12-24 months and up support group

[[Buddie]]

That’s good she’s not normally like that. In that case sure it will improve once you  get over this horrible withdrawal. It is really hard for others, most my friends keep saying aren’t you better yet. Funny my son and I are very similar think that’s why we clash, both tend to shoot from hip if you know what I mean. Watching Elbow at Glastonbury at moment, one my favourite bands. Glad I was able to help instead moaning to people😊

[[Buddie]]

Hello to all,

[...],
I so appreciate your words of encouragement. It always makes me feel better to hear from someone else, instead of just my own words in my head. I'm hoping for that window any moment. I also use breathing techniques and positive self-talk. Although that can be very difficult when you're suffering tremendously but, that's the way I get through the day.

So happy that you had time to spend with your granddaughter.  I'm sure you enjoyed the time and will [...] her sweet little face. But it's wonderful you had the opportunity to bond.

Dea,
Thank you for the words of encouragement. I really like the idea of looking at all this in my rearview mirror. I am so more than ready for that.

Hugs to all!

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[[Buddie]]

Hello to all!   Checking in to see how everyone is faring on this new day of a new week?  And, maybe to get some much needed support!  I am waiting to hear from my GP who was going to call my OBGYN office this morning and get a more detailed explanation for the diagnosis of a thickening of my uterine wall.  My understanding is that the thickening width is important and measured in millimeters.  Coupled with this is my extreme nausea that has been going on since I took the two antibiotics, both of which I have been off of for several days.  I am waking up each morning with bad nausea, and an overall rebound of some of my earliest withdrawal symptoms, while now in my 27th month.  I seem to feel better by mid-afternoon and definitely by evening.  What is beyond belief is that two years ago I presented with almost the same symptoms of stomach and pelvic pain, nausea, and headaches and was tested for kidney stones, uti, and female issues.  CAT scan and pelvic sonogram all were normal, except for a cyst located between the kidney and the left ovary.  At present I have had all the same tests for the same symptoms, with the CAT scan and blood work normal, but the recent pelvic scan showed the thickening of the uterine wall.  Will see my OBGYN on July 5th to discuss further.

Could most of this still be bwd?  With the complication of the pelvic scan results?

Three weeks ago I felt so good and really thought this battle was over!

Sorry to whine but this is not a good feeling, especially the nausea.  Haven’t had this in a long time.  Maybe the antibiotics have really upset the apple cart?

Hugs to each and everyone of you😍😍😍😍😍

GG

[[Buddie]]

Hi all.  My story just gets worse.  Omg.  I just keep thinking is this going to happen over and over and over again.

Something set me back last week, Tuesday.  It was bad.  Really bad.  You all have been there.  Over the week it eased up just enough to be tolerable and then yesterday I had such intense leg pain I took advil (ibuprofren) just to cope.  After about 8 hours all hell broke loose and I am in the most intense wave yet.  Wow I cant believe how much your body can torture you and you still live through it!!  Advil is now on the no-no list!!

Sorry to be such a downer today.  Today is a hard one for me.  Ugh.

Hugs to you all.   

[[Buddie]]

I felt like I was in acute again for a couple of weeks after getting Covid. It did eventually pass. I couldn’t believe this far out would still get waves like that. It will pass for you. I’m suddenly feeling extremely fatigued all the time recently. This is so non linear it keeps giving  you new presents to deal with. Hope you soon improve.

[[Buddie]]

I felt like I was in acute again for a couple of weeks after getting Covid. It did eventually pass. I couldn’t believe this far out would still get waves like that. It will pass for you. I’m suddenly feeling extremely fatigued all the time recently. This is so non linear it keeps giving  you new presents to deal with. Hope you soon improve.

Thanks [...].  I would like to return this present please.

We are in this together.  Sending healing thoughts and energy your way.  Hugs!

[[Buddie]]

I will be 21 months off valium tomorrow.

In a very nasty & painful wave. My lower back and abdomen (virtually always on my right side) have been locked up for several days now.  Could barely walk and move yesterday.  Hunched over and shuffling along. 

Anyone else had a bad wave so far along?

[[Buddie]]

Hello to all!   Checking in to see how everyone is faring on this new day of a new week?  And, maybe to get some much needed support!  I am waiting to hear from my GP who was going to call my OBGYN office this morning and get a more detailed explanation for the diagnosis of a thickening of my uterine wall.  My understanding is that the thickening width is important and measured in millimeters.  Coupled with this is my extreme nausea that has been going on since I took the two antibiotics, both of which I have been off of for several days.  I am waking up each morning with bad nausea, and an overall rebound of some of my earliest withdrawal symptoms, while now in my 27th month.  I seem to feel better by mid-afternoon and definitely by evening.  What is beyond belief is that two years ago I presented with almost the same symptoms of stomach and pelvic pain, nausea, and headaches and was tested for kidney stones, uti, and female issues.  CAT scan and pelvic sonogram all were normal, except for a cyst located between the kidney and the left ovary.  At present I have had all the same tests for the same symptoms, with the CAT scan and blood work normal, but the recent pelvic scan showed the thickening of the uterine wall.  Will see my OBGYN on July 5th to discuss further.

Could most of this still be bwd?  With the complication of the pelvic scan results?

Three weeks ago I felt so good and really thought this battle was over!

Sorry to whine but this is not a good feeling, especially the nausea.  Haven’t had this in a long time.  Maybe the antibiotics have really upset the apple cart?

Hugs to each and everyone of you😍😍😍😍😍

GG

Hi GG....Knowing everything I do about this horror of a withdrawal experience I have some thoughts on your situation.  You took two antibiotics which are known in general to impact our gut microbiome, and some antibiotics impact the very receptors that were damaged by the benzos.  And didn't you have that GI bug just before those antibiotics? So putting these impacts together can very much lead to a return of early withdrawal symptoms in my opinion.  Very happy to hear that you are off the antibiotics now, but it takes awhile for the gut to recover.  I have read it could take several months for the microbiome to bounce back from antibiotic use.  How about taking those probiotics your GP once advised you about? 

My personal opinion about our healing is that even when we are FULLY over this mess, our bodies remember the trauma.  Not from a psychological perspective (although that could also be true) but from a cellular memory perspective.  Our immune system and nervous systems have a memory, at least in the shorter term.  When presented with similar insults the body goes right back to the processes that were in place before.  Just as with any traumatic injury to the body, we likely never can go back to the state of being that existed before this injury occurred.

I know it must be unsettling to have the OB/GYN stuff hanging over your head, but you are so good at having medical issues promptly reviewed.  I'm sure it will turn out to be either nothing or something that can easily be dealt with if necessary.  So while this is easy to say and very hard to do, try not to stress too much.  Be very very good to yourself.  Pamper yourself, and rest, and eat well.  Take a bath and soak.  Watch some funny movies!  This too shall pass   

[[Buddie]]

Deanna, I sent you a pm.  Thank you for your important and well thought out response to my concerns!

GG

[[Buddie]]

[...], we need to get off this awful hamster wheel we seem to be on.  I almost wrote a success story on May 5th, and now look at me…..and you!

We are hanging on by a toenail, but at least we are hanging on!

Hugs my friend,

GG