Author Topic: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)  (Read 3211 times)

[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #20 on: April 01, 2019, 09:19:05 pm »
Hello [...]!

I have problems with reading & writing. I think I got dyslexia. Earlier I've found a topic with your message and very happy for your visit to the forum.

I hear you.. this is happening to me much of the time when I'm trying to read nowadays.. my brain can't process words as fast as i'm reading them, so it just 'decides' to fill in the blank.. I've NEVER had this problem before I decided to taper off of benzos.  my reading comprehension is in the shitter too, which is what i realized last summer - and i knew instinctively that it was the clonazepam, so I decided to get off of it. 

i mean, how can we learn anything (and be productive) if we can't read and comprehend new material, or (regarding short term memory loss) if we can't remember how we were shown to do something??

I pray to be able to read and learn like i used to.. i can't imagine a life w/o the ability to read.. like i said, last summer i was on benzos and i finally admitted to myself that i couldn't retain anything anymore.. that was intolerable to me, so i've gone through all the tapering pain and the w/d, to hopefully read again someday! i guess it will take more time.. tomorrow's my 90 days off of benzos.. good luck Crazy Pants! - [...]

Do you have problem with reading now? If it's better when it changed for you?

And let me ask. Did you have a fear you got dementia? My cognitive and memory problems are epic. I'm totally dumb. I'm a programmer and very surprised I still work.

Wow.. that post of mine you brought up, really brings me back.. yes, I definitely feared I was getting some kind of dementia, as for a while, I just couldn't really believe how "dumb" I was getting.. I remember getting practically lost in my own neighborhood, among so many other "moments"

Unfortunately, I'm still not reading books like I used to, but I can read and comprehend now, and everything is back in sync, as far as timing goes.. I guess I'm just reading more news stories and shorter things lately, but one just has to learn "how to be an actor" in this, while at work, or at other places..

Remember, no one can look at you and "know" how cognitively impaired you are right now.. and if I were you, I wouldn't share too much about it, with those you work with.. in my experience, people just don't (or won't) understand and have compassion.. once i realized i didn't look as stupid as i felt, i could just carry on, with the understanding that i didn't have to demonstrate all of whatever intelligence i had (or didn't have) all the time.. just stay focused on what you're doing at the moment..

believe me, after i jumped off of clonazepam, i was real cognitively impaired, and 6 months later, when i tapered "risperdal" i got another serious dose of being cognitively impaired, so I know what you're talking about.. it's a real opportunity to "fake it till you make it" and not advertise how dumb you feel.  my mother always said, "the world's cruel enough, you don't have to give it ammunition."

Best of luck, and don't worry, it will all come back eventually.. just hang in there, one day at a time.. no kidding!

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Thankee [...]! I will use your advice. Let's learn to pretend!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLRjFWDGs1g

 :)
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[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #21 on: April 01, 2019, 09:33:50 pm »
Thanks [...],

  Would you mind to elaborate a little bit on what it was like for you when you jumped off at .0625? Was it tolerable? What was it like? I just am scared to experience C/T withdrawals all over again. It was so traumatic in all sense of the word. Looking for that hope!

Thanks so much for your inspiration:)
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[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #22 on: April 03, 2019, 01:33:31 pm »
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Congratulations and I'm so happy for you to come out on top after all you've gone through.  Regarding exercise, some of us are not fortunate to go as hard because it's a cause for flaring symptoms, at least for me.  I'm 6 months post withdrawal right now and about a month ago, my tolerance for exercise has gone up and I know exercise 3 times a week.  Again, congrats and go enjoy.
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[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #23 on: April 05, 2019, 04:44:36 am »
Thank you, I really needed to hear this. Especially the part about giving yourself permission to heal and the cognitive stuff. As well as any hope for the future. I've been battling this for over a year and am back at the beginning so really struggling to keep going. Congrats to you. :thumbsup:
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[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #24 on: April 06, 2019, 04:14:05 am »
Thanks [...],

  Would you mind to elaborate a little bit on what it was like for you when you jumped off at .0625? Was it tolerable? What was it like? I just am scared to experience C/T withdrawals all over again. It was so traumatic in all sense of the word. Looking for that hope!

Thanks so much for your inspiration:)

Hey - for me, jumping off from .0625, was actually not too bad at all!  Physically, for me, it was just another cut, and a really easy one at that!  Mentally, it was a bit tougher or more of a big deal, because it was the last one, and I guess I remember being worried that I might have a panic attack or some other freak out over the next few weeks, so I kept a little clonazepam at home for a couple of weeks - but then, I was really excited to dispose of it at Walgreens (here, can you get rid of this shit for me?)

Youíll be so psyched up to finally get your freedom back, I am sure you wonít have much of a problem.  Just focus on whatís next and take real good care of yourself physically - diet and exercise, and Iím sure youíll see major improvements soon!  Best of luck! - [...]
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[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #25 on: April 06, 2019, 11:30:12 am »
Thank you very much for your success story! It is very inspiring and gives hope!
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[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #26 on: April 06, 2019, 03:46:31 pm »
Thanks [...],

  Would you mind to elaborate a little bit on what it was like for you when you jumped off at .0625? Was it tolerable? What was it like? I just am scared to experience C/T withdrawals all over again. It was so traumatic in all sense of the word. Looking for that hope!

Thanks so much for your inspiration:)

Hey - for me, jumping off from .0625, was actually not too bad at all!  Physically, for me, it was just another cut, and a really easy one at that!  Mentally, it was a bit tougher or more of a big deal, because it was the last one, and I guess I remember being worried that I might have a panic attack or some other freak out over the next few weeks, so I kept a little clonazepam at home for a couple of weeks - but then, I was really excited to dispose of it at Walgreens (here, can you get rid of this shit for me?)

Youíll be so psyched up to finally get your freedom back, I am sure you wonít have much of a problem.  Just focus on whatís next and take real good care of yourself physically - diet and exercise, and Iím sure youíll see major improvements soon!  Best of luck! - [...]

[...] Thank you for taking the time to reply to me :) I SO appreciate that... I will look forward to freedom for sure  :thumbsup:
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[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #27 on: April 15, 2019, 07:44:18 pm »
[...], thank you so much for sharing your story!! Congratulations on your recovery, hopefully you won't have any more dealings with  any unprofession medical doctors:) you did mention that you were having a lot of issues with memory, I was wondering are they all completely gone at this time? i too have so many problems right now, it feels so frustrating, I wonder if that memory ever comes back completely?Thanks again for sharing your thoughts, I absolutely agree with you about the use of exercise, i exercise every day for the last year too even if it gives me more confusion short term, i believe it has so many benefits long term..
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[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #28 on: April 15, 2019, 10:48:25 pm »
Hi [...],

Your story is truly inspiring!
Congratulations and thank you for giving hope to others!

What drug did they use for anethesia for your surgery lately? Did you have any side effects from it?

I'm planning a back surgery in the middle of tapering off valium with severe wd. I'm in huge concern about how my body reacts to anethesia meds.

Wishing you the best in all aspects of your new life!
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[Buddie]

Re: Back from the Dead, and Back in Black (Life 2.0!)
« Reply #29 on: April 19, 2019, 03:34:10 pm »
this is great!


i just wanted to chime in and say you probably still could be a 50 year old underwear model.


the new big thing in modeling is people with imperfections previously seen as unattractive!!

acne, deformities, scars, it's all in there!

dont give up!!  ;)  :laugh:
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