hard.. but I got some strength back, this enabled me to keep trying.  It got easier the more I pushed myself  until I eventually made it to the checkout.  What an accomplishment, learning how to spend money again! lol

Anyone who has  agoraphobia social phobia, or is housebound for a long time throughout this process.  It can be hard to get back into socialising, especially if you are  like me.   I didn't see many people, while going through this process!  Friends and family members stopped calling.   I read somewhere about going to places you donít need to talk , like a library, museum/art gallery.  It did help in getting used to being around people. 

Stay positive, life will get better
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[Buddie]

Re: My Journey
« Reply #252 on: March 16, 2019, 11:12:47 am »
Hi [...]!!!
I have been spending a bit more time here lately. Not sure why but I know there is a reason. Maybe I am reminding myself of what I went through...?
Glad you are doing well.
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Hi [...]

Sorry I am late here, I have been busy on and off the forum,   I am glad you are sticking around, I know what you went through, you had such a tough time. Thank you for being so supportive to our members

Thanks for stopping by

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[Buddie]

Re: My Journey
« Reply #253 on: March 16, 2019, 11:14:23 am »
what month did your anxiety stop

Great job with your success

Thank you [...],  I canít remember exactly,  it was around  15/16 months. It didnít just disappear like some symptoms, it just got less intense, and the more active I became, the less anxious I was. The dreadful  morning anxiety eased off around 12 months mark. 

You will eventually get better, stay positive.

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[Buddie]

Re: My Journey
« Reply #254 on: March 16, 2019, 11:16:22 am »
Hi [...];was nice reading your story and to know that there is recovery Iím eighteen weeks off now after twenty five years using Valium,about 50% healed I think,not out of the woods yet but hopefully I will write a success story sometime xxfrank d

Hi frank, sorry I am late with my reply.  Well done on getting off these drugs.  It sounds like you are doing okay,  I would wait until you are mostly recovered before doing a success story.    What symptoms do you have now?   Just stay positive, distract as much as you can from remaining symptoms.  You will eventually come through this, life will get better.

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[Buddie]

Re: My Journey
« Reply #255 on: March 16, 2019, 11:22:05 am »
Hi [...],
   I have just read your post "My Journey" thank you for posting it and for your dedication to helping us all. Its so uplifting to know there are people in the world with such good hearts.
 I have a question if you dont mind. Did you have any difficulty.  with insomnia on your taper and if so how did you deal with it?
Thank you,

Hi [...]

I thank you for your kind words, sorry I am late with my reply.  I have been so busy on and off the forum.  Insomnia is a dreadful symptom, I was lucky if I got more than 2/ 3 hours, you have to do the best you can.  I rested my body at every opportunity, sat in a chair, and listened to relaxation tapes.   Insomnia is one of the worst benzo withdrawal symptoms for many of us.  If  we are not getting proper sleep, it makes all of our other symptoms worse.   

Keep going, do the best you can until it changes, sleep will come,  lack of it will not stop you reaching the finish line.

Stay positive,  thank you for stopping by.

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[Buddie]

Re: My Journey
« Reply #256 on: March 16, 2019, 11:27:30 am »

thank you very much for your story is similar to mine but I [...] have not reached success. I have read it many times especially because I had taken valium just like me. I also had a depression in 2013 for which I had to take escitalopram and I had never had that feeling before and I think that benzodiazepines helped to decrease the production of serotonin. Now for the great moment in which he finds himself, I hope he does not take long to arrive

Hi [...]

This process can take such a long time, but its worth the wait, it will eventually get better, life does come good again.  My heart goes out to anyone suffering with depression.  It was after reaching tolerance level I started feeling depressed, it got really worse during my taper, I thought I was losing my grip.  My doctor prescribed mirtazapine, no one mentioned the benzo could be my problem!    I took the a/d reluctantly (family pressure) for 3 years.  I was a year tapering off, awful drug.   

Be patient and keep positive, it will get better,  you will eventually recover when the time is right. Sorry I am late getting here, thanks for stopping by

Hang in there, recovery will happen.

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[Buddie]

Re: My Journey
« Reply #257 on: March 20, 2019, 10:44:16 pm »
Hi [...]!!
I do not spend a lot of time here now but I have noticed you are not as present here. Are you no longer a Mod??? I hope you know how much you helped me over those first couple years of benzo horror. Your calming, sensible voice resonated with me and helped me get through it all.
I am fine. I have two  weird symptoms that only started in WD but I ignore them and carry on. I am getting too old now to worry about this sort of thing. I just keep on going, no matter what. My benzo experience did change me in some very interesting ways. Totally unexpected ways. I became OCD about cleaning, for one. Weird, huh? That started back in perhaps 2013, a year after I went CT off b enzos. It got stronger and eventually I put it to use  for me. I now clean houses to earn money despite being 69 years old now. Weird but very true.
Sweet [...], thank you for helping me get through it all. IO will never forget how lovely you were to me.
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[Buddie]

Re: My Journey
« Reply #258 on: May 11, 2019, 07:35:53 am »
Hi [...]!!
I do not spend a lot of time here now but I have noticed you are not as present here. Are you no longer a Mod??? I hope you know how much you helped me over those first couple years of benzo horror. Your calming, sensible voice resonated with me and helped me get through it all.
I am fine. I have two  weird symptoms that only started in WD but I ignore them and carry on. I am getting too old now to worry about this sort of thing. I just keep on going, no matter what. My benzo experience did change me in some very interesting ways. Totally unexpected ways. I became OCD about cleaning, for one. Weird, huh? That started back in perhaps 2013, a year after I went CT off b enzos. It got stronger and eventually I put it to use  for me. I now clean houses to earn money despite being 69 years old now. Weird but very true.
Sweet [...], thank you for helping me get through it all. IO will never forget how lovely you were to me.
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Hello [...]!

Sorry I am late getting here.  I am [...] here!  Thank you for your kind words I know you had a tough time [...], like me!  We are both of us, [...] here helping and supporting best we can.   I am sorry about the weird symptoms,  some of us can have stubborn symptoms that linger for quite a long while...I think they will go eventually!   I am so pleased you don't give these symptoms any importance and choose to ignore them...its great if you can do that!   

I know about your cleaning [...], you should be so proud of yourself!!   Thanks again for your words of kindness, I am so glad I was able to help in some way.  I had someone helping me through this hell, its great to come through it and be able to give back.  You are also giving back, I thank you [...] for your continued support for members,

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