First i wish you luck with your trial,
But i need to say, it feels like you see ADs as the only thing your willing to take, maybe because its the only drugs that in your judgment are for case or your diagnose, but many drugs are used off label for anxiety, or maybe for this kind of messed up toughts leaded by this drug injure, im dealing with that shit too,
I told you what drug provided me relief back theh and i told you my history with it, ADs are something that mess me up given my brain or cns or whatever what got sensible due to what benzos did, and it revs me up bad, im just tellin you that again and again, and again, because you already had a bad reaction to ads, anyway in your eyes or judgment only ads are for you because you dont have anything that other drugs are capable to help, well good luck,
I hope other folks could give you their experience with ADs