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[Buddie]

Short Term user here 2 months out
« on: March 29, 2019, 10:58:54 pm »
Hey, I was a short term user of Ativan, attempted a CT then tapered for 7.5 months.  My GP gave me absolutely no hint of what Benzos could do or any mention of a need to taper.  He basically gave me the impression that they were relatively harmless....saying "just don't eat them like Pez, they can make you drowsy." I didn't like they way they made me feel and they really didn't help much so after about 2 weeks of use I decided to stop taking them.  That turned out to be a mistake.

CT definitely was not something that I could have done, I would have wound up in the hospital and probably be given more Benzos and instructions to taper off them over the course of a few weeks.  Dry cutting did not work well for me either as it lead to near CT level symptoms.  I decided to give DLMT a try and it proved to be the way to go.  I was pretty much at 95% of my former self when tapering after starting DLMT.  I practically forgot that I was tapering.  I think quitting caffeine helped a great deal as well.  I exercised rigorously during taper and feel that and eating right also helped enormously.

There are many horrific accounts on this site and I think I did myself a disservice when first coming here by reading them.  I feel sorry for the people that are going through painful withdrawals and hope that they are all able to recover quickly.  However, I would advise those just coming to the site to stick to what pertains to you, don't venture into the boards that don't fit into your situation.  I was convinced that my taper was going to be painful and I was going to be plagued with issues post taper, neither has been the case.  Your taper is your taper, not someone else's, just because someone else has had a rough time does not mean you will as well.   

I jumped around .02 mg of Ativan.  The first couple of weeks I had some increased and anxiety and some sleeping issues, both relatively mild though.  I had convinced myself that something bad was going to happen, but it hasn't yet and I have pretty much shut the door on that prospect.

Everything appears to be pretty much back to normal.  I actually think that I feel a bit better than pre-benzo given the good habits that I have picked up.  Best of luck to everyone and remember that sometimes healing happens much faster than you think.
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[Buddie]

Re: Short Term user here 2 months out
« Reply #1 on: March 30, 2019, 07:39:28 pm »
Iím so happy you have been spared the long agony that many of us have to endure. 3 weeks use of adivan destroyed me. Got cold turkeyd by my clueless doctor and suffered in agony for months. Stupidity lead me back to reinstate and I tapered for approx 3 months
 here I am 32 months later and still in the shit show of many symptoms. Yes you are correct that everyoneís experience is different.
You now go live a long happy life and never touch another benzo again. 👍🏻
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Re: Short Term user here 2 months out
« Reply #2 on: March 30, 2019, 09:54:49 pm »
Horizon, awesome to see your success story here!! :) Itís encouraging to hear from folks who DONíT experience horrendous withdrawals!! Best wishes to you.
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Re: Short Term user here 2 months out
« Reply #3 on: March 30, 2019, 10:36:44 pm »
Congratulations, Horizon!  Thank you for coming back and taking the time to tell your story.  It's reassuring to hear you're doing well on the other side.  I also appreciate your caution that we needn't borrow trouble from the horror stories.  I needed to hear that message again.

I'm doing a direct taper from Ativan, as you did, and also haven't had horrible sxs doing an sxs based DLMT.  And, like you, I eat healthy, exercise and have eliminated caffeine.  Additionally, I don't drink alcohol, drink plenty of water, don't smoke, eliminated sugar & processed carbs, don't bother supplementing and use cognitive behavioral therapy to improve my sleep.

I do what's in my power today to mitigate against sxs once I jump.  It's not in my best interest to freak myself out.   I just do what I can and hope for the best.  So far, so good.

Thanks again for sharing your story, Horizon.  May your path continue smoothly and your life be fulfilling, free from the scourge of benzos!   :thumbsup:

xo,
sierra  :smitten:

« Last Edit: March 30, 2019, 11:06:24 pm by [Buddie] »
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Re: Short Term user here 2 months out
« Reply #4 on: March 31, 2019, 02:44:40 pm »
Iím so happy you have been spared the long agony that many of us have to endure. 3 weeks use of adivan destroyed me. Got cold turkeyd by my clueless doctor and suffered in agony for months. Stupidity lead me back to reinstate and I tapered for approx 3 months
 here I am 32 months later and still in the shit show of many symptoms. Yes you are correct that everyoneís experience is different.
You now go live a long happy life and never touch another benzo again. 👍🏻

I am sorry that you are still suffering at 32 months.  My doctor was absolutely clueless as to what this poison can do to a person and if I would have listened to him I would have wound up in a very bad place.  He made it seem as though the worst thing that could happen would be some drowsiness as he was prescribing them.  After returning twice to his office with my bp in the 151/110 range and breaking down crying (I haven't cried in front of anyone in about 30 years) he kind mentioned that "some people have a tough time".   >:(  Some informed consent would have been nice.  It would have been nice to know that he was handing me a loaded revolver and not "Pez".  I have made sure that every medical record that I know of states that I have Benzo allergy or that I experience extreme paradoxical reactions to them.  I didn't trust doctors much before, I do not trust them at all now, they all seem to be either oblivious or conspiring members of the Pharma sales force.

I hope that everything starts to take a turn for you soon for the better.  Are you able to exercise?  I found that even walking helped me when I experienced symptoms. 
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Re: Short Term user here 2 months out
« Reply #5 on: March 31, 2019, 02:45:11 pm »
Horizon, awesome to see your success story here!! :) Itís encouraging to hear from folks who DONíT experience horrendous withdrawals!! Best wishes to you.

Thank you, how are you doing now?
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Re: Short Term user here 2 months out
« Reply #6 on: March 31, 2019, 03:02:40 pm »
Congratulations, Horizon!  Thank you for coming back and taking the time to tell your story.  It's reassuring to hear you're doing well on the other side.  I also appreciate your caution that we needn't borrow trouble from the horror stories.  I needed to hear that message again.

I'm doing a direct taper from Ativan, as you did, and also haven't had horrible sxs doing an sxs based DLMT.  And, like you, I eat healthy, exercise and have eliminated caffeine.  Additionally, I don't drink alcohol, drink plenty of water, don't smoke, eliminated sugar & processed carbs, don't bother supplementing and use cognitive behavioral therapy to improve my sleep.

I do what's in my power today to mitigate against sxs once I jump.  It's not in my best interest to freak myself out.   I just do what I can and hope for the best.  So far, so good.

Thanks again for sharing your story, Horizon.  May your path continue smoothly and your life be fulfilling, free from the scourge of benzos!   :thumbsup:

xo,
sierra  :smitten:

It sounds like you are doing great things to ensure your taper and post taper go well.  When I was tapering I would take a gallon jug to our water fountain at work, fill it up and try to finish it over the course of the day.

You have to remember that millions of benzo scripts are written every year, and it appears that the vast majority of people that quit them do so without any noticeable negative effects.  It seems that those of us who are having symptoms were the "lucky" ones. So it seems that though we may have had the bad luck of having issues with getting off this crap, most of us will probably not face the rare prospect of being debilitated by them.   I have also seen that many have wound up in that situation have had complicating factors, such as poly drugging, multiple CTs, neurological disorders, and even head trauma.
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Re: Short Term user here 2 months out
« Reply #7 on: March 31, 2019, 04:41:49 pm »
Happy for you, [...]. Like you, I also broke down in my doctorís office with high BP after a very short duration of Klonopin and foolishly listened to my doctorís advice to cut again even though I was dealing with symptoms after my first reduction. I show up in agony after quitting and her and the attending med student were dismissive I got dependent this fast. I go visit another doctor and she just thought I was depressed and wanted to script ADs.

I donít understand how these drugs are legal. I trusted doctors, too.

Anyway, glad you made it to the other side. Enjoy life man.
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Re: Short Term user here 2 months out
« Reply #8 on: March 31, 2019, 05:01:34 pm »
Iím so happy you have been spared the long agony that many of us have to endure. 3 weeks use of adivan destroyed me. Got cold turkeyd by my clueless doctor and suffered in agony for months. Stupidity lead me back to reinstate and I tapered for approx 3 months
 here I am 32 months later and still in the shit show of many symptoms. Yes you are correct that everyoneís experience is different.
You now go live a long happy life and never touch another benzo again. 👍🏻

I am sorry that you are still suffering at 32 months.  My doctor was absolutely clueless as to what this poison can do to a person and if I would have listened to him I would have wound up in a very bad place.  He made it seem as though the worst thing that could happen would be some drowsiness as he was prescribing them.  After returning twice to his office with my bp in the 151/110 range and breaking down crying (I haven't cried in front of anyone in about 30 years) he kind mentioned that "some people have a tough time".   >:(  Some informed consent would have been nice.  It would have been nice to know that he was handing me a loaded revolver and not "Pez".  I have made sure that every medical record that I know of states that I have Benzo allergy or that I experience extreme paradoxical reactions to them.  I didn't trust doctors much before, I do not trust them at all now, they all seem to be either oblivious or conspiring members of the Pharma sales force.

I hope that everything starts to take a turn for you soon for the better.  Are you able to exercise?  I found that even walking helped me when I experienced symptoms.
Yes I walk as much as my symptoms will allow. Iím exercise intolerant and if I push to hard then Iím back in hell. Iím doing better than several months ago but still going through the waves pretty bad. My clueless doctor was just wanted to keep prescribing more rather than get me off the poison. Enjoy your new life my friend.
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Re: Short Term user here 2 months out
« Reply #9 on: March 31, 2019, 05:03:11 pm »
Thanks [...].  Yeah, I couldn't believe that I was sitting there in a doctors office crying uncontrollably....that is one of the last things that I ever thought I would do.  I have been reading and watching documentaries on the influence that big pharma has on the medical "industry".....eye opening stuff.  It seems that the practice of medicine's intersection with health and wellness is purely coincidental.
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