[Wi...] Posted October 8, 2019 Share Posted October 8, 2019 It's been just over 6 years since my taper ended and quite some time since I was last here. I came back today after watching the Lisa Ling special. Watching the show brought my memories back to the very long time when I felt imprisoned by benzos, both in taking and tapering. What struck me as most interesting about that is the realization that I had mostly forgotten the experience. I spent a good few years here, daily, just trying to survive. Not only was I in significant distress, I was also incredibly angry and I honestly never thought there would be a time that I wasn't constantly experiencing withdrawal. I've spent the last day assessing where I was then to where I am now. I realized that I'm far better then I ever imagined that I would or could be. I have moved on with my life and am able to experience joy and have the ability to relax. Both of which I never expected to get to feel again. There are enduring issues, mostly an intolerance to stress, which begins a cascade of symptoms, so I cannot claim that everything is back to what it was like prior to benzos. But I can tolerate far more stress than I could back then. I do have to monitor my stress levels and set boundaries and I'm not always successful, but even when things start to get tough if i recognized what's going on I am able to calm things far more easily and quickly. I would have loved to come back and to say I was 100%. I may not be, but there is a huge difference from then to now. To me it says a lot that it wasn't until I saw Lisa Lings show on benzo withdrawal did I realize it's been a very long time since I thought about my own withdrawal. When it's all said and done, my life really is good again. So it does happen. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ni...] Posted October 8, 2019 Share Posted October 8, 2019 Thank you for coming back and sharing your success story. I’m 56 months off and stress is a huge trigger for me as well. Hoping it improves as time passes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Wi...] Posted October 8, 2019 Share Posted October 8, 2019 WiseWoman, it sounds like you are in a good place. I am so happy for how far you've come, and grateful for your post. I believe it will get better and better for you. Wishing you wellness and a beautiful life. Warmest thanks, Wildflower Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Mo...] Posted October 8, 2019 Share Posted October 8, 2019 WWW....so good to see you here again...I thought often about you. Congratulations and thanks for coming back.....all the best. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ch...] Posted October 8, 2019 Share Posted October 8, 2019 Wonderful to read this, WWWI. I’m a bit ahead of you at 7+ years and believe you’ll still see improvement in stress tolerance for a few years more. Happy to see that you don’t think about your withdrawal and recovery anymore. Truly a sign you’ve moved on. Challis Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ma...] Posted October 8, 2019 Share Posted October 8, 2019 Great News WWWI I am so happy, i have often thought of you. Thank you for coming back and posting, its wonderful to hear that you are getting on with your life. Best wishes Magrita Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ti...] Posted October 8, 2019 Share Posted October 8, 2019 So encouraging, really pleased that you can get on with your life and hope things continue to improve. Thank you for coming back to share Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ca...] Posted October 8, 2019 Share Posted October 8, 2019 Dear WWWI, Lovely to read your words of healing! I've wondered how you are. It is a gift to read of your wellness WWWI. Thank you for returning to share this good news. 💛 With gratitude, Carita Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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