"The most important word in your last post is "flexibility", I'm glad you're willing to listen to your body and introduce flexibility into your schedule. Please don't put time restraints on your taper, I know we call them taper schedules and we make them but it's really our symptoms that should be calling the shots.
Defiantly right about that, its just I get the feeling holding for too long isnt the option neither.
After I went through the cycle of the symptoms over 5 weeks period would the cycle start again if I held longer?
I mean can we actually get a breather by choosing to hold longer or is the breather making smaller cuts so the symptoms are less intense.
Its like dealing with pressure in moderation.
so far I've been managing
and doing pretty fine figuring this out.
The dangerous symptoms I am talking about are these:
http://www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php?topic=259048.msg3276515#msg3276515 which we called the doctor for it. they wanted to see me but I dont have a car so I couldn't go around midnight.
The other that I didn't mention was having a sort of outfall of a breathing like I couldn't breath on one side of the nose. that was very strange it happened one time for the first time the past week.
It was totally different from a stuffed nose hole or something.
Another was back in januari I woke up in the middle of the night with the feeling of a snake strangling my neck, I gasped for air.
Instinctively I kew I had to relax the muscle and then I could breath. sounded like a laryngospasms.
People can have this when they experience a lot of stress and anxiety I leanred. which was the case as this happened in the period before moving house. during w/d. a lot of family drama. I felt caged.
Have been tested for sleep apneu and that came back fine.
Im sorry [...] I hardly dare to speak about this as I dont want to make the suffering any worse for my fellow w/d people on here.
After the holiday I got some appointments waiting for me one of is a neurologist.
With the 2nd vaccine shot the doors open again to start seeing some specialists.
My last appointment was back in March this year, so I didnt let corona stop me however with the vaccine coming up I had a goal inmind and took a step back till my wife and I had these shots.
Im trying the best I can. this stuff is just so inhumane.
Therapy is coming but its taking too long as well. last therapy I had was july, august and september of 2020.
Its good to talk to people and learn cooping skills thus this will help nonetheless!
What else can I do?
options of going to a clinic have been in the back of my mind.
as a person I can manage mentally but these ocasional symptoms wont let me.
Risking getting poly drugged there while I would just need vital signs monitoring. I barely would need that as it happens so occasionally. rare.
Otherwise I manage just fine to taper at home.
also my wife is here for our daughter and she goes with her to work. during which, either of the grandmothers watch over her.
I'd say we got that part pretty much covered
Its just I dont want her to grow up without a father.
Sorry its time I let it all out.
