Author Topic: Klonopin - Post Jump  (Read 2303 times)

[Buddie]

Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #20 on: April 06, 2022, 12:15:26 pm »
Hello all. Updating my status.

A little over 10 weeks post klonopin jump. Most days are the same with a little reprieve here and there. I would have hope to improved by now. Not sure what to be realistic about. 10 weeks I guess is really not that long.

I am still taking between 20-30 mg of melatonin and remeron at bedtime (have tried to taper the remeron a little, not sure that was a good idea). I also take a nasal spray and allegra and a occasional multivitamin.

My main symptoms are the tingling/amplified cns sensations in my head with the ear ringing. Rougher today with body shaking and more burning in my body and poor sleep.

Tired and worn out and fighting hopelessness. I know I cannot compare myself to others but was hoping I would show signs of improvement. As someone who is timing oriented, I would love to know improvement is right around the corner.

I also cannot help but wonder..is tapering remeron hurting me, is being on the remeron hurting me from healing, (should I be tapering and getting that out of my system), is it food I am eating, is it the melatonin, etc.

I do not see the point to see a doctor or a specialist. They likely would push more drugs.

Wishing all well.

Seeking.
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[Buddie]

Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #21 on: April 06, 2022, 08:13:43 pm »
I know this cliche is getting old but I'm really sorry it's such a struggle. I know from personal experience 10 weeks feel like a lot more when every day is spent in pain with little change.

You know this will change right? We all think "I'm going to be one that never heals". I read that in almost every success story. So there's no truth in that.

I don't think the Remeron is hurting your recovery. Personally I would not taper any other drug until I've given my brain enough time to recover from this ordeal.

One day a switch will turn and you'll see a difference. I promise.
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[Buddie]

Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #22 on: April 07, 2022, 05:16:56 pm »
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Thank you.
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Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #23 on: April 10, 2022, 12:13:52 pm »
Hello all. My thoughts and prayers for all of the BB community and your strength in dealing with this poison.

Today marks my 3-month post jump "anniversary".

My symptoms remain consistent. I would like to say I have seen glimpses in improvement, not really windows but a day here or there. My main symptoms remain the same with the head tingling, ear ringing, sometimes heart palpitations, and basically the nerve endings in my head feeling hypersensitive and in overdrive.

Intermittent burning in extremities. Sleep is spotty. I decided to stay at 7.5 mg of Remeron because of my body's instability right now. I hope it is not preventing healing.

Trying to focus on moving forward. Sometimes I cannot help but look back and play the losing why and what if game. Trying to stay positive and keep telling myself it will get better. I was nieve in thinking once I jump that maybe after a few months I would be done. Others advised me of post jump healing and timeframes (maybe it was hope on my part). Lesson learned.

One thing I keep telling myself to set expectations is that even though most of the time I was tapering I had the drug in my system for about 17 months (plus z drugs for a few months) so 3 months off is not really that long comparatively speaking.

Wishing all positive thoughts and energy and hoping for your success and a speedy recovery.

seeking.

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Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #24 on: April 10, 2022, 05:49:41 pm »
Seeking, thanks for the update.  I've been wondering how you are doing and sending you good, healing vibes.   :smitten:

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Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #25 on: April 11, 2022, 04:13:22 pm »
Thank you.
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Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #26 on: April 21, 2022, 09:05:05 pm »
Hello all. Just a little over 3 months post jump. My main symptoms are tingling all over my body and ringing in my ears. Sometimes I have burning but my biggest issue is the tingling, especially in my head.

I am trying to look forward but still question if I screwed up my taper somewhere. I know doing the liquid approach is more art than science and tried to do it thoroughly and honestly thought at this point I would be trending upward. I feel at this point I should have jumped instead of doing a year taper the way I feel right now because I am not sure how the taper helped me.

Also fighting fears that "it will always be this way". I appreciate all of the feedback and positive thoughts and comments sent my way. This royally sucks!

I was talking to a pharmacist today and she said "you did a year taper", wow. And I told her I was 3 months off and still feeling symptoms. She said that was not ordinary....

seeking
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[Buddie]

Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #27 on: April 21, 2022, 11:37:02 pm »
Seeking -

I am sorry to hear you are still suffering so much. Truly.

I still don't think you did anything wrong, or messed up your taper, or tapered for too long. I think it's just crappy luck that this misery is lasting as long as it is.

The doctors and pharmacists think all of our reactions are "unusual" because I think, statistically, they are. Those of us who experience severe benzo w/d/injury are in the minority. I've had to educate so many people about it, including therapists. The literature is out there, but it's still not widespread.

Please try to stop blaming yourself. It might help to talk to a benzo coach like Jennifer Leigh. I have had a few sessions with her and I like her. The only reason I suggest this is because she has met literally hundreds (if not thousands) or clients who have gone through awful withdrawals, and I believe she could confirm that you did nothing wrong. She might even have some helpful/encouraging advice.

Also, I go weekly for cranial sacral therapy and I think it's helping with my headaches and head issues. It might be something non-pharmaceutical to explore.

Just a thought or two. Sending you lots of care, Seeking.

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[Buddie]

Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #28 on: April 21, 2022, 11:38:12 pm »
You are on track for healing.
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Re: Klonopin - Post Jump
« Reply #29 on: April 22, 2022, 01:34:29 am »
Thanks. I think I will have a session with her.

Much appreciated. Sending positive thought’s your way.


Seeking -

I am sorry to hear you are still suffering so much. Truly.

I still don't think you did anything wrong, or messed up your taper, or tapered for too long. I think it's just crappy luck that this misery is lasting as long as it is.

The doctors and pharmacists think all of our reactions are "unusual" because I think, statistically, they are. Those of us who experience severe benzo w/d/injury are in the minority. I've had to educate so many people about it, including therapists. The literature is out there, but it's still not widespread.

Please try to stop blaming yourself. It might help to talk to a benzo coach like Jennifer Leigh. I have had a few sessions with her and I like her. The only reason I suggest this is because she has met literally hundreds (if not thousands) or clients who have gone through awful withdrawals, and I believe she could confirm that you did nothing wrong. She might even have some helpful/encouraging advice.

Also, I go weekly for cranial sacral therapy and I think it's helping with my headaches and head issues. It might be something non-pharmaceutical to explore.

Just a thought or two. Sending you lots of care, Seeking.

[...]  :mybuddy:
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