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[Buddie]

Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1340 on: May 27, 2022, 01:03:41 pm »
[...] - I'm sorry you are inanother wave.  I hope it isn't  too bad my dear.  Keep your head above the waterline and do the doggie trot Sweetie!  It will go away, and you'll have another window.

You know I used to believe that whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but I'm seriously reconsidering that mantra.  I think all the accumulated stresses of life do indeed make their mark.  The trick is to survive and adapt :-)
Yes I agree. Definitely scars are left behind.
Thank you my dear friend. Iím doing better since last night. My waves are definitely milder but they seem strange now. I donít know how to explain itÖ.do you know what I mean? Are yours strange?
Live, how about you? Waves strange? Anyone?

I know what you mean  - They are milder yes, but somehow different too.  For example my left leg pain now sometimes feels like pins and needles.  Being more active this week I'm having pain in other places like my hands.  I'm having more rapid cycling too. 

This must mean we are getting close [...]!  Every day is one day closer!
YEEZZZZ! It has to mean that! Iím excited and have my arms wide open to welcome my complete healing. Iíve also been stepping it up with walking.
Way to go Deanna!
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[Buddie]

Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1341 on: May 27, 2022, 01:05:35 pm »
[...],

I'm glad to hear you're doing better. Thank you for the congrats. As far as waves being strange this far out. All I can say is this is one of the worst waves I have ever been in and I haven't had any windows with it no even little breaks. It seems to have been bad for the last couple of months but early in May I had a couple window days and in the mornings and then the second part of the month has just been absolutely horrible Non-Stop. So I sure hope this means some deep healing is happening and a big change is going to be just around the corner for me. Have to hang on to that thought, to just keep going. Hugs!

[...]
Yep I went through that too about two months ago. But when it shifted I now have a much better baseline. Fine tuning is going on, girl. Youíll see. Hang in there!
❤️🌹
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[Buddie]

Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1342 on: May 27, 2022, 02:06:03 pm »
Hope you are all doing OK. Thought I was doing better, pushed myself to visit a park in our nearest town, car ride away. Was alright there, but soon as I came back the anxieties came flooding back. Made my husband go back to check things. Thatís when the doubts that brain will ever truly recover cone in. Generally my mood lot better, just so hard to know when to push yourself, just feel not progressing very much. I actually wish I truly had OCD instead benzo withdrawal, least then the years of seeing different therapists, and exposure therapy every day would have made a difference. So had enough of one step forward , 2 steps backwards the whole time, like my brain tricking me into thinking Iím getting better just the damn anxiety wonít shift, get bit low when realise holidays thing of the past for me, as I loved to travel, but it is what it is, no magic pills to make this go away.
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[Buddie]

Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1343 on: May 27, 2022, 10:21:28 pm »
[...] - that's the way it is.  You don't think you are making progress but you are! You went and visited a park and enjoyed it while you were there!  Then your brain thinks oh that's not in our normal routine - so it must be bad and wham - anxiety.  When that happens just lean into it and breathe through it and tell your brain it is safe.  Your brain needs to relearn what is OK and what isn't. 

Keep it up!  You ARE INDEED making progress!

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[Buddie]

Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1344 on: May 28, 2022, 08:45:42 am »
Affecting my marriage, my husband getting stage canít cope with it when have bad days. He spent the night in our garage, heís threatening to stop eating and stop taking his heart medication. Hate how I am ruining his life as well, but sod all I can do about it, even tried brain retraining course wasted another load money, as no way you can retrain your brain through this. Seems as others have said just takes long time, just feel I am responsible for ruining both our lives now, nothing I can do about it.
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[Buddie]

Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1345 on: May 29, 2022, 08:08:59 am »
Sorry for keep moaning, sure everyone is sick of people like me that never seem make any progress. Just get frustrated when do all stuff your are meant to, make myself go out every day, still the thoughts and anxiety wonít shift. Really thought when had window things would improve. Just finding hard to accept wonít be able to travel anymore. Anyway sorry for winging👎

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Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1346 on: May 30, 2022, 12:57:12 pm »
[...] hang in there. All is not loss. You are improving. Didnít you just go to a park and did alright? Wow that is awesome! It speaks loudly that you have healed a bit more. So please be encouraged. You have not ruined your life or your husbandís. I know it feels that way. But, it isnít your fault that you these pills did this to you and your husband. We all have been done this way and unfortunately our loved ones are forced to helplessly sit and watch our suffering. Itís hard on them. But isnít that what loved ones do? Be there for each other through the good or bad sickness or health. Iím sure he loves you very much.
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[Buddie]

Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1347 on: May 30, 2022, 02:51:04 pm »
Just stopping in to say hello and give an update. Iím 29 months and 5 days Benzo free and doing well. I still have symptoms at times, but the fear and anxiety are gone. Iím doing things that I have not done in a long time. I am most grateful to God every day, and praying the worst is behind me.

I pray for each of you every day. Sending hugs of comfort, peace and healing.🥰

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[Buddie]

Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1348 on: May 30, 2022, 06:48:26 pm »
Hi all: LadyD, [...], [...], [...], Accidental, Deanna, did I [...] anyone.  It looks like a few folks are making some progress!  That is exciting news. 

Congrats [...].  I am so glad to see you making some real leaps in healing.

For those of us still struggling our time will come.  I am confident of that!

I am 7 months out from my setback and 17.5 months from jumping ativan.  I had some good improvement two months ago but these last two months the progress is so small I cant even measure it.  Sigh.  My fractured foot is also still not healing.  I am not sure why.  Had the MRI this past Saturday night so it will be 2 weeks before I get back results.  Fingers crossed I dont have to have any kind of surgery!!

Anyway.  Hugs to everyone.  :smitten:


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[Buddie]

Re: 12-24 months support group
« Reply #1349 on: May 30, 2022, 09:02:59 pm »
[...] hang in there. All is not loss. You are improving. Didnít you just go to a park and did alright? Wow that is awesome! It speaks loudly that you have healed a bit more. So please be encouraged. You have not ruined your life or your husbandís. I know it feels that way. But, it isnít your fault that you these pills did this to you and your husband. We all have been done this way and unfortunately our loved ones are forced to helplessly sit and watch our suffering. Itís hard on them. But isnít that what loved ones do? Be there for each other through the good or bad sickness or health. Iím sure he loves you very much.


Thanks as always [...] D. Pushed myself bit too much going to park can panic attack when git back. So hard to know when try to do more Then my eyes been funny watching TV at night, have had if before in withdrawal. Tried sitting closer seems sorted it, hopefully just blip. Just any progress glacially slow. Weíve got a party in our street Sunday for Queens Jubilee. Will be a distraction and in our road so wonít have go out my comfort zone. How are you doing?
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