Life is beautiful

If anyone is having a relatively easy taper and feels like they aren’t getting the attention they need or answers they are Looking for, please reach out. I can relate

A year and a half ago I realized that my current life was killing me. Even with a prescription for 8mgs of Xanax, I was having panic attacks on a daily basis. I was so immersed in it, I didn’t realize the severity of cog fog and how it was affecting all aspects of my life. I was exhausted & frequently sick just from stress.

Having previous failed taper attempts, I knew I had to reduce my triggers if I wanted to be successful. The first 6 months I planned and executed my relocation. Not only was I able to rid myself of the horrid commute, I was fortune enough to be giving permission to work from home & chose a peaceful new location.

The day of my move I did not take my bedtime dose. Over the next couple of days I simply forgot to take any because I was feeling better than I had in memeory. Until I was lying on my bed and had these weird rushes of electricity run thru my body. It may have been a seizure, it didn’t last long & as soon as I felt ok to stand up, I ran and took a pill. I had to follow a taper, I couldn’t risk that living alone.

I spent 8 months tapering, quit smoking, gave up caffeine, gave up dating, tried tons of supplements & anything else that could have been a leg up. Although in hindsight I could have don’t a lot more.  While many of those days felt stagnant, I was making progress. Don’t get me wrong, the side effects were pretty brutal, I spent many nights with compresses over my eyes & ice packs wrapped around my head or tossing and turning, not realizing I had slept for an hour & woken back up. I’d find myself crying at least once a day & have no idea why most of the time, I didn’t know how numb I was. Yet I would say I had an easy taper, sure I hibernated but I never stopped working.

Here I am 20 weeks post taper & I’m far from the person I was a year ago. Starting with the taper, I’ve been setting goals & crushing them! I took an art class, hiked to a bunch of waterfalls, got a side hustle, paid off debt and venturing into real estate with my own home and rental units and I’ve even started seeing someone! For the first time in years I feel like he’s getting to know me & not the drugs.

I can’t wait to see what else is in store for me!

 

wow CM ,

Good for you , very brave .... I'm glad you seem to be through the worst , and I hope it just gets better and better for you form here on out!

MiYu

Congratulations Crazy money!  This is such a huge accomplishment, your got your life back and I hope it’s better than ever.  Thank you for sharing your success with us    Really appreciate you infusing us with hope!

wow CM ,

Good for you , very brave .... I'm glad you seem to be through the worst , and I hope it just gets better and better for you form here on out!

MiYu

Congratulations. it makes my heart glad to see someone is doing well!

Congratulations! 

 

I'm so glad that you had a relatively easy time of it, and that you are doing so much better now. I like the comparison to hibernating. I love your new goals with hiking and finances! Best of luck in your future endeavors, and thank you for your insights.

 

Gwinna

Wow, I like your attitude and congratulations on your beautiful progress! As an Italian/american lady, I have the habit of finding the beauty in this world. As you will notice, Italians tend to say a lot:  'bel gelato' (beautiful ice cream) or 'bel cafe' (beautiful coffee) or 'che bello' (How beautiful) etc... One of my favorite movies is "La vita e bella":

 

Continue finding beauty in your world!