why do i have these repeated mental compulsions?

there's this mental compulsion which asks me to repeat everything i see in my mind for thrice times. This happened after benzo withdrawal (ct). why do i have this mental compulsion? It is all present, very disturbing and debilitating, I wonder if I can be a normal person again with this.

anyone has such mental compulsion or thoughts?

Hi Ducktales,

I don't have OCD thoughts, but I do know the unexplainable mental terror and weird thoughs I can have in my taper. The brain is a complex thing. I think I've accepted all the weird bizarre things in my mind. My brain is messed up because of these Benzos, but I know someday I will be better. For me, the very slow taper seems to limit this crazyness.

there's this mental compulsion which asks me to repeat everything i see in my mind for thrice times. This happened after benzo withdrawal (ct). why do i have this mental compulsion? It is all present, very disturbing and debilitating, I wonder if I can be a normal person again with this.

 

anyone has such mental compulsion or thoughts?

Sure, but next to my thoughts of doom I will counter that with some of my positive thoughts.

Doom: "I might never get better" "Why is this happening to me?" "I never chose to be an addict / physcial dependent" "I'm forgetting everything" "I'm a burden to everyone around me" "I'm a loser" "This is taking forever" "So many good years lost to me" "I don't deserve this torture".

Positive: "I will get better" "Because doctors are ignorant fools" "I just didn't comprehend addiction" "My memory will get better again" "I'm not a burden, even in my withdrawal I'm on Benzobuddies trying to support others" "I'm a winner, because I've already come so far tapering" "This won't be forever" "Yes, some good years are lost, but who knows how good the coming years will be?" "Nobody deserves torture. I had a good spell for a bit and I will get good spells again!"

what weird bizarre things you have in your mind?can share examples?