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[[Buddie]]

[...], i sent a message when i got that shit last year. You know my story is a little different from others here. I quit 3 drugs in hospital after using them 2 weeks(none benzos) and i put myself on remeron to cope with anx. and sleep probs. Then started this strange journey. I had anx(my only big problem) in this all process and now it is crippling sometimes. But good news, some good moments started to come. Last month one week relief, last week 4&5 days relief. Why i write this message to you, you are already on medication and disbelief of being on medication is an obstable is sucking me. Dave, who is one of the most courageous people here, is a source of inspiration and he supports me in all the ways he can do, but brutal anx. waves (with panicky feelings in these days) make the process harder. When a hard wave comes, it is too hard to push it other day, even other hour. I hope you lived this process as if it is worsening, but you somehow survived. I am also checking in SA and here and mind the suggestions like that holding while in sx etc. Celebrating you for doing well. I hope everyone will do it one day...

[[Buddie]]

[...], i sent a message when i got that shit last year. You know my story is a little different from others here. I quit 3 drugs in hospital after using them 2 weeks(none benzos) and i put myself on remeron to cope with anx. and sleep probs. Then started this strange journey. I had anx(my only big problem) in this all process and now it is crippling sometimes. But good news, some good moments started to come. Last month one week relief, last week 4&5 days relief. Why i write this message to you, you are already on medication and disbelief of being on medication is an obstable is sucking me. Dave, who is one of the most courageous people here, is a source of inspiration and he supports me in all the ways he can do, but brutal anx. waves (with panicky feelings in these days) make the process harder. When a hard wave comes, it is too hard to push it other day, even other hour. I hope you lived this process as if it is worsening, but you somehow survived. I am also checking in SA and here and mind the suggestions like that holding while in sx etc. Celebrating you for doing well. I hope everyone will do it one day...

Yes, the disbelief about how long this would take hit hard. I was very depressed about that until I learned to accept it. Learning acceptance was hard, too. I am not an acceptance kind of person. I am an attack-the-problem kind of person. I used mindfulness-based stress reduction (MBSR) techniques to teach me to accept rather than to battle and to live only one moment at a time, if necessary. 

I'm glad you are also on survivingantidepressants.org. There's a lot of helpful info over there, especially for people who are on antidepressants or who are poly-drugged.

I'm also glad you are having windows! They are the proof that you are healing.

You are a survivor and a warrior. Your feelings may not say it, but that you get up and get through each day proves that you are. One day, when this is over, you will look back and see how strong you were when you didn't even know it. And you will write your own success story.

[[Buddie]]

Congratulations [...]  I'm very happy for you!!!  Yes, acceptance and hope are sooo important to help move through all this.  I hope you keep feeling better and better and, are back in the swing of things very soon 

[[Buddie]]

Congratulations [...]  I'm very happy for you!!!  Yes, acceptance and hope are sooo important to help move through all this.  I hope you keep feeling better and better and, are back in the swing of things very soon 

You, too, [...]!

[[Buddie]]

Congratulations!!  A wonderful accomplishment.  No one can really understand how difficult it is unless they have gone through it themselves.  I'm nearly done and just starting a long hold, my last one.  When this hold is over I'll finish the rest of it off.

I cannot praise you highly enough to seeing it through.  You have your life back.  [...]

[[Buddie]]

Congratulations!!  A wonderful accomplishment.  No one can really understand how difficult it is unless they have gone through it themselves.  I'm nearly done and just starting a long hold, my last one.  When this hold is over I'll finish the rest of it off.

I cannot praise you highly enough to seeing it through.  You have your life back.  [...]

Wow, [...], look how far you've come and how close you are! Bravo to you, too, for staying the course. I know you will make it!

[[Buddie]]

Hi [...]

I love your success story.   I’ll get there, too.   Slower than planned, but still progress.   Enjoy the garden.   

[[Buddie]]

Hi [...]

I love your success story.   I’ll get there, too.   Slower than planned, but still progress.   Enjoy the garden.

Thanks! And, yes, you will get there, too!

[[Buddie]]

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you! 

Since English isn't my native language, I don't understand everything. Have you stopped Gabapentin and Benzo at the same time? It must be tough, because Gabapentin is as awful as Benzo. You're so strong!

 

[[Buddie]]

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you! 

Since English isn't my native language, I don't understand everything. Have you stopped Gabapentin and Benzo at the same time? It must be tough, because Gabapentin is as awful as Benzo. You're so strong!

 

Thank you. I finished my benzo taper first. I waited a few months. Then I tapered half of my gabapentin. The gabapentin taper was easier than the benzo taper.

I am very low on gabapentin now. I decided the Seroquel taper was more important to me, so I switched to tapering the Seroquel.

Both the Seroquel and the gabapentin tapers have been easier than the benzo for me. I have symptoms but they are not as bad.

We are all strong!