Mutiple Tapers/long haulers/high dosages

[[Buddie]]

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 My bad. Thank you for clarifying. Well, I am sorry you aren't doing well. I don't get any exercise because of the insomnia and being tired. We're here for you as you cut. Sounds like you're cutting no matter what in about 3 weeks. How big of a cut are you making? I am cutting July 2nd to 1.085 mg from 1.15 mg. It seems so slow but that's how it goes.

You're not alone with the paradox doses. My doses don't 'attack' anymore but I get nothing out of them. I feel the same with or without but if I don't take it, I will get launched into severe WD.

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[[Buddie]]

I have been cutting 1 dose of .16 milligrams (half of a .25) at a time. I know, slowwwwww. Absolutely the right thing to do (slow cut) when it's very difficult, or near the end. Not a race. A journey towards healing that will move at the rate your brain allows.

The next .16 cut may come in a week or 3 weeks, it depends on how my body reacts.

Apart from paradoxing, I see the most distress over lack of sleep and anxiety as very common when it gets rough, and at the end. Your not alone.

[[Buddie]]

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  1/2 of a .25 mg tab will be a lot more as we get down to .25 mg. Good for you for hanging in there and plunging ahead. I hope your body reacts well to your cuts and you begin to feel BETTER as you get lower. I hope that for me too. I want to believe my brain is healing as I cut and not just after I jump. I guess stabilizing between cuts is a form of healing.

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[[Buddie]]

There is hope , even when your brain tells you there isn't.

More encouragement (not useless platitudes)
http://www.beatingbenzos.com/365528000

[[Buddie]]

Thanks for the link. Very inspirational. I feel better now

[[Buddie]]

I don't want any of us to blame ourselves for how we got here. We are the victims, not the perpetrators of our suffering. Hence, lets finish a sentence:

Instead of holding on to what I could  have done, I am taking action to........

My answer: get through a much needed new taper I started 2 months ago in spite of the difficulty. Because I am playing the long game.

[[Buddie]]

Instead of holding on to what I could  have done, I am taking action to........

Let it all go and surrender to this taper.

[[Buddie]]

Complete this taper, come hell or high water!  I'm taking my life back with each swipe of these pills!

I'm using a nail file.   

[[Buddie]]

It's cool to read all of your challenges, successes, and processes. I had multiple tapers off many meds before finally tackling 6mg klonopin. What a ride! 3 months off as of yesterday after 6 yr taper. Brutal, but free now. Bless you all and hang tough

[[Buddie]]

It's cool to read all of your challenges, successes, and processes. I had multiple tapers off many meds before finally tackling 6mg klonopin. What a ride! 3 months off as of yesterday after 6 yr taper. Brutal, but free now. Bless you all and hang tough

[...] congratulations! Many of your posts have made me feel much better over these two years as your optimism is so contagious. I'm tapering at snail pace, more holding than tapering, and who knos, maybe one day I'll be off like you are, or not, I try to no longer obsess about it. Bless you too!