Can't sleep at all during my long waves

I cannot fall asleep at all during my long waves. It's like being on methamphetamine. Wired. I can fall asleep easily in the windows which are few and far between. The anxiety in my waves is brutal also. The insomnia added to the anxiety is excruciating.

What you are experiencing at this very early point in your healing and recovery is "normal."

I was wired all the time and never felt sleepy or tired, even if I did not get any sleep for 2, 3 or 4 days in a row!

You should be thankful you're getting windows at around 2 months off.

Anxiety only adds to symptoms and sleep issues and then not sleeping makes the anxiety worse.  It's a vicious circle.

But, it does get better.  Time and only Time is the healer!