KROCK....The Sucess Story I never wrote......

[[Buddie]]

I never wrote a success story after my withdrawal. I’m not sure why. Maybe I was being selfish....or maybe i didn’t want to relive it in writing....IDK.....but maybe it was because I was to down on myself about being a success due to the fact I let this happen to me in the first place. Who knows...but it was life changing for sure. Last night I was on line catching up on a thread I started 8 years ago in the Chewing the Fat section on this site. It’s called Online Support...Can it make things worse? I posted the comment below to it and I want it to be my success story for all to read. It sums things up in a nut shell. So heres a copy of the post. I hope it’s encouraging to everyone. God Bless.

“Just popping in to check on this thread. It’s come a LONG ways from back when I first started it. I just want to leave a few words of encouragement ......please remember....you all are a lot stronger than you think. Everyone has the will to survive. Your body knows what to do to heal. Trust yourself and the process....let time pass. My withdrawal took me to the depths of hell and back. Not kidding when I say that. Hands down the worst thing I’ve ever been through. I will NEVER forget it....thus the reason I come here occasionally. This place holds a spot dear in my heart. Knowing people here  are suffering like I did is both sad and concerning.

Looking back....I was in such a bad place with all my symptoms I really didn’t know how I would ever get better. I couldn't believe that benzos would rock my world like they did. Such a powerful and cruel drug and process. All I could do was pray and wait it out. I did a lot of things wrong with the cold turkeys and detox centers. I wouldn’t advise that path to anyone. It’s not for the faint of hearts.

Thanks to this site and the people I’ve met here... I survived. It gave me the support I needed to make it through one more day....just when I didn’t think I could do it. I needed to talk to other people that were going through the same thing I was. And this site did that for me. I’m not sure I would be here today without this site....it was truly a God sent looking back on it. It was the life line I needed.  The members here talked me through some of my darkest hours. No doctor or outside therapy could ever substitute the type of support and care I received here.

I want to thank Colin and all the people that make this site possible. They do a great job providing a safe haven for people going through this.

My only regret is ....I wish I would of took videos of my withdrawal to show people on line how bad I was. The beginning and the end results of my withdrawal are truly amazing. It would encourage everyone and let them know you WILL heal. Seeing is believing......and I would of never believed it if I hadn’t went through it.

Please know....If I can make it through my nightmare.....so can you. I had a ton of doctors telling me my withdrawal symptoms were all in my head....that I had all these medical issues. That I might be disabled for the rest of my life. Yes they said that to me ....so that might tell you how bad I was. Doctors said I might have possible brain damage etc. Also that there was NO way it could still be withdrawal symptoms....blah...blah...blah. Looking back it was all total bullshit. The things we experience during withdrawal are VERY real. Don’t let anyone ever down play it or tell you it’s not. All the stuff the doctors told me that I would have to live with forever are now GONE. Poof!! Vanished!! It was benzo withdrawal the whole time. Members here kept telling me it was...I just had to wait it out and let my body heal.

Please stay positive and know it does end. I’m proof of it.”

[[Buddie]]

Wow!! Thanks for the encouragement [...]! Keep on Keeping on

[[Buddie]]

Hi [...]

So happy for you. Could you plz let us know when did you start feeling great? I know it's a very hard question but it will help a lot especially for those like me keep looking forward to that day.

Hope you stay healthy and happy for the rest of the years ahead. Thanks for coming back and posting your story.

[[Buddie]]

Thank you! I needed to hear that today.

[[Buddie]]

I'm glad you came back and wrote this! Congratulations on getting through the suffering and getting your life back. Can you discuss your symptoms and you timeline for recovery?

[[Buddie]]

I needed to read this today. 
If I may ask:

Did you consistently have to ask yourself if it was truly from the Benzos or not?  I keep wondering if this is how I was before everything started and I keep telling myself NO, I was a much happier and productive person.  Yes, I had a little anxiety, but nothing to this extreme.  Same with the depression.

I would also love to hear how you felt at 6 months off, a year, etc.  I'm 6 1/2 months off right now.  I had one window for a few hours a few weeks ago.

Did you take any supplements?  CBD?  Anything?

I just cannot wait to be on the other side of this and hopefully writing a success story myself one day.

For now though it's Groundhog day over and over again.

(Is that how you felt?)

[[Buddie]]

Thank you for taking the time to come back and share your story!  Makes me so happy.   

I never wrote a success story after my withdrawal. I’m not sure why. Maybe I was being selfish....or maybe i didn’t want to relive it in writing....IDK.....but maybe it was because I was to down on myself about being a success due to the fact I let this happen to me in the first place. Who knows...but it was life changing for sure. Last night I was on line catching up on a thread I started 8 years ago in the Chewing the Fat section on this site. It’s called Online Support...Can it make things worse? I posted the comment below to it and I want it to be my success story for all to read. It sums things up in a nut shell. So heres a copy of the post. I hope it’s encouraging to everyone. God Bless.

“Just popping in to check on this thread. It’s come a LONG ways from back when I first started it. I just want to leave a few words of encouragement ......please remember....you all are a lot stronger than you think. Everyone has the will to survive. Your body knows what to do to heal. Trust yourself and the process....let time pass. My withdrawal took me to the depths of hell and back. Not kidding when I say that. Hands down the worst thing I’ve ever been through. I will NEVER forget it....thus the reason I come here occasionally. This place holds a spot dear in my heart. Knowing people here  are suffering like I did is both sad and concerning.

Looking back....I was in such a bad place with all my symptoms I really didn’t know how I would ever get better. I couldn't believe that benzos would rock my world like they did. Such a powerful and cruel drug and process. All I could do was pray and wait it out. I did a lot of things wrong with the cold turkeys and detox centers. I wouldn’t advise that path to anyone. It’s not for the faint of hearts.

Thanks to this site and the people I’ve met here... I survived. It gave me the support I needed to make it through one more day....just when I didn’t think I could do it. I needed to talk to other people that were going through the same thing I was. And this site did that for me. I’m not sure I would be here today without this site....it was truly a God sent looking back on it. It was the life line I needed.  The members here talked me through some of my darkest hours. No doctor or outside therapy could ever substitute the type of support and care I received here.

I want to thank Colin and all the people that make this site possible. They do a great job providing a safe haven for people going through this.

My only regret is ....I wish I would of took videos of my withdrawal to show people on line how bad I was. The beginning and the end results of my withdrawal are truly amazing. It would encourage everyone and let them know you WILL heal. Seeing is believing......and I would of never believed it if I hadn’t went through it.

Please know....If I can make it through my nightmare.....so can you. I had a ton of doctors telling me my withdrawal symptoms were all in my head....that I had all these medical issues. That I might be disabled for the rest of my life. Yes they said that to me ....so that might tell you how bad I was. Doctors said I might have possible brain damage etc. Also that there was NO way it could still be withdrawal symptoms....blah...blah...blah. Looking back it was all total bullshit. The things we experience during withdrawal are VERY real. Don’t let anyone ever down play it or tell you it’s not. All the stuff the doctors told me that I would have to live with forever are now GONE. Poof!! Vanished!! It was benzo withdrawal the whole time. Members here kept telling me it was...I just had to wait it out and let my body heal.

Please stay positive and know it does end. I’m proof of it.”

[[Buddie]]

Yes, thanks so much for writing your Success Story and for encouraging everyone around here. It means so much. I wish you all the best!

[[Buddie]]

CONGRATULATIONS!!! 

What were some of the first indications that you were feeling better? Did your symptoms fade away or rapidly go near the end? What was the one symptom that stayed with you the whole time? Was it the worst symptom? Just trying to get a handle on these things!

You suffered for a long time. I'm SO GLAD you came back and posted your success story!!! There are many of us who need encouragement over on the protracted board. THANK YOU!!! 

[[Buddie]]

Hey Man!!!
You are one of those hard core old timers that I read when I was a lurker 7 yrs ago!!!!
Cool that you stopped back.
Glad you are doing well.
I think you had a bud named ChrisW who had a hell of a time, but he disappeared years ago.
Wonder how he is.