9 months benzo free

Hello everyone!

 

Today marks 9 months since I've been benzo free (10 since I started tapering). I have to take myself back to the first few months to see the healing because day to day it feels non-existing. I currently can function normally and I enjoy taking walks and exercising. The only symptoms left I have are jelly legs and nerve sensitivity, especially on my head and toes and my emotional stability is out of whack.

Since I'm a student and I have to spend a lot of time on my desk, it's a complete pain to feel like my legs are water and I have some sort of electric current going through them.

 

I hope next year brings me the complete healing I'm wishing for. I would really appreciate to make new friends and chat with some of you because no one in my life actually gets what I'm going through😞.

Hi Trendy, You are doing great!!!  You were such a short term user so your healing is well on its way to being total 100%.  You might want to post on the 9-12 month thread under Post Withdrawal Recovery Support.  Several buddies are at the same stage as you.  I know what you mean about the day to day healing seeming non-existent.  Same for me.  Keep going towards that light at the end of the tunnel.  We're all cheering you on.

I am right behind you. I recently took a bit of a hit in the depression department but have to remember (as you mentioned) how it was in the beginning and how far I have come. Even through the period of time the past few weeks of low mood (putting it mildly), I was able to resume operating a farmer's market pop up booth I have done for almost 8 years. I was able to drive both ways and interact with customers.

 

One thing I have done to help me with expectations is to look towards the 18 month mark as my goal for total healing. Meanwhile, it sounds like you are trending upwards We will all heal. It's just a bumpy ride sometimes!