So [...] here's my understanding of your situation as you described. In January you were dosing 0.5mg three times a day but since your cross over you have changed back to twice a day. Your doctor wanted you to updose to 2mg but you didn't. Based on this advice your doctor suggested a 40mg cross over to Valium.
In your attempt to cross over for the first 3 days you took 20mg Valium in the morning and 0.75mg Xanax at night. Then yesterday you took 20mg Valium in the morning and at night you took 0.5mg Xanax + 10mg Valium based off this:
As far as mixing It has been a bit if a crap shoot. Yesterday I took 20 mg Valium at 1030 am and after about an hour or so I felt fine for the rest of the day. At night I took .5 xanax and 10mg Valium. And woke up feeling mild anxiety.
Before that i was taking about half and half approximately.
You never have to apologize for anything you have done. We are all trying to make sense of a very difficult process and we are trying the best we can.
If you can just confirm that my understanding of your situation is correct, we can try and see how to move forward.
Thanks for sticking with us! I know this can be frustrating.