Impotence, will it come back?

I was on a three week use. 6 months ago. In my last wave 3 months ago, I was struck with insomnia for 5 days and my brain started becoming really messed up. I could feel the toxins just accumulating in my brain. I sustain some fit like symptoms where my face went numb briefly and my male member as well but this was permanent.

 

For two months my male member was stinging. It was quite painful, but the pain slowly subsided away. I consider myself post-withdrawal, but permanently damaged. My male member has lost close to 90% of the sexual sensitivity. I also find difficulty getting it up with manual and visual stimulation. I have been trying to pinpoint what sensitivity has been lost. The sensation of touch is still there, but the pleasurable sensation of the glans, foreskin and frenulum has been lost.

 

I am quite distressed. I would rather have had parasthesia anywhere else on the body. Do any of the guys here have an idea what has happened and whether there is a cure for this?

Relaxxxxxxxxx. There are all kinds of adjustment that are taking place. These things wil wax and wane. I’m thinking there are hormonal issues in recovery. If you were ok before the poison you’ll be fine. Don’t overthink it.

It’s onset came with a seizure, so I think it’s permanent. I’ve tried wellbutrin, omega 3, st john’s Wort. Idk it’s severely affecting my life.

 

It hasn’t waxed or waned in any way. It’s just been constant. I’m off all benzos and consider myself out of WD.

I have heard about this from other members. I'm sure you aren't alone.

Please see a urologist.  Your condition is almost certainly NOT benzo related.

 

And even it is, please see a urologist!

My first impression here is that the damage seems like something other than benzo withdrawal may be occurring. Stinging, pain, loss of sexual function can have many possible causes that should be checked out medically. Like others here, this should be seen by a doctor and hopefully your doctor will refer you to a specialist. This could be anything from the result of an infection to a nerve in your back being impeded. You definitely want to rule out all possibilities. While benzo withdrawal does come with many bizarre symptoms (and this MIGHT be one of them), I wouldn't take chances with this degree of urogenital dysfunction. Please see your doctor.

Please see a urologist.  Your condition is almost certainly NOT benzo related.

 

And even it is, please see a urologist!

 

It is benzo related. But it seems to be permanent. I’m not kidding you but benzos do cause permanent and irreversible brain damage. The electrical storm caused by glutamate created a bizarre lesion like sensation in my brain which suddenly triggered seizure like activity when I had insomnia.

 

The seizures must have damaged the part of my brain responsible for the nerves in the frenulum, glans and foreskin.

 

I have an andrologist appointment lined up.

Hey Sam, we don’t appreciate the doom and gloom. Benzo damage is not permanent and we all heal. That is the mantra here. If you want to spread that kind of poison go find a wiener buddies forum....

Hey Sam, we don’t appreciate the doom and gloom. Benzo damage is not permanent and we all heal. That is the mantra here. If you want to spread that kind of poison go find a wiener buddies forum....

 

Looking for as much hope as you are. If someone has had a similar experience and recovered from it, that would give me the reassurance I need.

 

I am thankful that most of the symptoms are reversible. The air hunger, the restless legs, the ability to focus, the heart palpitations, the hypnic jerks, the insomnia, the inability to pee, etc.

Hey Sam, we don’t appreciate the doom and gloom. Benzo damage is not permanent and we all heal. That is the mantra here. If you want to spread that kind of poison go find a wiener buddies forum....

 

Looking for as much hope as you are. If someone has had a similar experience and recovered from it, that would give me the reassurance I need.

 

I am thankful that most of the symptoms are reversible. The air hunger, the restless legs, the ability to focus, the heart palpitations, the hypnic jerks, the insomnia, the inability to pee, etc.

Sam,

Fair question and opinion.. -your story...

 

There have been other threads of a similar nature in the past, both male and female.. so you are not on your own.. Dont give up hope... But do get it checked out..

 

My tapering related SX havnt been of a neuropathic or hormonal nature, yet I have had the odd odd sensations there, a quick sting, burn, or strange itch.. -Neuropathic.. (I have had plenty of non medicine related nerve pain to know)..

So perhaps it is possible this could be ones substantially affected area..??

I certainly cant see why it isnt possible, considering the neurological complexities, and systems involved...

We are all different in how and to what degree we are affected...

 

Hope it resolves soon for you...

 

 

 

 

The reason why I ended up on benzos, opioids, phenibut and gabapentin was because of a painful penis injury that disrupted my sex life and my life. It made me think my life was over a few weeks after the injury happened because it really hurt on the extreme end...very bad. It happened a few months after my mom passed away too so it felt like I was going crazy. I never had issues with erections though, but every time I would get an erection, which was often, I would get horrific nerve pain in the tip of my penis that made me want to suicide because I thought it was permanent. I had to abstain from sex and masturbation at least 6 days out of the week to manage the pain which wasn't easy for me on a bunch of benzos, opioids and other drugs.It is taking a long time for it to heal but it is and I do feel better and can fully function. I've seen a urologist and got an MRI even and they didn't see anything wrong with it. I may have a small amount of scar tissue causing some pain in the fine branching of nerves in the glans of the penis. That is my best guess. My family, the doctors, friends, all think the majority of the pain is manufactured in my mind by all the meds and drugs I have taken. I was in tolerance WD on clonazepam and Librium when most of these bizzare and painful episodes would occur. But I did physically injure my penis by accident. It didn't seem like a serious injury when it first happened. I wonder if the drugs are causing the pain sometimes. Life is strange. I hope you resolve your impotence issue. Did you physically injure yourself in any way?

No, I had no physical injury. I have no idea why it happened either. It’s purely brain damage from benzos.

 

After my acute, I felt something was wrong in my brain like a brain itch. I sustained a seizure-ish sensation. In an instant, my penis lost all sexual sensation. Replacing it was a stinging pain that took 2 months to resolve. It’s really numb now. I’ve essentially been rendered impotent. A similar condition would be PSSD.

 

With that, I’ve kinda lost motivation in life. If you think about it, the most primeval psychology of men gravitates around sex and the rewarding pleasure it gives you. You want to find a mate because of sex. You want to buy a house because of sex. You want the flashiest job because of sex.

 

I’ve pretty much lost the biggest motivator in life.

I know how you feel. Having anything wrong with your penis is a serious issue if it disrupts your sex life. You will be okay though samuel. It will resolve on its own. You don't have permanent brain damage. You may have a strong feeling that you have permanent brain damage, which is just fear, no matter how real it feels in your mind. You need to start thinking positive, and the only way to do that when you are on depression's event horizon is to change your behavior. I'm assuming you are paranoid, depressed, and mentally ill over this. If you are laying in bed all day, find a place where you can walk outside everyday for as much as you can so you can clear your head. There is no way benzos made you permanently impotent but I believe this is a temporary thing and that benzo wd may be a contributing factor. Something isn't right but you need to remove this permanent crap from your vocabulary or your are going to cause yourself and others needless pain.

Samuel, please! Genital, right now, so repulsive!

I assure you it returns Sam. Benzo wd numbs many body parts that always regain feeling. Instead of taking omega 3s etc i highly recommend cialis. Many reputable online sites sell them at a fraction of the cost of the states and it is guaranteed to give you a “rager.” Pm me if you want a reputable website or google them yourself. The most important thing is to relax and not worry. Paranoia is a benzo wd symptom in and if itself. Good luck!

It seems tho experience takes all your worst fears and makes you face them; from your signature you have improved dramatically in everything else, with a post count as low as yours I would be cautious to throw out permanent damage for all of us still struggling.

 

As Builder said just go to a urologist, these days you take a pill and everything is better than ever, and those even improve your heart. I’d also ask him about the daily use ones.

It seems tho experience takes all your worst fears and makes you face them; from your signature you have improved dramatically in everything else, with a post count as low as yours I would be cautious to throw out permanent damage for all of us still struggling.

 

As Builder said just go to a urologist, these days you take a pill and everything is better than ever, and those even improve your heart. I’d also ask him about the daily use ones.

 

Hmm, it isn’t ED. It’s a loss of the pleasurable feeling. I fear the urologist can’t fix it. Something has changed in the brain. I just can’t point out what.

Hey Sam, we don’t appreciate the doom and gloom. Benzo damage is not permanent and we all heal. That is the mantra here. If you want to spread that kind of poison go find a wiener buddies forum....

 

this is uncalled for ... there is no evidence that everyone heals ... and Sam is allowed to express his views as he sees fit.

As far as I am concerned there is no mantra here .. this is a support forum we are free to air our own thoughts and opinions.  I am over 5 years off benzos and I certainly have not recovered.

No, I had no physical injury. I have no idea why it happened either. It’s purely brain damage from benzos.

 

After my acute, I felt something was wrong in my brain like a brain itch. I sustained a seizure-ish sensation. In an instant, my penis lost all sexual sensation. Replacing it was a stinging pain that took 2 months to resolve. It’s really numb now. I’ve essentially been rendered impotent. A similar condition would be PSSD.

 

With that, I’ve kinda lost motivation in life. If you think about it, the most primeval psychology of men gravitates around sex and the rewarding pleasure it gives you. You want to find a mate because of sex. You want to buy a house because of sex. You want the flashiest job because of sex.

 

I’ve pretty much lost the biggest motivator in life.

 

SSRIs cause numbing of the genitals but benzos don't generally do that so I think PSSD might be somewhat different than what you are experiencing.  Research is being conducted into PSSD at the moment .. cannot remember where .. but hopefully they can find some answers to this. I don't really know a great deal about this whole subject but I lost sensation in most parts of my body including the genital area ... the shock of coming off Nitrazepam after 40 years was too much for my brain  ... the sensation has gradually come back everywhere .. it has taken a long time for me but it has come back. I don't know if that is reassuring at all. I haven't fully recovered because my legs are badly affected by withdrawal and being in bed for several years but most of my body feels normal again.  I can feel sensations also in a particular part of my brain ... you describe a seizure-like sensation .. I didn't have that but I certainly have sensations in one part of my brain that correlates with the many issues in my body.    You speak about a brain itch .. I described it as like having eczema inside the brain ..

No, I had no physical injury. I have no idea why it happened either. It’s purely brain damage from benzos.

 

After my acute, I felt something was wrong in my brain like a brain itch. I sustained a seizure-ish sensation. In an instant, my penis lost all sexual sensation. Replacing it was a stinging pain that took 2 months to resolve. It’s really numb now. I’ve essentially been rendered impotent. A similar condition would be PSSD.

 

With that, I’ve kinda lost motivation in life. If you think about it, the most primeval psychology of men gravitates around sex and the rewarding pleasure it gives you. You want to find a mate because of sex. You want to buy a house because of sex. You want the flashiest job because of sex.

 

I’ve pretty much lost the biggest motivator in life.

 

SSRIs cause numbing of the genitals but benzos don't generally do that so I think PSSD might be somewhat different than what you are experiencing.  Research is being conducted into PSSD at the moment .. cannot remember where .. but hopefully they can find some answers to this. I don't really know a great deal about this whole subject but I lost sensation in most parts of my body including the genital area ... the shock of coming off Nitrazepam after 40 years was too much for my brain  ... the sensation has gradually come back everywhere .. it has taken a long time for me but it has come back. I don't know if that is reassuring at all. I haven't fully recovered because my legs are badly affected by withdrawal and being in bed for several years but most of my body feels normal again.  I can feel sensations also in a particular part of my brain ... you describe a seizure-like sensation .. I didn't have that but I certainly have sensations in one part of my brain that correlates with the many issues in my body.    You speak about a brain itch .. I described it as like having eczema inside the brain ..

 

Hmmm, yes I was exposed to SSRIs, but that was after I had the issue. I could be having PSSD on top of benzo damage. However, prior to the seizure event, I had only been exposed to benzos.

 

It is comforting that you’ve regain sensation. I do still have sensation on my male member, but what’s missing is the erogenous sensation. It feels more like skin on the hand or on my lips.

 

I think my case is quite atypical and is a good case study of how much damage short term use can inflict. I didn’t believe that benzos could cause this damage, but it certainly has.

 

I had a period of two months of the usual acute withdrawal. But for 4 months I was pretty much asymptomatic except for that brain itch. That brain itch felt very much like a lesion in the back part of the brain and then when the lesion finally shredded through my brain, that was when all hell broke loose. Right now that lesion sensation is gone.

 

First, was the insomnia, then stabbing pains in the chest. And when I started going into mini-fits on the 4th day of insomnia, that was when the numbness began. And, oddly enough, I also began having dysautonomia - breathing difficulties, urinating issues, appetite issues.

 

As such, I am to believe that it was my autonomous system that was damaged in some way or form by a microlesion. It seems that benzos can trigger PSSD-like symptoms.

 

I’ve tried some PSSDforum inspired solutions: inositol, St John’s Wort, Wellbutrin, etc... No success as of yet. Definitely hoping that someone out here has a similar predicament and managed to find a cure.

Hey looking, I read your profile....lots goin on... I guess I was assuming everyone here is like me..no prior problems, don’t drink, don’t smoke.  I’ll change that, I know I will heal completely and hope everyone else does too.

 

Hmmm, yes I was exposed to SSRIs, but that was after I had the issue. I could be having PSSD on top of benzo damage. However, prior to the seizure event, I had only been exposed to benzos.

 

I think my case is quite atypical and is a good case study of how much damage short term use can inflict. I didn’t believe that benzos could cause this damage, but it certainly has.

 

I had a period of two months of the usual acute withdrawal. But for 4 months I was pretty much asymptomatic except for that brain itch. That brain itch felt very much like a lesion in the back part of the brain and then when the lesion finally shredded through my brain, that was when all hell broke loose. Right now that lesion sensation is gone.

 

First, was the insomnia, then stabbing pains in the chest. And when I started going into mini-fits on the 4th day of insomnia, that was when the numbness began. And, oddly enough, I also began having dysautonomia - breathing difficulties, urinating issues, appetite issues.

 

As such, I am to believe that it was my autonomous system that was damaged in some way or form by a microlesion. It seems that benzos can trigger PSSD-like symptoms.

 

I’ve tried some PSSDforum inspired solutions: inositol, St John’s Wort, Wellbutrin, etc... No success as of yet. Definitely hoping that someone out here has a similar predicament and managed to find a cure.

 

It sounds as though it was the benzo withdrawal from what you are describing .. whether the subsequent exposure to SSRIs made any difference, it would be very difficult to know.  People do recover from PSSD though not everyone does. I know it is extremely difficult to live with this sort of issue. I hope your appointment with the andrologist is helpful.  Maybe someone else here will have some experience and some solutions, I hope so.

Hey looking, I read your profile....lots goin on... I guess I was assuming everyone here is like me..no prior problems, don’t drink, don’t smoke.  I’ll change that, I know I will heal completely and hope everyone else does too.

 

There is such a huge variety of people here, with different medical histories, different drug histories, long term users, short term users etc.  We can never make assumptions about the outcome.  The protracted board is not visible to all so those of us who have been off the drugs for quite a few years are less noticeable.

 

I am sure you will do well.

Sam - if you are sure that you have permanent ED, shouldn't you check this out with a doctor? For instance, do you respond to Viagra or Cialis?  Have you tried this?  A lot of what is happening could be psychological. If you feel like trouble-shooting, then perhaps giving these drugs a go might be worth a try. If I were a dude, that's what I would do just to see what happens (after talking to my doc of course).

Sam - if you are sure that you have permanent ED, shouldn't you check this out with a doctor? For instance, do you respond to Viagra or Cialis?  Have you tried this?  A lot of what is happening could be psychological. If you feel like trouble-shooting, then perhaps giving these drugs a go might be worth a try. If I were a dude, that's what I would do just to see what happens (after talking to my doc of course).

 

It isn’t ED I have. It’s lost sensation, although the lost sensation is causing ED. It used to be real sensitive. Now, it doesn’t feel pleasurable at all.