Author Topic: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?  (Read 2153 times)

[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #10 on: December 06, 2021, 07:41:54 pm »
Include me in the depression boat.  Some days are never ending with mild-severe depression, which then cause anxiety for me ruminating on how to get out of the depression or blaming myself that I should be able to talk myself out of it.
When your mind is running like a slow moving out of control obsessive motor, it's hard to handle.
I'm not keen on trying any AD's right now..so sick of pills and what it takes to come off them once your brain becomes dependent.  Maybe the time will come when I change my mind.
Hey, anyone deal with that horrid terror and fear that comes and goes? I've read of people afraid of their cats, or terrified to answer the door, or check the mail. I definitely relate to that symptom. Thank god it comes and goes and is not permanent.  I haven't been out of the house much..things like traffic and stimulation bring on fear.  I can definitely see how agoraphobia can develop during this taper hell.  Send out my best to all of you!
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[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #11 on: December 06, 2021, 11:10:40 pm »
I've just kind of accepted I will be on AD's if not for the rest of my life, at least for a looong time.

And yes I get that. Or rather, I had it during acute. I couldn't have any knives out, they had to be hidden. Not cause I was worried I would self harm, but I had this fear that I would wake up in the middle of the night and sleepwalk and hurt someone close to me. That went though.
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[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #12 on: December 15, 2021, 03:41:09 am »
I've just kind of accepted I will be on AD's if not for the rest of my life, at least for a looong time.

And yes I get that. Or rather, I had it during acute. I couldn't have any knives out, they had to be hidden. Not cause I was worried I would self harm, but I had this fear that I would wake up in the middle of the night and sleepwalk and hurt someone close to me. That went though.

Thank you for being so honest about this, [...]. 
I'm so depressed right now. Facing another night alone with insomnia is dreadful. My body is exhausted but my mind and insides are vibrating. Today all my initial symptoms I had at the start of my taper returned.  It seems so cruel of this process to grant me one small window and then slam me in the face.  It is torture.  Another buddy, boombox has messaged me his story, I know he went through hell for 2.5 years.   I know so many people here have and are suffering so profoundly.  I wish I could put my arms around everyone and just grieve with them over time lost to this detox and w/d from  such harmful drugs. We suffer as the pharmaceutical companies make billions.  I ended up going on a rant here, didn't mean for that to happen.  I just want to make it through the night.  Right this second all of this seems impossible. I will press on.
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[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #13 on: December 15, 2021, 03:16:01 pm »
I understand mate. For me it is the days that are the struggle. Especially the first half of them. It's so tempting to try and take a quick fix out of this.

Yeah I talk with boombox regularly. His story keeps me motivated in that I feel that if he could heal, through the immense suffering he experienced, then surely so can i. Thinking of you brother
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[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #14 on: December 15, 2021, 08:13:26 pm »
Thanks [...],

I hope you had a good day at uni. If that's where you had to be.   I slept until 2pm today which I deplore.  Fighting all learned judgements that I'm just lazy. I miss felling normal.  Want to CT so bad. I hate this drug.
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[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #15 on: December 31, 2021, 12:59:50 pm »
I have fallen into depression, and I'm still tapering.  I do have problems falling asleep, but it once I do, I could stay in bed & sleep 9+ hours for the past several weeks and that's NOT normal for me.  I also just lie around the house.  I have had depression before but do not want to go back on ADs ever again, & there does seem to be a seasonal pattern (the past week has been grey & drizzling, and short winter days) so I may have to get an indoor lamp to help.
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[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #16 on: January 08, 2022, 05:48:20 am »
I'm in acute depression..So awful.  It's a beast-all the mental symptoms are hard on me, but this one is like death at your doorstep. No where to hide from it, either. This too shall pass.
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[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #17 on: January 08, 2022, 06:03:10 pm »
Having my occaisional depression time again.
It indeed feels like total depletion after a period pf extreme stress and anxiety.

It's awfull, no energy, motivation etc.
Luckily it always went away in the past, so I hope it does again soon.

Keep strong people.
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[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #18 on: January 26, 2022, 03:28:34 pm »
So the benzos (while taking them, while tapering, and after stopping) also throw off serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine?  That's a really big package to deal with.
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[Buddie]

Re: What's happening in the brain to cause depression during WD?
« Reply #19 on: January 29, 2022, 04:23:07 pm »
I'm in acute depression..So awful.  It's a beast-all the mental symptoms are hard on me, but this one is like death at your doorstep. No where to hide from it, either. This too shall pass.

I feel for you [...]. I am normally not depressed. My problem is mostly constant severe anxiety. That depression you speak about did hit me hard when I jumped too soon from the 2.5 mgs of Valium. It set in about a month after I jumped. It does feel like death. You feel dead and empty inside. It was a very scary feeling, something I had never felt before. I ended up reinstating and I am at 1.5 mgs now (still feeling sick daily but functional). I plan to try stopping again but get as low as I can bf my next attempt, but I am scared to death what stopping will bring the next time.

How are you feeling this morning [...]? That black hole is hard to crawl out of I know. Try to enjoy your weekend everyone.
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