Hi [...],
I've been taking Tianeptine since the end of 2020. Yes, be very very careful, it is easy to up the doses.
I started with 12.5mg, 3x daily, am now at 4x daily (but have remained there for many months and refuse to take more).
At first I though it was a lifesaver.
Yes, I think it helps to some degree, but yet here I am searching in the depression forum with extremely low self confidence, debilitating depression and intrusive thoughts.
It might be a lifesaver in the sense that I am not about to end my life, but not much more than that. At first it was very good, bringing my score down from 85 to 45 on the Burns depression checklist, but then deep deep depression hit about 6 weeks after I jumped, (Jan 3rd 2021), and, really, I can't say much more than that. I might be worse off without it, but it's definitely no miracle pill. Might be tolerance, might be the benzo withdrawal.
I have suffered deep depression since I was a child so I was looking for a miracle, having tried absolutely everything barring a lobotomy or electroconvulsive therapy.
Sorry, to be clear, I have suffered depression lifelong, and now am stuck with Benzo withdrawal and trying to distinguish which depression is kicking me in the guts at the moment. I am assuming 80% is Benzo.
Again, be really, really really careful about tolerance and upping your dose. It acts on an opioid receptor in your brain. My apologies if you already know this. I assume you to be an intelligent adult, always, who is capable of taking care of yourself, just wanted to let you know in case you didn't know.
And yes, a small part of me feels I need it, and it could easily get out of control if I am not careful, and I don't like that. It's the only pharma that has made me feel that. I never even liked taking Benzos, just had to after a while because panic attacks and we all know why that is....
It is unavailable in many places (I'm in Italy) and had to buy mine of a crazy guy in china who threatened to 'come and get me' because I asked why the postage was taking so long, ah, the joy of life.