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[Buddie]

Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« on: December 04, 2018, 03:14:37 pm »
Here are two poems that I wrote to help me cope during this terrible suffering. The first was when I was in the midst of severe depression. It helped me to connect with myself since DR and DP are with me constantly.  The second poem is about an experience I had with nature while going on my daily walk. I've always had sort of a connection with nature. This expresses my awareness of a higher power or Spirit that is helping me get through this. I appreciate this opportunity to share myself in this way. And, perhaps, someone will benefit a little...  [...]

Suffering

I stand before myself;
   tears flowing so freely,
the pain reaches new depths.

I am reaching out my hand
   to touch the warm and kind
rivers of peace
   that you promised me.

So close to wanting this life
   to finally cease;
to letting this pain define
   my urgent, sad, longing heart,
I need your help to continue.

I am broken beyond belief --
   searching for reasons
in the breath of these moments
   to keep my sweet, striving self
simply breathing in your name.

Collect me.
   Contain me.
Lead me to your comfort.
   It is truly my wish to survive this.

Help me to recall the joy;
   the belief that I am all I should be;
all that's certain and hopeful
   in this space of so much suffering.

I have earned the gifts of contentment;
   fought so many battles of confusion
and doubt, I believe it is truly time
   for my healing.

Let it be so.
  Let it be so...


THE WALK

You lifted my face to your sky eyes,
   and there was such a vast
beauty and brilliance in your light.

You paraded your treely strength
   and majesty before me from
the depths of your determined earth
   through clouds and sunshine
grounding me at my striving roots.

You touched me with the green arms
   and firm hands of an upright,
growing, kind messenger of rebirth,
   Such glorious variety;
such carefully planned growth;
   uniqueness as with myself;
my eyes delighting at every step.

And, yes, uniqueness as with myself
  as we proclaim our calm existence together.


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[Buddie]

Re: Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« Reply #1 on: December 05, 2018, 09:09:03 pm »
So beautiful. Thank you.

I had something like this a ways back, but I havenít felt like writing much as of late. Iíll contribute what I previously wrote.
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[Buddie]

Re: Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« Reply #2 on: December 05, 2018, 09:09:32 pm »
Ten years of colors muted in sunrises
Ten years in the shadow of my true self
I remember the vibrant red of Love
I recall the Summer warmth of orange
And the lavender brushed like harvest fields

Now my childrenís faces are those lost sunrises
But the worldís color, not gone, but washed
Faded rainbows and light in the beauty of eyes
I have been imprisoned by poison in pills
I have been robbed of memories never made

But my words are vessels with hope in their hulls
They are still attached to the bright spectrum
And the words themselves attached to today
And thousands of tomorrows with new sunrises
The full hue of each horizonís beautiful emotions
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Re: Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« Reply #3 on: December 05, 2018, 09:11:39 pm »
My daughters wanted me to write them something, so I wrote a few lines this morning.

Lily

Misty Morning
I know you want the Sun
Want it to break through
Want it to dry dew from the grass
Your sweet tears collected
Upon the living green spears
Of the solid Earth beneath your feet

The Sun will come
It will come for us both
With time and perseverance
It will shine all around
And it will warm our backs
And it will shine our hair
And it will give us new color

Until then I know the mist
Falling upon my cheek is a kiss
I know your silence toward me
Is not emptiness but containment
I know that you are filled with Love
But that you cannot pour it like rain

Like a desert I accept you lovingly
What you have to give is all I need
Though I have my own struggles
You are like the cactus flower
Painted the most splendid colors
Large and beautiful in the thorns

Lori

Morning Lori
How we laughed and smiled
When you so youthfully said
That this was your flower
How wrong we were in our mirth
And how right you turned out to be

Every day you greet the world
A wonder and freshness unfolds
Color and scent you give freely
On gray days you open longer
Giving more of yourself to needs
That turn you in the obscured Sun

And in the darkness you close
Wisely protecting yourself
So that you can unfold again
When the light beckons
Opening petals to some newness
Uncertain, bravely, come what may

High you have recently climbed
I see you around me and above me
Growing upon Lifeís arch
Like the one straddling the sidewalk
When you were small but wise
And upon which my Love also clings
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Re: Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« Reply #4 on: December 05, 2018, 09:12:55 pm »
Sandcastles

If not for you I might wash away
If not for you sturdy, caring dunes
Anchored by intertwined roots and vines
Survivors of storming wind and water
I might quickly recede into the surf

Together our hands build the outer walls
The moats, the towers, and the keep
That the rising morning tide seeks to claim
The erosion of each wave some bit of life
Lost to the rolling backwash and breakers

But each night you come to help rebuild
Our castle of sand reshaped and reformed
Grains of wisdom patted down firmly
Each night, each week, each month and year
Until we ourselves are fortresses in the dunes
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Re: Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« Reply #5 on: December 05, 2018, 09:14:50 pm »
Itís a long way and it is dark and narrow
But Iím standing here at the tunnelís end
Donít you see me in the dappled sunlight?
The leaves of trees cast small shadows
But walk with me further atop the rail lines
And the track opens to clear, fathomless blue

Can you hear me calling through the echoes?
Over the sound of sliding ballast as you step?
Over train whistles still lingering in your ears?
Talk to me, I understand some of your words
The rest I will hear as a slaveís hymn hummed
For I know it is all a hopeful song of freedom

Do you fear the long black line you travel?
If so, remember it was built with confidence
The mountain is stronger than you believe
One careful, patient step after another
Time is of no essence, I will wait for you
Wait until our fingers intertwine under this arch

Who else better than you awaits the years of me?
Who else will hunger so for the fullness of life?
The sweetness of ripened fruit will not be lost to you
And wind in flowing hair will be as deep breaths
You will emerge from underground a cool spring
And, together, we will swim your beautiful current
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Re: Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« Reply #6 on: December 05, 2018, 09:21:40 pm »
For Valentineís Day:

Climb the long chain of stairs with me
To the top of the mountain with the ravine below
Where our breath becomes visible in cool air
Dissipating like the winding down of a day
And repeated as a deep and strong exhalation
Of thankfulness to wake beside you in morning

Share with me words both sweet and erotic
Let our lips mingle and taste that salted caramel
For a moment is as much worth as a month
And a memory as much as years to a lifetime
Have you wondered what a second can bring?
Death, life and love, all enshrouded instants.

But I am not endeared to pulses alone
In between there is constant and silent flow
And in that current are carried beautiful lives
Unending melodic duets sung harmoniously
Decades of shared tinder for laughter and smiles
Generations of empathetic tears in spreading rain

And when our hands are curled with age and pain
The home of touching fingers will bring relief
On park benches we will lean our heads together
Fulfilled with sunsets and with lovers and children
And on the day when pulse and flow cease in one
Bread will be broken but flavor will remain whole
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Re: Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« Reply #7 on: December 05, 2018, 09:25:00 pm »
Walking up and out from the deep ravine
The forceful sound of steps grinding granite
Not far removed from nightís clenched teeth
Or from twisting grips upon the walking stick
The path adorned with cacti and lechuguilla
And in the shadow of time grown to mountains

Yet across there is sun on the youthful slope
The desert flowers in yellow, red, and purple
I remember the ease and beauty of leisure
The multitude of crushed stone walkways
Leading freely wherever, for I had many hours
But turning, the light is but a line along the ridge

I must climb, I must be careful but deliberate
I must rest and catch my breath when needed
I must remember broken rocks hide footsteps
That travelers with no greater constitutions
Scaled the summit, even if they slid at times
And the desert flower colors were in their skies

But mostly I know that you are there waiting
In a tent with the aroma of your lifeís perfume
That the hard and piercing ground at my back
Will be lost to the loving softness of your flesh
And words will fall upon me like rain on the roof
And kisses will settle gently on my lips like snow
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Re: Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« Reply #8 on: December 05, 2018, 09:28:45 pm »
My spiritual poem (though truthfully they are all that)

What can I say of that minute, that singular Fire?
How to tell of everything but Love burned away?
Of the oneness of time and space with the Soul?
And of ashes of universes breathed into a Soul?
And melded with the Soul and exhaled into place?

Something unbroken exists, but senses deceive
My contracting and expanding chest chants
Sings that I am a process of air, not a part within
My stature, a child and tree of sun, soil, and water
The Fire may not visit again, but I remember

A spinning circle of children singing and laughing
But the clasped hands detach and they gently fall
And in time the innocence breaks into individuals
Who forget the ringís tight grip in favor of illusion
That there is a self in this world, alone and apart

We became me and roundness became angles
And each learned to think in fragmented thought
Shards of an abstraction that can only separate
Division being the mother of conflict and hatred
Birthing cries of warís dying and famineís hunger

The unification of the Fire will not fall upon us all
But eyes can open and ears can begin to hear
That Mother Earth is being crucified by the ego
That spikes can be removed and wounds tended
And that hands can join and circles be reconnected

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Re: Writing poetry is one of my distractions
« Reply #9 on: December 06, 2018, 11:58:58 am »
[...],

Thank you for sharing your incredibly beautiful poetry.  I'd like to make a few comments about it. Your first poem is so sadly beautiful, I felt your pain. From the poem "Lily", a couple of my favorite lines are
"Your sweet tears collected
Upon the living green spears
Of the solid Earth beneath your feet"

I also liked,
"Until then I know the mist
Falling upon my cheek is a kiss"

In "Lori",
"On gray days you open yourself longer
Giving more of yourself to needs
That turn you in the obscured Sun"

"Sandcastles" -- All I can say is "YES"

Your spiritual poem is so inspiring and I DO agree all of your poetry is spiritual.

Thank you again for responding. I hope you are healing well and let me share more of your poetry as you continue to write.

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