[br...] Posted February 6, 2020 Share Posted February 6, 2020 Hi Buddies, Just wanted to share my little celebration, 1 month Xanax free. Wow what a month it has been. I can honestly say I am starting to see some light.I felt for the first time something that resembles peace and contentment. I didnt want to speak to soon but am generally feeling better than a week ago. Unlike others who have windows and waves my withdrawal has been pretty linear. First 2 weeks where hell. *Extreme paranoia *feel like im moving ,acting,talking and walking funny. *Feel like ive been dropped on another planet * cant make sense of my emotions * no up and downs , just always down. *Severe morning anxiety * memory bad, forget words mid sentence * almost no sleep and vivid dreams when I do. I wake up completely wet *Suicidal ideology Physically I have been blessed compare to others * bloated. I look pregnant., * nausea *eye pressure *Constant headaches I know most say just give it time and I do agree that time will is needed to heal but dont sit around expecting miracles . From day 1 I did what I call active healing *Exercise *social interaction *reading/ education *cleaner diet *getting out of the house as soon as I wake up *Making sure I groom myself well These are all things I dont want to to but force myself to do everyday. obviously theres a limit that I can push myself but I do. When I wake up I am in hell ,the last thing I want to do is get up shower and go for a walk or meet people, I would rather curl up on the floor and be left alone but I force it and in the end I feel much better physically and mentally . I have had days when I get up and move from the bed to the couch and only get up to go to the toilet., didnt shower or brush teeth for days but at the end of those few days I feel so much worse. All the days I challenge my negative mindset I can feel the benefits of it. It is very strange but my anxiety was worse during my taper , I honestly got quite close to ending it , I really had nothing left the benzos robbed me of everything. now that im not spending every waking moment waiting for my next dose or using every ounce of mental energy to not take and extra dose my anxiety has leveled out . I was complelty non functional for the few months before I quit and I really should have been in hospital.This is just my journey and what works for me so I hope I didnt offend anyone with my message. Stay strong all, going to celebrate with a piece of cake, no champagne unfortunately lol Andrew Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ro...] Posted February 6, 2020 Share Posted February 6, 2020 Congratulations Andrew for your decision to jump! And please stay strong the first couple of months, as those are the worse of the whole withdrawl process!! You will see that each day you will feel a little better, it is true that time is our best friend!! You will slowly start to recover your brain functions, and be yourself again! Unluckily it's a very slowly process, where you make two steps forwards and then one backwards...but in the whole you are walking ahead! My blessings Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Pa...] Posted February 6, 2020 Share Posted February 6, 2020 This is a wonderful milestone Andrew, congratulations on getting and staying off the Xanax and for pushing through each day. I can see that even though you're still experiencing symptoms, you're happy to be unchained from the drug, you now call the shots in your life, not some stupid little pill. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ch...] Posted February 7, 2020 Share Posted February 7, 2020 Well done and great mindset, Andrew! This will help get you through the lingering symptoms. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Bl...] Posted February 14, 2020 Share Posted February 14, 2020 Wishing you continued healing! ❤🎉 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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