I needed to read this today.
If I may ask:
Did you consistently have to ask yourself if it was truly from the Benzos or not? I keep wondering if this is how I was before everything started and I keep telling myself NO, I was a much happier and productive person. Yes, I had a little anxiety, but nothing to this extreme. Same with the depression.
I would also love to hear how you felt at 6 months off, a year, etc. I'm 6 1/2 months off right now. I had one window for a few hours a few weeks ago.
Did you take any supplements? CBD? Anything?
I just cannot wait to be on the other side of this and hopefully writing a success story myself one day.
For now though it's Groundhog day over and over again.
(Is that how you felt?)