[ma...] Posted January 14, 2012 Share Posted January 14, 2012 IT GETS BETTER Will I ever get well I used to say, would recovery happen for me The words echo on the forum “You will get better when you’re free”. I didn’t believe it, I will never get well I was far too ill to survive It’s hard to believe that despite my doubts two years later I am alive. Two years ago I was on my knees I couldn’t stand the pain My doctor said it was all in my head and my family thought the same Such a lonely existence in benzo hell, and nobody wants to know I had many friends i was fun to be around now they cant wait to go Cant they see I am sick cant they see its real, they know me, I don’t pretend. What is wrong with them all, why don’t they believe, I thought they were my friends My skin hurts my bones are burning even the roots of my hair are sore Losing my mind and I am sick of being sick and I don’t want to live anymore. When I look back at how my life was I know I have come a long way I had every symptom in the Ashton manual but I haven’t got many today. My taper was hell, but I did it somehow, with the help of a forum so brave I shall remember you all, you saved my life thanks for the knowledge you gave Today I am free from that evil pill I have been free just over a year, I am able to smile I’m not crying no more, and I don’t have that terrible fear Thank God for the wonderful forums the admins and mods are the best The courage and compassion from its members to have met them I feel incredibly blessed. You are all unsung heroes Margarita xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[cd...] Posted January 14, 2012 Share Posted January 14, 2012 Great job, Margarita! And congrats on your success! cdawg Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[...] Posted January 14, 2012 Share Posted January 14, 2012 IT GETS BETTER Will I ever get well I used to say, would recovery happen for me The words echo on the forum “You will get better when you’re free”. I didn’t believe it, I will never get well I was far too ill to survive It’s hard to believe that despite my doubts two years later I am alive. Two years ago I was on my knees I couldn’t stand the pain My doctor said it was all in my head and my family thought the same Such a lonely existence in benzo hell, and nobody wants to know I had many friends i was fun to be around now they cant wait to go Cant they see I am sick cant they see its real, they know me, I don’t pretend. What is wrong with them all, why don’t they believe, I thought they were my friends My skin hurts my bones are burning even the roots of my hair are sore Losing my mind and I am sick of being sick and I don’t want to live anymore. When I look back at how my life was I know I have come a long way I had every symptom in the Ashton manual but I haven’t got many today. My taper was hell, but I did it somehow, with the help of a forum so brave I shall remember you all, you saved my life thanks for the knowledge you gave Today I am free from that evil pill I have been free just over a year, I am able to smile I’m not crying no more, and I don’t have that terrible fear Thank God for the wonderful forums the admins and mods are the best The courage and compassion from its members to have met them I feel incredibly blessed. You are all unsung heroes Margarita xx Wow, that is amazing. Long term user recovery. Thanks for the wonderful poem. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[pe...] Posted January 14, 2012 Share Posted January 14, 2012 Always loved your poems Magrita x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ma...] Posted January 15, 2012 Author Share Posted January 15, 2012 Thank you Cdawg, Kian and Pembs love Margarita x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Mt...] Posted January 18, 2012 Share Posted January 18, 2012 Thank you so much for the beautiful poem Magrita.... mtnhigh Carlos Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ma...] Posted January 19, 2012 Author Share Posted January 19, 2012 Hello Carlos I notice your 6 months free....well done to you and thanks for posting love Margarita Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Me...] Posted January 20, 2012 Share Posted January 20, 2012 I only read your beautiful poem today, Magrita. Thank you for posting it. I am still where you were in the first 12 lines but even your title gives me hope and inspiration. love Carol x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[La...] Posted January 20, 2012 Share Posted January 20, 2012 That was very inspiring, thank you Ladygrace. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ma...] Posted January 20, 2012 Author Share Posted January 20, 2012 I only read your beautiful poem today, Magrita. Thank you for posting it. I am still where you were in the first 12 lines but even your title gives me hope and inspiration. Hey Carol You are going to get well again Carol, you will get your life back in spite of what your going through now. I know how hard it is to see this when your in the thick of it.....i thought i had no chance. Your going to be ok girl love Margarita Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[la...] Posted February 1, 2012 Share Posted February 1, 2012 Hey Margo, I just saw your poem tonight. It's so beautiful and inspiring. Love Laura Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ma...] Posted February 9, 2012 Author Share Posted February 9, 2012 Never give up, I was so ill when I wrote this poem and I didn’t think I would make it. Believe me it does all go away and we eventually get our lives back 9 Months into my taper Dec 2009 now at 6mgs ENDLESS TORMENT Its never ending, that’s how I feel the horror of withdrawal goes on Not eating or sleeping not living at all and all of my strength has gone Yes I am crying again, sorry cant help it so desperate to be free from the pain Trying hard not to crumble, I am struggling, its hell, so scared that I’m going insane I know it’s the drugs but when you’re in a dark place its hard to see were your going Is there a flicker of light at the end of it all at the moment I have no way of knowing Everything looks dark and dirty there are no shades of yellow or green My spirit is low don’t know how far I’ll go this is by far the worst I have ever been I feel I have let you all down I can’t even be bothered to post Ashamed of myself I have deserted my friends all the people I care for the most No words can express the love that I feel, my fellow sufferers you are the best All the hurt and the suffering I have witnessed here, to know you I have been blessed I have got through some awful events in my life, I always thought I was strong But these evil drugs I am sorry to say are beginning to prove me wrong Damn those pharmaceutical companies, I hate them for putting us through hell And Doctors who knowingly prescribe benzos, making us all feel unwell God I am feeling so angry, I was a fun girl the belle of the ball I will have to get rid of this hatred or I’ll never get well at all What’s done is done I have to move on cant turn back time that’s for sure Just exist in the moment that’s what I have to do, I cant do anything more Dec 2009 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[pe...] Posted February 9, 2012 Share Posted February 9, 2012 Very good poem Magrita x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[sa...] Posted February 17, 2012 Share Posted February 17, 2012 Margarita, Your writing is so moving. Biy that is probably all of us at one time or another on this journey. Thank you for sharing su h deep personal part if you. That's why we can do it, I think. Because of the understanding we get here. I'm glad ypur here too ms zopato y rojo! ♥U, Marg! Sarah~ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ho...] Posted February 17, 2012 Share Posted February 17, 2012 Never give up, I was so ill when I wrote this poem and I didn’t think I would make it. Believe me it does all go away and we eventually get our lives back 9 Months into my taper Dec 2009 now at 6mgs ENDLESS TORMENT Its never ending, that’s how I feel the horror of withdrawal goes on Not eating or sleeping not living at all and all of my strength has gone Yes I am crying again, sorry cant help it so desperate to be free from the pain Trying hard not to crumble, I am struggling, its hell, so scared that I’m going insane I know it’s the drugs but when you’re in a dark place its hard to see were your going Is there a flicker of light at the end of it all at the moment I have no way of knowing Everything looks dark and dirty there are no shades of yellow or green My spirit is low don’t know how far I’ll go this is by far the worst I have ever been I feel I have let you all down I can’t even be bothered to post Ashamed of myself I have deserted my friends all the people I care for the most No words can express the love that I feel, my fellow sufferers you are the best All the hurt and the suffering I have witnessed here, to know you I have been blessed I have got through some awful events in my life, I always thought I was strong But these evil drugs I am sorry to say are beginning to prove me wrong Damn those pharmaceutical companies, I hate them for putting us through hell And Doctors who knowingly prescribe benzos, making us all feel unwell God I am feeling so angry, I was a fun girl the belle of the ball I will have to get rid of this hatred or I’ll never get well at all What’s done is done I have to move on cant turn back time that’s for sure Just exist in the moment that’s what I have to do, I cant do anything more Dec 2009 Thank you. I really needed this today. I am so low. Your words are so true. And this message will get me through today: Never give up, I was so ill when I wrote this poem and I didn’t think I would make it. Believe me it does all go away and we eventually get our lives back Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ma...] Posted March 3, 2012 Author Share Posted March 3, 2012 Never give up, I was so ill when I wrote this poem and I didn’t think I would make it. Believe me it does all go away and we eventually get our lives back 9 Months into my taper Dec 2009 now at 6mgs ENDLESS TORMENT Its never ending, that’s how I feel the horror of withdrawal goes on Not eating or sleeping not living at all and all of my strength has gone Yes I am crying again, sorry cant help it so desperate to be free from the pain Trying hard not to crumble, I am struggling, its hell, so scared that I’m going insane I know it’s the drugs but when you’re in a dark place its hard to see were your going Is there a flicker of light at the end of it all at the moment I have no way of knowing Everything looks dark and dirty there are no shades of yellow or green My spirit is low don’t know how far I’ll go this is by far the worst I have ever been I feel I have let you all down I can’t even be bothered to post Ashamed of myself I have deserted my friends all the people I care for the most No words can express the love that I feel, my fellow sufferers you are the best All the hurt and the suffering I have witnessed here, to know you I have been blessed I have got through some awful events in my life, I always thought I was strong But these evil drugs I am sorry to say are beginning to prove me wrong Damn those pharmaceutical companies, I hate them for putting us through hell And Doctors who knowingly prescribe benzos, making us all feel unwell God I am feeling so angry, I was a fun girl the belle of the ball I will have to get rid of this hatred or I’ll never get well at all What’s done is done I have to move on cant turn back time that’s for sure Just exist in the moment that’s what I have to do, I cant do anything more Dec 2009 Thank you. I really needed this today. I am so low. Your words are so true. And this message will get me through today: Hi Hope Sorry i have only just noticed your post,So glad it helped at that time Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ho...] Posted March 3, 2012 Share Posted March 3, 2012 I am so much better than that day! Thank you again for the post. I read it frequently! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ma...] Posted March 3, 2012 Author Share Posted March 3, 2012 Hey Margo, I just saw your poem tonight. It's so beautiful and inspiring. Love Laura Aww Laura My Little Angel I have just come here to copy my poem for a fellow sufferer and noticed your post bless you Margarita Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Bi...] Posted March 3, 2012 Share Posted March 3, 2012 Magrita, Thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ma...] Posted March 3, 2012 Author Share Posted March 3, 2012 Magrita, Thanks Thanks for reading Billy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[la...] Posted March 3, 2012 Share Posted March 3, 2012 Lovely Margarita Love Lau Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[os...] Posted March 4, 2012 Share Posted March 4, 2012 I read that and now my eyes are red and tears running down my face... a lump in my throat, i am so glad it got better for you. Thank you. Oscar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[os...] Posted March 4, 2012 Share Posted March 4, 2012 Margarita, after being on Librium for 20 years, this has truly given me hope. I cannot thank you enough for this. God bless you and i hope for total healing for you, i really do. Oscar. xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ja...] Posted March 4, 2012 Share Posted March 4, 2012 Margerit I am so move by your poem i felt you spoke what i feel. and you are right we have to let go of our bitterness to get well. How well said. Im so happy you are well and you give me hope today Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Re...] Posted March 4, 2012 Share Posted March 4, 2012 Margrita Wonderful poem. Going to print this off. Xox Pam Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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