Ive been on BB for 9 years, and though i dont visit often I do check in and try to help CT people. I was one and know just how bad benzo wd can be.
[...], what you described is perfectly normal. For some reason, it seems that each person experiences different symptoms although we all have wd in common. And the reason Ct isnt ever suggested, for some people are forced by circumstances to go CT. I sure was.
One thing you described is something called "formication." Feeling like bugs are crawling you is a common neurolgical symptom. You may also notice other weird sensory symptoms. Hearing things strangely, sounds too loud, smelling odd stuff, seeing things that are not real, etc etc. They are a form of hallucination and all hallucinations come from your brain. No, you arent insane!!!!! Benzos work on your brain so when you take away the benzos, all hell can break loose. I have always found it interesting that some people who go CT off benzos and are just fine.
Finally, in the Benzo Community, 3 months is "short time." I was just as bad as you are at 3 months. I had read here that it often takes a year or longer to recovered from benzo wd. BB has always, rightfully, suggested one NEVER compare themselves to others here. Doing so can get you worked up as you consider you "might not be normal."
What seems to help most people are:
1. Distract yourself as much as possible
2. Dont just lie in bed feeling ill. Benzo wd is NOT an illness, its a temporary condition! Bedrest wont help at all and in fact, may make you feel worse, because in bed you will only focus on how awful you feel
3. Force yourself to remain optimistic, no matter what. People call this "faking it", and it really does help. Its difficult at first, because you feel so bad. But persist in doing this, and in time, its actually possible to BECOME optimistic.
4.Instead of griping about how bad your wd is, lend a hand to other people here. Doing so helps both you and that person
5. Dont obsess about your diet, or take supplements There really isnt anything out there that might help you and experimenting with other substances can even badly affect your healing.
6. Learn as much as you can about what causes you to feel so bad. Get a general understanding of WHY benzo wd can be so terrible and long lasting.
7. Do NOT reinstate!!!!
[...], 9 years after a horrendous CT off a 30 year habit of benzos every single night
