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It feels like every circumstance that brings on depression is rife with me.

 

1. Shitty life circumstances, because of all my symptoms I can't do much at all, I live with my parents, can't work or socialise. Don't really enjoy anything and feel disconnected from loved ones.

2. Chemical depression, obviously the drugs have played a massive part in altering my chemical balance in my brain, I had some low moods and anxiety before lexapro and ativan, nothing like this completely hopeless despair, seeing the world as black and empty.

3. Physical illness, I've been so physically sick for 4 months now which obviously plays some part on how your mood and outlook are.

 

And there is little to nothing I can do to change it. I've tried exercising (exercised a lot the first 4 months of withdrawal and ended up bedridden), eating well, forcing myself to do thing I once enjoyed, keeping active, having a routine, distraction. It's just an impossible situation.

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That's a lousy state to be in, no doubt - coming from Ativan that's a mood killer right there. Your symptoms are no uncommon, as you probably know. You say I aren't doing anything about it - but actually you are - you are going trough it which of course takes time (however long), and that's all you can do. I would suggest you don't force it - it won't help anyway, in fact it looks like your putting expectations on yourself, getting caught up in guilt and frustration and the stress of it usually heightens symptoms. The one advise I offer is avoid stress like the plague!
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That’s exactly how I feel. I’m depressed because of my circumstances, I don’t really have a life at the moment, I see old friends post pictures on Facebook of their travels and happy times with friends and family and I’m laying on the couch all day alone. Then there’s the chemical depression and the physical problems on top of that. I don’t have anything much positive to add other than what you’re experiencing is normal and should end one day.
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depression sucks big time, all I want to do is lie in bed and cry. That heavy dark place with no emotion is the worse place to be, meanwhile all my friends are having fun at the lake--
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Hi Gibson,

 

Sorry I’ve been away a while. Have a nasty stomach bug that’s causing a bit of havoc.

 

How are you doing with the taper? Are you too agoraphobic/depressed to go out? Could you manage to sit in the park for a bit?

 

Yes, I’m nagging again. Sorry. Just want you to get some fresh air and light.

 

I’m trying to learn the ukulele, but can’t get it to stay in tune  :(

 

Sending you best wishes,  :) :) :)

 

Mrs B xxx

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its more like quadruple depression, so heavy and dark like I entered the twilight zone of zombie land. "Stormy weather and it just keeps raining on and on"
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