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Pursuing my dreams. While recovering.


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I hope this doesn’t come off as bragging. Really, I just want to share this with folk who understand how difficult this is and hopefully help people expand what they think is possible during recovery.

 

A couple months ago, I got tired of distracting myself. Especially with all the COVID isolation, I felt irrelevant and it fed into the depression from withdrawal. So I was like — well, you didn’t think you would survive for a minute there. What do you want from life? So I signed up for a screenwriting class (write a film in 100 days. Oof!) thinking I’d be happy if I could just write one page. But having a challenge to focus on helped me do things I didn’t think were possible. I started reading again and my creativity and sense of humor started coming back online. I even started thinking about the future as a real thing.

 

I sent an application to Sundance for a revision-to-production workshop and got a scholarship. It’s still a bummer because I’m by no means healed. When I got the news, I felt that hollow place in my chest where expected positive emotions don’t happen. And most days I can’t sit still to focus, which is frustrating now that I know what I’m capable of.

 

So I guess I hope that y’all are finding your own ways to project into the future and live the fullest lives you can while you’re healing.

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This doesn't come off as bragging at all; your post made me smile!  This should be a safe to share our positives as well as challenges.  A hearty congrats on your motivation to step up to this pursuit and the scholarship you received.  I hope you can enjoy as much of this as you are able to  :-)
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Hey Charlie.  Wow.  Congrats!  Having something to do, something/someone to love and something to look forward to can really make all the difference in our recovery.  You found all three!

 

Please keep us all posted on your journey!

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