Author Topic: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?  (Read 3121 times)

[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #10 on: February 08, 2011, 01:51:20 am »
Can I jump in here?!!?!?

Thank you for this - I asked a similar question today. Very comforting that the real me will return and all will be right in the world. Patience is the hard thing.....and not allowing the thoughts to stick to me/us. I have heard that we should see our thoughts like little boats floating by the window of our mind and we just need to let some of the thoughts float away and keep the ones we want. Sounds easy.....right?  ::)

Maybe if we get good at this while we are coming off benzo's our ability to control thoughts will be amazig when the healing is over?!?! We will be able to bend steel with our minds - or something like that.  ;D

There must be a more proactive way to control our thoughts. We should think the positive thought before the negative one gets the chance to intrude. Sounds easy....right?  ::)

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[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #11 on: February 08, 2011, 02:18:05 am »
[...],  What a great, positive thought...that we may become skilled at controlling our thoughts and recognizing them for what they are.  I do think we'll be some pretty strong people after this is over!

In one of the posts I recently read, I forget where, someone was talking about when these thoughts came on, they would just stare blankly ahead and force themselves not to think anything at all.  I thought, I could NEVER do that!  But I tried it the other night when I found my mind racing with negative thoughts, and it kind of worked!  It was like I forced myself into this almost zombie state and told myself, I'm not going to have any thoughts.  Haha  Sounds crazy, and I'm sure it would take some practice to get really good at it, but I did find it somewhat helped.  (I guess maybe that is why some people have a lot of luck with meditation, because you are trying to clear and empty the mind.)  Obviously, I think it would be beneficial to have the power to think OTHER thoughts and overtake those negative, intrusive thoughts, but one thing I have noticed is that my rational brain is not functioning correctly.  I can tell myself one thing, but the irrational brain just keeps overtaking it.  The mental end of this and the thoughts we have in benzo w/d can be such a beast!
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[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #12 on: February 08, 2011, 06:44:33 am »
Just reminding people that when I had tons of these when withdrawing I was never sure if it was withdrawal or natural mental issues, but now I have them much much much much much less.  So you can be at least decently sure they will stop at some point.
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[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #13 on: February 11, 2011, 07:28:19 pm »
Thank you ---this is reassuring and helps alot!  I will keep reminding myself of this, when I am having these awful thoughts and questioning my thinking.  Thank you. 
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[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #14 on: February 12, 2011, 11:09:00 am »
Hello everyone,

I also suffer from anxiety and panic disorder. That was the reason why I ended up on benzos. I am 1 month and a few days of Clonazepam and still under paroxetin.

I dont get those kind of thougths but I always worry about my heart condition. I am a 26 year old male in decent shape, need to loose some extra pounds and never had problems. Before leaving venezuela to austria in September 2010 I had all exams you can imagine performed, echo, electro, visit to cardiologist, internist, you name it. They all say I am in perfect shape and my heart is totally alright.

Anyways, my thoughts are usually related to my health, what if I have a stroke, what if I faint, what is the ambulance numer...? Hahaha i have travled in one month to 6 different countries and I checked always for the ambulance number. Anyone else thoughts like this?

I hope our anxiety gets better once we are farther away from the withdrawal, any experiences with that?
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[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #15 on: February 13, 2011, 12:48:00 am »
HI [...],
I too worry about my health the most.   At one point I was checking my pulse and blood pressure way too often!   I have since realized how unhealthy it is to worry about my health - how about the irony there? 
Best wishes to you!
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[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #16 on: February 13, 2011, 01:46:27 am »
I have also been noticing more anxiety since tapering and getting off clonazepam.  I check my blood pressure all the time even though I know what I'm going through is not health related.  I have also had all the tests, including an MRI for MS.  All tests came back normal.  These withdrawals are difficult to handle and I obsess about my health and wonder if I need to go to the ER.  I hope the withdrawals get better for all of us.  This sucks!!!!
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[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #17 on: February 14, 2011, 05:50:40 pm »
Congratulations on being benzo free. I must agree that this withdrawel sucks hard core. We really have to be dedicated to long-term healing. At this point, there is no going back, so we must push forward and hope for the best. It is a real leap of faith and much more difficult than anything I could have imagined. I really don't see many other things as more challenging, but I understand there are a lot of people suffering with horrible deseases. Our challenge is the mental game more than the physical - at least for me. The withdrawel tries to take your soul (and replace it with fear and depression) and you wonder if the real you is ever going to come back. People who have gone through this have given us assurance that we do come back, but that seems like a dream right now.

We must push on with faith and hope that all will be well. I hope you will have that same faith. We must stay strong with positive affirmations - here are some of my favorite:

I send peace to my mind/body/soul
I want to be happy
I want to feel good
I am happy

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[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #18 on: February 14, 2011, 09:56:15 pm »
everyday, worthlessness because I cannot do anything right because my brain is messed up.  Major terror, more bills piling in I don't think I can pay on time, unable to work feeling like a loser there.... Can't read, blurry vision, very very very messed up instrusive thoughts... I want to do things with my kids but what when they get home from school?  I'm a zombie...
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[Buddie]

Re: Obessive, Intrusive Thoughts?
« Reply #19 on: February 14, 2011, 11:53:40 pm »
Even though I feel this way, I must change the way I speak. I must talk as if I am already healed - or I will soon be healed. The power in intention changes the chemicals in our body and brain to work for us or against us. I think we will heal slower if we repeat our sickness and its symptoms over and over again. If we do this, we are basically confirming to our body that it is doing exactly the right thing (being sick). If we talk nice to it and continually speak peace and healing - it will respond. We have the power to motivate change. I hope you will do this as well and reduce your healing time. I hate to think that you will suffer.

I understand this is very difficult when you feel so bad. I am in the same boat with less than 60 days benzo free. I have all of the full blown symptoms (except my teeth are not falling out as one person described), but I can't allow them to stop my healing. Right now, I am seeking to reduce the time I spend in healing. If I can get my body to become my partner in this process - instead of the enemy, I will be much more successful.

If you must, you need to talk healing and positive messages to your body on a continual basis. Tell your mind that you are at peace with it. Tell yourself - I love you (over and over again). It really does feel good. This can get tiring, but I have long conversations with myself. I love myself and I enjoy talking to me. I am a good person to be with. I often tap the areas that I am talking to so they understand I am speaking to them. It's telling them to WAKE UP!!!!!

I wish you the best in your efforts to increase the healing process. Please give this a try....love yourself! Even Zombie's are lovable. Also, your family will see your efforts to be more positive.

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