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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #20 on: March 03, 2019, 03:05:51 pm »
Hi guys,
Maybe some of you around still remember me, maybe not, but I wanted to pop in and just let those that need it know that you will heal. I can hardly believe it's been 4 years now, since my last Ativan. I remember so well thinking, there is NO WAY I can live thru this, just no way. CT was definitely not a good idea, but by the time I knew I had really screwed up, I was already too far in and there was no way I was going to get back on it. I toughed it out for the first several months/year, until I could begin to feel I could make it. I truly thought that WD would be the death of me, but here I am 4 years later! I just want to share hope and that positive push, for those that are needing it. You will make it, if you keep going forward. Just focus forward and soon it will all come to an end. We each have our day this horrific nightmare does end. Blessings!

 :smitten:
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[...],
I tried to send you a PM.  I could really use your encouragement and support.  February 26th was one year for me.  I was a short term (3 month) user of .5 Ativan.  I haven't had a lot of physical symptoms (at least nothing I've blamed on the withdrawal) but a lot of mental symptoms.  I'm WAY better than I was even just two months ago; yet I still have some mental symptoms remaining that I was hoping to talk with you about in PM.

Did you suffer from overthinking?  Awfulizing?  Your brain just going 200 MPH and not processing things the way it used to?  I mean, it's like the world is just "off" . . . different from how I used to perceive it, if that makes sense.

Also, I was prescribed Ativan for insomnia, not for anxiety.

I'm hoping you can articulate deeper about how you felt at the one year mark and what "symptoms" remained.  Was it still a slow progression of calmness and your brain returning to how it used to process things? Did life just feel "different" for a while?


Thank you for any insight you can provide.  I pray that even though I feel "healed" in many ways, that these remaining symptoms aren't permanent or the "new me".

Hello, I donít do messages anymore to be honest. This is the first time Iíve even been on this board for a very long time and at 4 years, it was a reminder to leave a post giving hope to all those that are here now. This is a chapter of my life I choose to put behind me. I know your going thru such a hard time, we all do. But you will get thru it. I know it seems your situation is the worst, but itís as we all have been thru. The advice I can give is this, do not give up your hope, the mind is a hard thing to cope with and yes, all that mental stuff I had in spades! Just KNOW that in the right time, as all our bodies heal in their own time, yours will too.
Blessings!  :smitten:
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #21 on: March 03, 2019, 03:30:59 pm »
Hi guys,
Maybe some of you around still remember me, maybe not, but I wanted to pop in and just let those that need it know that you will heal. I can hardly believe it's been 4 years now, since my last Ativan. I remember so well thinking, there is NO WAY I can live thru this, just no way. CT was definitely not a good idea, but by the time I knew I had really screwed up, I was already too far in and there was no way I was going to get back on it. I toughed it out for the first several months/year, until I could begin to feel I could make it. I truly thought that WD would be the death of me, but here I am 4 years later! I just want to share hope and that positive push, for those that are needing it. You will make it, if you keep going forward. Just focus forward and soon it will all come to an end. We each have our day this horrific nightmare does end. Blessings!

 :smitten:

[...]

[...],
I tried to send you a PM.  I could really use your encouragement and support.  February 26th was one year for me.  I was a short term (3 month) user of .5 Ativan.  I haven't had a lot of physical symptoms (at least nothing I've blamed on the withdrawal) but a lot of mental symptoms.  I'm WAY better than I was even just two months ago; yet I still have some mental symptoms remaining that I was hoping to talk with you about in PM.

Did you suffer from overthinking?  Awfulizing?  Your brain just going 200 MPH and not processing things the way it used to?  I mean, it's like the world is just "off" . . . different from how I used to perceive it, if that makes sense.

Also, I was prescribed Ativan for insomnia, not for anxiety.

I'm hoping you can articulate deeper about how you felt at the one year mark and what "symptoms" remained.  Was it still a slow progression of calmness and your brain returning to how it used to process things? Did life just feel "different" for a while?


Thank you for any insight you can provide.  I pray that even though I feel "healed" in many ways, that these remaining symptoms aren't permanent or the "new me".

Hello, I donít do messages anymore to be honest. This is the first time Iíve even been on this board for a very long time and at 4 years, it was a reminder to leave a post giving hope to all those that are here now. This is a chapter of my life I choose to put behind me. I know your going thru such a hard time, we all do. But you will get thru it. I know it seems your situation is the worst, but itís as we all have been thru. The advice I can give is this, do not give up your hope, the mind is a hard thing to cope with and yes, all that mental stuff I had in spades! Just KNOW that in the right time, as all our bodies heal in their own time, yours will too.
Blessings!  :smitten:


Fakeit, I relate to EVERYTHING you just wrote.  I was also a short term Ativan user, (7 months as needed, 2 months nightly). I'm further along than you are, and things have definitely gotten better... but I relate to my mind racing a 100 miles an hour, over thinking things, feeling like you're going crazy, and the world just seeming weird, or "off" as you say.  I've spoken to others who have the same exact feelings as well and they've gotten better.  So hold on, you're not insane or permanently fucked up.
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #22 on: March 03, 2019, 05:08:31 pm »

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Fakeit, I relate to EVERYTHING you just wrote.  I was also a short term Ativan user, (7 months as needed, 2 months nightly). I'm further along than you are, and things have definitely gotten better... but I relate to my mind racing a 100 miles an hour, over thinking things, feeling like you're going crazy, and the world just seeming weird, or "off" as you say.  I've spoken to others who have the same exact feelings as well and they've gotten better.  So hold on, you're not insane or permanently fucked up.

Thank you so much! Is your signature up-to-date? Are those all the symptoms you're still dealing with?
it's so hard to explain that I can say I feel so much better yet the mind racing I didn't deal with before. it's like the horrible depersonalization and derealization finally went away but then my brain just took over and I can't seem to calm it down. It's horrible. I compare my myself to everything and everyone that I come in contact with. Everything just swims in my head. I can't make decisions easily. Ugh. I don't know if you know I'm also a type 1 diabetic. Late onset. Have had it for about ten years.
Can I am you,?
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #23 on: March 03, 2019, 05:23:18 pm »
Sure PM me anytime
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Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #24 on: March 03, 2019, 08:19:17 pm »
Thank you Magic for your reply, I haven't had any breathing issues or palpitations for the past week now.  I hope they are gone for good this time, very scary.
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #25 on: March 09, 2019, 12:37:59 pm »
Hello [...]-It's great to hear from you and I am SO happy that you are doing well. Can you believe it's 4 years? You did it, you made it and I am SO proud of you.

For those members reading [...]'s success story please know that you will heal and this hell doesn't last forever however, sadly for some people healing can take a long time. Never c/t a benzo!

Thanks for coming back and giving hope. I do feel for the members who are behind us and like you said it's a chapter of a book (horror book) that I have put on a very high shelf.

Wishing you a happy and blessed life.
xo Always Frantastic :smitten: :smitten:

 
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #26 on: March 09, 2019, 12:43:15 pm »
Thanks for coming back [...] and letting everyone know that you have healed and are doing well. It gives people hope to hear that.

Fran - I agree, no one should ever c/t a benzo. A slow and steady taper is the best way to get through this.
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #27 on: March 10, 2019, 06:10:11 pm »
I'm just wondering if you're still sensitive to alcohol. I'm very sensitive to coffee, and I wonder when the sensitivity goes away, if it ever does.

Thanks!!
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Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #28 on: March 10, 2019, 10:16:25 pm »
Thanks for coming back and posting! So good  to hear you are well  :)
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[Buddie]

Re: 4 Years Later...
« Reply #29 on: April 05, 2019, 04:35:34 am »
Hello [...]-It's great to hear from you and I am SO happy that you are doing well. Can you believe it's 4 years? You did it, you made it and I am SO proud of you.

For those members reading [...]'s success story please know that you will heal and this hell doesn't last forever however, sadly for some people healing can take a long time. Never c/t a benzo!

Thanks for coming back and giving hope. I do feel for the members who are behind us and like you said it's a chapter of a book (horror book) that I have put on a very high shelf.

Wishing you a happy and blessed life.
xo Always Frantastic :smitten: :smitten:


Hi Fran! Thank you for the message! So good to hear from you too. I pray you are healed, happy & well friend! Lord this has been a long haul. Itís still hard for me to imagine 4 years have passed. I am ever so grateful to have survived all this. Iím truly changed forever from it.
Blessings Fran!  :smitten:
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