Guest [su...] Posted August 21, 2019 Share Posted August 21, 2019 This is driving me insane. I am almost healed but this wont stop! My DR DP is insane. I have devloped at dissociative disorder. I have issues walking. My inner monoluge is gone, I have anphantasia too. My memory goes blank for days and even months. My husband is a complete stranger my dog and home is not for real. It feels like I am in a dream state. And this is all the time no relief. The world is grey I cant see colors. My inner vibration is crazy often like a burning feeling in my body. My doc told me that Dissociative disorders can cause this inner tremor/buzz. Time feels strange, it is often in slow motion. I have hard to understand things too. And these crazy question about evertyhing. Like why?who? when?what? And this disconnection from who I am and why I live etc. Disconnected from the world too. My body is not mine. The face in the mirror is not me...It feels like I am gonna lose my sanity. This state of mind is nuts :o I have fatigue and lethargi too...severe depression. Places I had know before is strange I get very confused abput everything... This is even symptoms that is present in MS. And I know w/d from benzo can mimic MS and other neurologic illness. And that dissociative disorders can mimic MS too. Can anyone relate?! I am down to this symptoms and I am so AFRAID that this is permantent. That this is permantent after the damage benzo caused in my poor brain Will this ever pass or fade away? I have lost all my hope that this will pass and I will feel normal again Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[de...] Posted August 21, 2019 Share Posted August 21, 2019 I can relate to everything you describe sundance, it is truly awful. I am so sorry it is happening to you. Now, at 5.5 months off Valium I can still relate, but it is improving. I (still) find myself moving in a dreamlike state, blank, my face unfamiliar in the mirror. Derealisation still taunts, exhausts me. It's bloody awful. It's improving sundance, and think it will for you too. I don't believe the damage is permanent. We will heal. Dee Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[un...] Posted August 21, 2019 Share Posted August 21, 2019 Yes, I can relate to much of what you said. I keep saying to myself, "when will I be back in the real world again?" I get glimmers of hope here and there, but it's so difficult to step back and get any perspective when there's a "PAWS elephant" on my back. Wishing you wellness, Sundance. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Te...] Posted August 21, 2019 Share Posted August 21, 2019 Yes, Its been a constant battle to overcome the DP/DR, it comes in waves with me, at times the most familiar things seem foreign, I have to say that's gotten a little better in the last couple of weeks hopefully the healing continues sooner than later. In regards to the inner buzz I'm living with a 24/7 brain buzz electrical sensation with head pressure from behind my sinus to my right ear that's really horrible and a non stop distraction. How these drugs are ever handing out in script outside of a hospital controlled setting is beyond belief, so very dangerous and destructive. Kindest Regards Terry Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Th...] Posted August 21, 2019 Share Posted August 21, 2019 I had derealization before the benzos. I’m screwed Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [su...] Posted August 21, 2019 Share Posted August 21, 2019 I can relate to everything you describe sundance, it is truly awful. I am so sorry it is happening to you. Now, at 5.5 months off Valium I can still relate, but it is improving. I (still) find myself moving in a dreamlike state, blank, my face unfamiliar in the mirror. Derealisation still taunts, exhausts me. It's bloody awful. It's improving sundance, and think it will for you too. I don't believe the damage is permanent. We will heal. Dee I am 22 months off now and it is getting worse. I had a panic attack for a month ago and then it hit me really hard my husband become a complete stranger. My dr dp started in may last year and was on and off until march this year. Since then I am in this state 24/7. Do you have issues walking? Weakness my knees are bending all the time. It feels like I am stucked in a bad trip or something. God give me strenght. I had fight every singel symptom but thia mental crap is breaks me into pieces Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [su...] Posted August 22, 2019 Share Posted August 22, 2019 Bump! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[...] Posted August 22, 2019 Share Posted August 22, 2019 I’m in month 20 and am in the same boat. DP/DR not quite as severe, but can be at times. Unreal and tragic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[bl...] Posted August 22, 2019 Share Posted August 22, 2019 https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-benzo-free-podcast/id1453414606?i=1000445170675 See link Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Th...] Posted August 23, 2019 Share Posted August 23, 2019 There are a lot of people that got over these symptoms naturally. Acceptance, distraction, exposure etc. Do you guys think we can have an impact on it during or after withdrawal? I was watching a video where a girl had it bad. Intrusive thoughts, shaking, convulsing. Same symptoms but not going through benzo withdrawal. I find that it’s a 1000 times harder doing it through benzo withdrawal. I’m reaching here. If we practice the same methods and get some results? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Al...] Posted August 24, 2019 Share Posted August 24, 2019 Oh my gosh, you explained how I feel to a T. I'm 70 days off Klonopin and I keep telling my boyfriend that I don't feel real and that everything feels fake. My physical withdrawal symptoms have improved, but this and my total terror about everything remains. I hate how scary my brain feels. It feels broken and weird and just.... ugh. 😞 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Th...] Posted August 24, 2019 Share Posted August 24, 2019 Aren’t the meds helping with your taper and withdrawal? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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