6 months off valium today and looking for hope

Well here I am having made it to 6 months off valium, today

 

I wish I could say I feel the healing but as yet I don't,   

 

However it has to be happening, and I do feel I have to heal from more than just valiu,

 

I have had AD's in the past, and they worked until I tried to reinstate after taking valium and my reaction was severe , with massive terror and panic along with dry heaving

 

The last  tablet was citalopram in September 2018

 

And in the more distant past I used to drink but gave it up 5.5 years back except for 2 separate drinks at the beginning of 2018, before the valium,  I feel this brought on a lot of my anxiety symptoms that lead me down the path of going to the Doctors and where I am today

 

So now I am trying to get through the day as best I can and wait for healing

 

It seems a distant hope as yet but surely it will come

 

Anyone had a similar background and healed, 

 

I would love a little hope today

 

Best wishes

 

Jen

 

aged 75

 

PS,  no other drugs or supplements since September 2018 , 

Jen,

 

Congrats on the 6 months! Don't despair....this is a journey. I know you know that. We all want this to end sooner than later.

You've made great progress. Try to focus on how far you've come!

 

Thank you so much Trina, 

 

It makes is worth something at least to say I have reached half a year free of valium,

 

Yes it's a journey  and not one I ever  thought I would have to make at the age I am

 

I mean drugs never entered my mind,  I was on no medication at all until this, started and the AD, then the rest on the road to  being entangled in a mesh of brain altering drugs,

 

I have taken the detangling brush and removed them all so now I am waiting to see what condition I am in

 

and keeping to natural path of good food and water, as best I can , with a little tiny taste of dark chocolate for a treat

 

I know I should not but then 70% cocoa solids can't be all bad and it's only a little

 

Oh to be celebrating success, 

 

One day surely and I do hope it's not too far off ,

 

Mean time as I have no windows but waves and waves inside waves, I can only think I will wake one day to find it gone, 

 

You never know on this  journey

 

Wishing you recovery too before long , ,

 

 

Jen

Hi Jen-

 

Congratulations on 6 months benzo free!  Half a year! How wonderful to know you have 6 months of healing behind you.  It may not feel like it but that's what's been happening. 

 

It took a lot of strength and determination to get this far.  Did you know you had so much strength and determination?    I didn't know I had the courage to face the darkest days of withdrawal. No I know I had strength, determination and courage I never knew I had.  I hope you see this in yourself too because I know it's there. 

 

I hope you'll give yourself a pat on the back and have a little nibble of 70% cacao to celebrate your milestone!

 

Take care,

Brighterday. 

Congratulations!  I have had a long struggle with benzos, now 23 months off after a taper.  I pray this does not last too much longer for me.  I am 68 years old.  I am looking for buddies who are older and still struggling to talk to.  If you would like someone to chat with, send me a pm.

I know I should not but then 70% cocoa solids can't be all bad and it's only a little

Does it help if I tell you that lots of people would say this is a healthy indulgence? As long as you don't eat too much (same as anything), of course!

 

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