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[Buddie]

New guy here - need some reassurance
« on: November 08, 2019, 09:05:27 am »
Hello, I'm a guy from Italy. I suffer from mild anxiety and was stupid enough to trust my psychiatrist. He gave me a low dose of alprazolam and told me the treatment could last a year. I quickly discovered that alprazolam shouldn't be taken for long period of time and I decided to stop it. I used the liquid form and  my journey went like this: It took me 4/5 days to get to 5 drops , then I stayed at 5 drops (0.12 if I'm not mistaken) for 3 days, then went down to 4 drops for another 3 days, then 2 days at three drops, one day at 2 drops and one single drop the last day.

Now I understand this is a very low dose (my doctor called it a placebo dose) and that 2 weeks including the taper is considered to be short-term use, but on the very last day before I started to taper (9th day) I felt bad. I don't know if it was psychosomatic, or if it was tollerance. Anyway, since that day I quickly reduced the alprazolam as I explained above.

Now I'm on my third day without taking it. It's been 7 days since I started to taper. I've been feeling dizzy, nauseous and I've got a splitting headache. My headache seems to be better today, but the dizziness is there. Since yesterday I've been doing vestibular exercises, I'm trying to eat healthy, to go outside, to stay with people. I'm still anxious and I don't know if I'm just worried or if it's the sides.

My doctor told me that sides shouldn't last for more than 4-5 days after I stopped the alprazolam. He told me it was too short a time for me to develop tolerance or addiction. He told me it was a placebo dose. He was annoyed and probably didn't trust me.

I don't drink, I eat healthy and I had been going to the gym 4 times a week before I started to taper. The only thing that could have made things worse is that I've been taking minoxidil (a topical, alcohol-based lotion) for many years and maybe it had a bad interaction with the alprazolam. I did discuss it with my doctor and he said it was nothing to worry about since it's topical (that is, you don't drink it) and the dose was very little anyway.

What should I expect? I don't mean to offend anyone. I know there are people who have been through hell here, but I feel like an idiot since I should have known better. I knew I didn't need it and I knew alprazolam is only supposed to be taken when needed. Luckily, I was smart enough to do my own research and stop it.

I need your realistic opinion about this, but please be gentle. How does it look from outside? What should I expect? Did I taper to quickly (my doctor said I didn't need to taper at all, but I did it anyway).

2nd Edit: I visited my GP today and she told me it's all in my head. She said that in 42 years of carreer she's yet to see someone having these symptoms from 2 weeks of low-dose alprazolam. Maybe she's right. Do I just need to calm down?

Thanks, guys
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[Buddie]

Re: New guy here - need some reassurance
« Reply #1 on: November 08, 2019, 08:26:14 pm »
All i can tell you is that your Dr's are uneducated about benzo withdrawal, people can become dependent in a week and the withdrawal recovery process can last months to years. I see a neurologist and he said that no dose of benzo is a low dose because they are powerful medications that hurt the brain. He told me that even a non therapeutic dose is still injuring the receptors. I'm so sorry that you have such monkeys looking after you. The sxs you are experiencing are not "in your head", they are the sxs of a neurological injury caused by the medication, they are very physiologically real and can be explained by neuroscience. Be very glad that you became benzo aware so soon after being prescribed. I'm not much help with tapering questions as i was CTd but hopefully another buddie will be along soon with some more thoughts. Best wishes.
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[Buddie]

Re: New guy here - need some reassurance
« Reply #2 on: November 08, 2019, 09:18:53 pm »
Thanks, Souther Star. I'm not sure I wanted to hear that, though. I hope that getting aware so early will help with my recovery.
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Re: New guy here - need some reassurance
« Reply #3 on: November 08, 2019, 09:26:39 pm »
People react to these drugs all sorts of different ways. Itís not uncommon to have some uncomfortable symptoms after two weeks of use, my guess is that over the next few days and weeks theyíll calm down and disappear.  Youíre at day three which for me was always the worst day of a Xanax cut, then it got better. 

While I donít ever like the comment Ďitís all in your headí, it really is in our heads because thatís where the receptors are. And yeah, I get that your doctor didnít mean it that way.  ;)

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[Buddie]

Re: New guy here - need some reassurance
« Reply #4 on: November 08, 2019, 09:30:58 pm »
Iíd avoid stress (as best you can) and caffeine for now...theyíll aggravate your central nervous system. Try to distract by going for a walk, watching a feel-good movie, or whatever you feel like doing that will take your mind off how you feel at the moment.

Youíre going to be fine.
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Re: New guy here - need some reassurance
« Reply #5 on: November 08, 2019, 09:36:01 pm »
[...] itís early days, youíll be fine.
Southern Stars post was (overly) dramatic, donít let it worry you!!
Just keep doing what youíre doing, and yes itís good you got wise to it so quickly,
[...]ís advice is solid.


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Re: New guy here - need some reassurance
« Reply #6 on: November 08, 2019, 10:22:52 pm »
Thanks guys. Have you been around enough to see similar situations? I still get strong headaches and sometimes depression/anxiety, but what worries me the most right now is feeling as if I were on a boat. That is very debilitating since it makes doing things more difficult. I don't seem to have other sides, other than perhaps very lucid dreams. How is my situation? I find it crazy that so many people are prescribed Xanax every day, take ton of it and are fine. I took it for two weeks at a placebo dose and here I am.

But again, thanks.
I'll try to stay positive.

Just one question: do you think that I did too quick a taper? I took xanax for only 9/10 days before I started to taper it, so maybe it was enough. Is it a long taper mainly a way to keep symptoms in check? If that's the case, then, I've already explained what I've been dealing so far. Frankly, I wouldn't like to take any more benzo. Two weeks is considered to be a short-term use and I wouldn't like to make it longer.

Thanks
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Re: New guy here - need some reassurance
« Reply #7 on: November 08, 2019, 10:36:30 pm »
[...] your sideffects/symptoms sound pretty normal to me.
Like [...] said before you probably just need to ride this out and build up coping mechanisms which will set you up ongoing. Try not to worry too much and to not spend too much time reading (the many) negative stories and opinions on this forum :)
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[Buddie]

Re: New guy here - need some reassurance
« Reply #8 on: November 08, 2019, 10:59:12 pm »
I have read quite a few cases where folks were on benzo short term and still had uncomfortable side effects so you are not alone. Stay off the benzo and you should be fine in a short while.
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Re: New guy here - need some reassurance
« Reply #9 on: November 09, 2019, 09:45:06 am »
Thanks guys. I'll try not to read other stories. Tonight was pretty bad, I still have those lucid, weird dreams that I had when I started to take xanax and I woke up with a lot of anxiety. Still very dizzy, but no brain fog and no headaches so far. Why isn't my brain coping faster? It doesn't feel as if it's slowly improving.

I see that some of you guys went to the E/R and started to taper with valium. I still want to do it without going back to benzos, but in what case would you suggest to do the same?
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