So, God knows how many years since I got off my last dose of Clonazepam. I remember suffering just as much as all of you. Having depression, anxiety, muscle pain, ocular problems, tingling, Phantosmia, migraines, vomiting, stomach problems, and the list could go on and on. I remember thinking that the protracted withdrawal symptoms would never end and that I would always be stuck in this dark hole that many of you are stuck in. I was obese, on welfare, had no friends, and was alone. It sucked.
That, however, is no longer the case. It does fucking end, and it will end permanently as long as you stick to it and keep pushing forward. Slowly, piece by piece, things get better, and you will notice yourself achieving small victories but, you will also face setbacks; you cannot let those stop you. Do not give up and keep getting back up. Here are some achievements that I have had personally:
* I am no longer obese; I was 300+ pounds at 6ft; I am now 179 pounds and shredded.
* I have a Brown belt in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu and actively lift.
* I am currently working towards becoming a Real Estate agent and have passed the Realtor exam while also having the owner of a Brokerage mentor me.
* I have loads of friends now.
* I am no longer on any medication aside from Propranolol at the lowest dose (that is for my ocular migraines that are caused by genetics, they stop them completely)
This will and can be you! I don't know how many years have passed since I recovered, but I always wished to see a post like this show up in my darkest hour. A post that allows me to have a glimmer of hope. I am not lying; I am not trying to make up a story. I want you all to know that it does get better and will end, but you have to put the effort in even though it feels nearly impossible.
Now, I have one issue that has lingered since getting off of Benzos: my shoulder pain. It isn't because the Benzos caused it, and I don't believe it is a protracted withdrawal. It is there because the Benzos covered it up. It is an issue that can be fixed, and I will fix it eventually.
So, hopefully, this motivates some of you all. Life gets better.
