4 months and still going!

I have made it this far without any serious physical problems, like people describe here. I was on a pretty high dose too like 40mg diazepam mostly, but went as high as 10m xanax a day or 10mg diclazepam a day or clonazepam. I would say things have not been that great mentally. I feel a lot of generalised anxiety, anhedonia, fatigue, and irritability. Also gained weight, and lost muscle mass.

For the first time in 4 months i managed to go to the gym, i was just lying in bed deppressed in those 4 months... Its quite stupid i know, i just won't do anything about it lol. I ran on the treadmill for 30min, and was about to workout my legs, but couldn't. Decided to go home, been feeling fatigued, and didn't want to push myself to do even 1 squat set. Still good enough though. I'll hit the leg workout tomorrow!

Hey AG

Just the fact that you did go to the gym and attempt a workout is awesome-a great start.

The fatigue and depression can be crushing and make “starting” so difficult.

Baby steps. You’ve got this!! xx