Author Topic: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month  (Read 1102 times)

[Buddie]

4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« on: March 10, 2022, 06:09:22 pm »
I wanted to post here to give a little encouragement today. This March, I am four years off Klonopin, in which I quit cold turkey. What ensued was the most miserable 2.5 years of my life. Severe chemical depression, suicidal ideation and homicidal ideation from the mental akathisia that could only be mildly controlled by walking constantly, insomnia that made life a nightmare, derealization, blurred vision, nerve burning all over my body, anhedonia, chemical anxiety, paranoia, being scared and sensitive to every television show or book or movie, amongst other horrors.

At about 30 months, I started noticing some minor improvements, especially after working out. From months 30-36, I felt a great deal of improvement. Now at 48 months off, I feel even better than I did at 36 months off. There is hope for those people who quit cold turkey and for those who become protracted. Just keep getting by day to day and the improvements will happen, even if at a glacial pace.
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« Reply #1 on: March 11, 2022, 04:00:03 am »
Thank you so much for coming back to report in.  It gives me hope that even a protracted recovery is possible...  I'm so glad for you...
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« Reply #2 on: March 30, 2022, 02:36:34 am »
hey boom,

i think i read that you were dealing with pssd like symptoms, have these resolved? how is your anhedonia?
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« Reply #3 on: March 30, 2022, 12:58:21 pm »
Hey Boomboxboy,

It's so good to see you write this post.  I remember calling you a few times on the phone and sending you a bunch of PMs way back when you were only about 10 months into this journey.  You thought (as most do) that something else was wrong with you and it wasn't just the Benzos causing your symptoms and issues.  You've come a long way.   Yes, there is hope, there is healing.  Time is the healer!

Continue to enjoy your Benzo free life to the fullest!
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« Reply #4 on: April 01, 2022, 05:34:06 pm »
hey boom,

i think i read that you were dealing with pssd like symptoms, have these resolved? how is your anhedonia?

The sexual side effects seem to be slowly improving but I still get some stretches of days with very low sex drive. But it does seem to be improving. The anhedonia is much better.
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« Reply #5 on: April 02, 2022, 12:48:01 pm »
Thanks for writing this and giving the forum hope. May you get complete healing ❤️‍🩹
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Re: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« Reply #6 on: April 02, 2022, 01:03:03 pm »


The sexual side effects seem to be slowly improving but I still get some stretches of days with very low sex drive. But it does seem to be improving. The anhedonia is much better.

thanks for the response. how far out were you when you began to notice improvement with these symptoms?
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« Reply #7 on: April 03, 2022, 03:09:16 pm »
The anhedonia started to improve slowly between 2-3 years. I don't remember the exact timeline. But by three years off, my interests had mostly come back.
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Re: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« Reply #8 on: April 29, 2022, 01:59:29 am »
This post gives me hope. I was cold turkeyed off of klonopin and an opioid and have had severe anhedonia for 14 months now. It's excruciating. But knowing you had it for as long as you did gives me hope that I might see a shift eventually. Thank you for sharing this. I really needed to hear this.
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Off Benzos This Month
« Reply #9 on: April 29, 2022, 03:29:36 pm »
The anhedonia will get better in time. For me, I started noticing some let up in my core symptoms from months 30-36. Things have continued to improve up till now and I'm now 49 months off.
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