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Ok today is day 6 after stopping  Kolonipin. 5mg cold turkey, was only on it for 8 monthz for anxiety and panic. But its been so tough. Dnt want to start back on it since ive done it this long, but im a mess, so scared, mind racing, upset stomache, not able to calm down. I have finally broke down to go talk to dr. Tomorrow but today is going to be a long, long day. Im afraid he is going to say to start back on it, which I so want to throw in the towel and comply, but i really want to quite. I was tapering since May down to half of .5 but then had some major shit happen a month ago and so I went to dr. He upped my Zoloft to 25mg and told me to up Kolonipin for 2 weeks to the.5 but it was every other day. I was doing good when I went back last week so he told me the kolonipin probably wasnt what was helping me at such a low does and that I could take .5 every 3 days or I could just stop it because it was so low. So I said I wanted to stop it. He said that qas fine come back if there was any issues other wise he would see me back in 3 months. Well here we r day 6, ugh!!! One thing my headache is better. Sunday and Monday it was bad, and yesterday it was beyond bad, but today its much better, just dull ache, so dnt know if it means things are on the mend, and I just need to ride it out. But my panic today is awful!! Anybody else going through this? Makes me feel better to know Im not alone!! PLEASE HELP!
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Oh dear, such a typical benzo story. I am so sorry you fell into this trap. Everyone on BB did, and all of us have to recover from this huge mistake.

Going off Klonapin 5 mgs CT is really not good.  But you only took it 8 months, so perhaps you will be okay. I definitely would not reinstate, because that will just make things a lot worse.

I would strongly suggest that no matter what the doctor says, you stay off benzos and allow your brain to heal itself. And that WILL happen, given enough time. Over time, benzos can cause enormous damage. I took them for thirty damn years and ovewr time mh health slowly deteriorated. I happen to be an RN and had NO idea this could happen. I assumed my weird symptoms were due to some sort of weird disease. I saw specialists and was told I might have M.S. or Parkinsons or even early dementia. I ad NONE of those things. It was all being caused by my benzos. Once I healed from benzos my old symptoms just faded away.

Please do not reinstate. That wont help you, it will only hurt you. Your doctor does not know any better and might suggest you do this.

When it comes to benzos, you are better off trusting what you read here on BB. It should not be like that, but currently,. it is.

east

PS Let me know ow you are doing, please.

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Thank you sooo much for answering me eastcoast62 .This morning was pretty hard, was having major anxiety, and I dnt want people to know around me whats going on, its embarising, and everyone looks up to me from my kids, to my family. My poor husband knows and my neice but they both work, so when I was asking for help this morning I was pretty scared. I am very glad I found the BB, everyone gets it, its nice to have someone actually respond though,  Thank you again! You dnt know how much you taking the time to answer me helps! Its nice to read that Im not the only one, but to actually correspond  with another person that gets it. After the melt down passed I took a shower made myself leave the house, went for lunch with my daughter and was a pretty good day. I feel pretty sick to my stomache and my head  hurts, but honestly it's way better than yesterday, i couldnt even get out of bed because of the sick feelinv and my head feelimg like it was about to burst. But to just have bits of a good day really doese give me hope, that this too will pass. Its so hard in the moment of panick not to give in to my body, but I dnt want to start over again. So I " JUST KEEP SWIMMING", LOL!!! You have been off of everything since 2012? You are such an inspiration!  Not sure how dr. Is going to go tomorrow,  was acrually thinking about canceling, but my husband said no I need to go check in in with him, because my emotions  are all over the place, but honestly think my husband is at his wits end and dnt know what to do.But have made my mind up to not take any benzos. And your post just made me stronger!!! I got this!!! R you curently on any antidepressants? Or are you off of everything?  Im on my zoloft 25 mg, that we upped 2 weeks ago from half of the 25.
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Hi,

Just checking.. -is the jump from 5mg that east mentioned? Or the 0.5mg..??

(There may have been a space typo in your OP..)??

 

Just that I would probs have something to say if it were 5mg, not that 0.5mg is insignificant...

 

I think if you have done enough reading to inform yourself, and resolved in the path you have chosen, Then Best wishes..

:)

 

 

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Healthy Me, I LOVE that you chose a really hopeful screen name! That tells me you are serious about this and WANT to heal.

 

Cantfly, it does not matter what the dose was. She went CT off whatever it was, and seems to be doing pretty good whatever her dose was.  When someone tells us their story, we have to just accept it and deal with whatever the person is going through NOW. All we can do if offer suggestions and support. Everyone makes their own decisions on this stuff, and nbo one can tell someone that they should have done it differently.

Healthy Me made her/his decisions, and we just have to accept that and try to help her/him to get through benzo wd as savely as possible.

east

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cantfly---I'm sure it's 0.5mg the normal starting dose most of the time.

 

east---your advice is alway spot on !  thanks for sharing !

 

Healty me--keep strong, you can do this and you'll be back to normal soon !

 

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Healthy Me, I LOVE that you chose a really hopeful screen name! That tells me you are serious about this and WANT to heal.

 

Cantfly, it does not matter what the dose was. She went CT off whatever it was, and seems to be doing pretty good whatever her dose was.  When someone tells us their story, we have to just accept it and deal with whatever the person is going through NOW. All we can do if offer suggestions and support. Everyone makes their own decisions on this stuff, and nbo one can tell someone that they should have done it differently.

Healthy Me made her/his decisions, and we just have to accept that and try to help her/him to get through benzo wd as savely as possible.

east

Oh your a classic east..!!

All I see is assumptions, assertions and speculation on what you assume...

-I guess add mind reader to your long list of exceptional qualifications..!!

 

Or explain how I have done the things you accuse me of..??

 

I think a dose discrepancy of X10 does warrant clarification, and I think it fine that my thoughts may or may not have differed or expanded, in any variety of ways were it the higher dose... That does NOT mean I would have necessarily suggested a differing course of action, or whatever is flopping around in your brain...

 

Is your “barrow” not tiresome..??

 

Bla..

 

Sorry Healthy Me..  It seems to be never ending.. :(

-like I said,

Best Wishes..

:)

 

 

 

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cantfly, I am confused. What did I accuse you of? I don't think I did but maybe I need a "mind check."

 

The thing about an online forum is that all we have are words on a screen. That makes it harder to really understand as we cannot see FACES.

 

I do sense that you and I are kindred spirits and I am not sure why. Your dry sense of humor maybe? That you DO have a sense of humor in bwd? Wish we could Pm but we cannot.

 

The thing about benzo wd is that ALL we have are guesses, assumptions and assertions. No one really does know the entire truth about benzos and bwd. We have to just trust what we read here and elsewhere and keep on going with that dim hope its all true. I can tell you that for ME it did turn out to be true. But for someone else? I really do not know. That is one scary thought, isn't it? In seven years I have seen so many people come and go on BB. Some I KNOW make it through and others, I really do not know. If this was a huge face to face group, we would know more. But we don't have that.

I am always giving someone advice about bwd and to be totally honest, I am just going by what happened to ME. That's is all I have, so that is how I answer questions. I know I give decent advice, nothing scary or just wrong, but because no one really knows the entire truth about benzos and their wd, it IS all guesses.

Now, don't let that scare anyone! I base my opinions on seven years of being on BB, reading thousands of posts and trying to help thousands of people. All we can do is TRY to lend a hand, and hope that our advice is good. I do keep in touch with quite a few former BB'ers who have healed and moved on. For them, my advice worked. But others? I just don't know. I just know what got me through a wicked bad withdrawal.

Love all of you.

Cantfly, write me on my new Success Story please.

east (annie)

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