Thanks [...] - I like the one on PTSD. I have worried that I will never recover from the absolute trauma of this process. What she talks about makes sense.
We’re med injured - it’s causing the main problem at least.
I’m down to 2.4mg of Valium and I’m in a good window. It’s such a nice reminder that I’m still “in” here. I have had 2-3 days where I have actual interests in hobbies, I want to go out and do things, I don’t have to play mental games to avoid unpleasant thoughts.
I have gone for drives, worked on projects at home, journaled and drew some! Music sounds good again. 2 weeks ago I couldn’t tolerate music at all. Now it feels like my soul is awake. I did a yoga class and I felt like I was actually in the room. I usually feel like I’m on another planet and completely DP/DR during class. So, all that is to say, I know we’re still in here somewhere. I anticipate the window closing and diving back into a rough patch. I just decreased my dose 2 days ago. But I don’t think we’re broken forever. (At least in my current state of mind 😂)
It’s so nice to come up for air every now and then.
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