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[Buddie]

Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #150 on: July 31, 2019, 10:02:28 pm »
You rock! Thanks for that up lifting post. I'm going to keep that pearl of wisdom and polishing it often. I'm just exiting hell myself and need that positivity in my life. Thanks a million!

No problem! Try and stay close to positive people while your healing. You dont need ANY negative bullshit in your life right now. At least until your Central Nervous System calms down. Which it will.

Just stay the course and be strong! Your normal withdrawl free life awaits you!!!
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[Buddie]

Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #151 on: September 01, 2019, 03:03:24 pm »
I love this story— thank you for coming back to share it. I’d like to know though... did you have any sensitivities? To chemicals, medicines, personal products, foods etc.. during your wd? And if so, do these go away?? I have so many fears about this. Can you take medicine when needed now? Do you even dare have a beer now and then?

In regards to your questions about being sensitive to items after I healed.

1. Chemicals.....I have zero issues with anything. Alls good with that.

2. Medicines....Ive never been back to a doctor since one told me I was screwed during my withdrawl. They told me my symptoms couldn't be withdrawl related so far out and they may never go away. Which we know now is NOT true and they did go away.

The thing is with Doctors....you pay them $100 for an office visit. They feel obligated to treat your symptoms because your paying them. The way most of them treat is by writing you a prescription. In my opinion most doctors over prescribe. So i just stay the hell away from all of them. I wanted my brain to go back to a natural baseline. And i couldn't achieve that with doctors trying to pump pills in my mouth. I doubt i would have a reaction if I really needed meds. But i choose not to. That's just me.

On a side note...i have taken over the counter Advil and Tylenol when i strained my lower back. Zero issues or side effects with either of them.
 
3. Personal Products.....have NO issues with any items what so ever. Alls good.

4. Food Items....I have NO issues at all. Zero. I drink Red Bulls and Mountain Dew without issue. Can eat whatever i like. NO GI issues...NO nothing.

5. Beer and Alcohol.....The last time I ever had a drink was before I went Cold Turkey off Valium. Ive never drank since. I use to drink socially before my withdrawl. As in a few times a week. But Ive never put alcohol back in my system since. Please understand this is just a personal decision. I have friends that have healed from Benzo withdrawl and go out drinking and dont miss a beat. I'm more than positive I'm fine in this department. I just have a different outlook on life now....and alcohol isn't in it. My poor GABA receptors have been through enough shit. I dont want to disrespect them any more than I have.

I looked at my witdrawl sort of as a life cleanzing process. All the BAD people....things ...and issues i had needed to go. I use to promise myself if i made it through it I would live life differently. Choose my battles carefully. And surround myself with POSITIVE people and things. No more unhealthy stressfull bullshit and people. They ALL had to GO!! Now that all that shit is out of my life now ... Life is so MUCH better!!!

At the end of the day....Everyone should identify their stressors in Life and work toward living a happier stress free life. EVERYONE here has been through enough pain and suffering....you deserve only the BEST going forward! Dont ever again let ANYONE or ANYTHING bring you down!!!!!

Thank you for such a thoughtful reply.
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[Buddie]

Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #152 on: September 01, 2019, 04:29:24 pm »
[...] thanks so much for the helpful posts.

You mentioned that you started pushing yourself and then ended finding a part time job during healing. Did your sleep already normalize when you decided to start pushing yourself? Or did you still push yourself regardless whether you still had insomnia?
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[Buddie]

Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #153 on: September 06, 2019, 04:22:17 am »
[...] thanks so much for the helpful posts.

You mentioned that you started pushing yourself and then ended finding a part time job during healing. Did your sleep already normalize when you decided to start pushing yourself? Or did you still push yourself regardless whether you still had insomnia?

No...i didn't wait for my sleep to normalize. I just started pushing myself to distract my brain and kill time. I isolated myself inside for a long time. I had to expose myself to normal everyday things  so my central nervous system would get use to it. It was a slow process. But it worked for me.

I learned to live on very little sleep for a long time during withdrawl. It just became a part of who i was. But that shit is gone now. I sleep all night like a normal person. You will to. Try not to give yourself anxiety about little to no sleep. I know it can be maddening. But it goes back to normal. It just takes awhile. Stay strong!! You got this!!
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Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #154 on: September 06, 2019, 11:01:43 am »
Hey [...]!  I've been following your thread for a while and as always your energy is wildly and forcefully reassuring.  It helps me feel like...damn straight I'm going to beat this shit!!!!  Going to show these benzos whose boss!!!

I'm about to finish up month 8.  I did a rapid taper too because of bad tolerance.  Really bad.  It's been a trip, but don't have to tell anyone here that.

The sx have been slowly dropping off and at month 8 can see a lot of progress.  But what you said about sticking close to positive people really hit home with me right now and was something I REALLY needed to hear.  My thoughts can still F me up big time, if I let them.  I'm not in the same place as month four or five...you know...waking up feeling like a squirrel in traffic  :)  but still fragile as far as the fear of long term recovery.  The length of the road can wear you down, you know?

Seem to be learning that lesson about avoiding negative people/energy up close and personal lately, and how important it is.  Really a big lesson.  As always, your advice is rock solid [...].  I've been feeling cautiously hopeful lately, feeling better for real, and then had a series of negative people broadside me.  And said to myself no and hell no.  No more.

I could see clearly the strong effect it has on me at this point.  I mean, I'm totally avoiding stuff like caffeine and alcohol and sugar etc because of what it does to me...so why would I expose myself to that other type of toxin???  I'm even careful of what I watch on TV because of the effect it can have on me...I end up having disturbing dreams and can feel the fear rising...people are no different.  They have an effect. 

So thank you...once again I heard something from you at the perfect time.  And thank you for still coming back here and being so relentlessly positive about the healing process!!!  You saved my @ today!!  Thank you, thank you, thank you!!
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[Buddie]

Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #155 on: September 06, 2019, 05:37:26 pm »
When did your sleep start to improve, [...]?
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[Buddie]

Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #156 on: September 12, 2019, 06:18:54 pm »
It's a damn cool success story! Thank you for writing it, I am very grateful to you! Happiness and health to you friend!
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Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #157 on: September 14, 2019, 01:30:47 pm »
Congratulations!  Great Success Story, thank you!!!
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[Buddie]

Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #158 on: September 28, 2019, 03:49:01 pm »
Hey [...]!  I've been following your thread for a while and as always your energy is wildly and forcefully reassuring.  It helps me feel like...damn straight I'm going to beat this shit!!!!  Going to show these benzos whose boss!!!

I'm about to finish up month 8.  I did a rapid taper too because of bad tolerance.  Really bad.  It's been a trip, but don't have to tell anyone here that.

The sx have been slowly dropping off and at month 8 can see a lot of progress.  But what you said about sticking close to positive people really hit home with me right now and was something I REALLY needed to hear.  My thoughts can still F me up big time, if I let them.  I'm not in the same place as month four or five...you know...waking up feeling like a squirrel in traffic  :)  but still fragile as far as the fear of long term recovery.  The length of the road can wear you down, you know?

Seem to be learning that lesson about avoiding negative people/energy up close and personal lately, and how important it is.  Really a big lesson.  As always, your advice is rock solid [...].  I've been feeling cautiously hopeful lately, feeling better for real, and then had a series of negative people broadside me.  And said to myself no and hell no.  No more.

I could see clearly the strong effect it has on me at this point.  I mean, I'm totally avoiding stuff like caffeine and alcohol and sugar etc because of what it does to me...so why would I expose myself to that other type of toxin???  I'm even careful of what I watch on TV because of the effect it can have on me...I end up having disturbing dreams and can feel the fear rising...people are no different.  They have an effect. 

So thank you...once again I heard something from you at the perfect time.  And thank you for still coming back here and being so relentlessly positive about the healing process!!!  You saved my @ today!!  Thank you, thank you, thank you!!

Im VERY proud of you! You've come SO far!! Time is the ultimate healer. I wish i could tell you different. But its true. The further out you get...the better things become. Theres NO rhythm or reason on how fast you heal or what symptoms wax and wane. Crazy process to say the least. But your body and brain know what its doing. They know how to heal themselves! TRUST the process and yourself. I promise you things will only get better!!!

Keep staying STRONG and EMPOWER yourself!! Benzo withdrawl is really NASTY shit!!!! You HAVE the killer instinct to make it!! Keep crossing the days off the Calender and make time pass. Distract your mind from the misery and think POSITIVE affirmations!!! NO doom and gloom! When those negative thoughts pop up...push them aside and distract yourself with something else right away!! Your normal life awaits you!! NO looking back NOW! You have a GREAT Life ahead of you!  You will look at things through a totally different lens when this is over!

I had a VERY postive member on this site that pulled me to the finish line. I was BLESSED to meet her!! Can honestly say she saved my life! No joke! She went thru a VERY bad cold turkey herself. But she had already walked thru the fires of hell and was on the other side when we met. Her experience and advice of the process was priceless!!! No matter how bad things were. She ALWAYS reassured me i was going to make it and survive this deal. She was always there for me no matter what. Like a mentor for the withdrawl process.

I hope everyone here can find some positive members that you can trust and help you like she helped me. I just try to pay it forward when i have time and give back the same gift to everyone here that what was given to me.

Healing is REAL! Dont ever doubt that or give up on yourself! Thats NOT a option in this game!!!
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[Buddie]

Re: KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......
« Reply #159 on: October 07, 2019, 04:50:42 am »
Hello my dear friend [...].

Let me tell you bbs... I've known this fellow since way back.   He went through the hells of hell like all do..  Though, truly read his words, THEY ARE THE TRUTH!    He is an inspiration as you all well know now.   I knew him before this truth, and he would have never believed then, that he would become this truth, but he has.   These are the reins you grasp, as what [...] writes and shares with truth, is totally the truth.

Love you [...] my dear friend!  [...]
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