Good morning, dear buddies! Thank you again to everyone for the kind and supportive posts! Sorry I didn't respond to you again, [...]. Honestly, the lessons it's taught me feel infinite, but reflection feels a bit too complicated sometimes. But I'll say it again - the suffering pays off in the end, and I have no idea all of the reasons why. Maybe it's the "post traumatic growth" phenomena (I just read this article a few days ago which mentioned it again
https://www.nytimes.com/2022/04/21/opinion/suffering-trauma-wisdom.html). Maybe it's those dark painful corners of our subconscious that many of us are faced to swim around in. I know facing so many demons paid off for me. Trauma that plagued me for nearly a lifetime, is no longer causing me pain. And who knows, maybe our brain over-corrects. I feel like I have more gaba than ever in my life
. It's probably a combo of many things. All I know is the loss and pain over the last 7 years has paved the way for me to live a happier life, and others that healed before me have said the same.
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!! Great to hear from you, but sorry the symptoms are still so painful. I turned a big corner in my 5th year, so please keep that hope alive, b/c the day will come for you. I know how hopeless and endless it feels, but we're healing as each day passes, even though the symptoms makes it feel like we're stagnant. And THANK YOU for all of the love, support, and kindness you gave to me over the years, and so many BBs suffering along with you
. Please reach out anytime. Biggest hugs to you!
LOVE to all,
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