C/T after less than 2 weeks of Ativan — 4 months update.

TL;DR: started getting panic attacks due to drinking. Got Ativan prescribed. At first took it to stop panic attacks, but then the panic attacks started on days without Ativan. I stopped cold turkey after taking a total of 10 0.5 mg pills in about 2 weeks.

 

The first few weeks were hell, and it feels like my mind is erasing how horrible it was. What followed were weeks and months of on and off classic symptoms — headaches, tinnitus, buzzing and tingling hands and feet, cortisol rushes, constant anxiety and panic, gi problems, etc.

 

Every week and month on average got better and better. I discovered that even decaf triggered me. I experimented with supplements — also discovered that discontinuing magnesium might have helped.

 

I stayed functional and kept a very healthy lifestyle. I’ve lost about 40 lbs and I’m in the best shape of my life. I run a 5k almost every morning now, which I didn’t think was possible. I don’t desire to drink alcohol but I do miss coffee. Maybe someday I’ll be able to handle decaf again.

 

Right now I’m either in a very nice window after a week of anxiety wave, or on the final stretch to 100% (let’s hope the latter). I started keto diet — I believe it’s really helping me.

 

I’m setting no recovery goals — at this point I know this can be a rollercoaster. All I can do is just continue living a healthy life.

 

Good luck everyone — time really is a healer.

What a great update kzw, I didn't expect to see such wonderful news, you just made my day!  I so appreciate the fact that you're not setting recovery goals, because let's face it, we have almost no control over this process so good on you! 

Great to read your progress report KZW!  We are on similar paths with short term usage.  Good message to inspire others that follow behind us.

Very very encouraging update. Im just starting -coming and giving progress reports helps so much. very happy for you