My One Big Question

*Please excuse any grammatical errors. I’ve spent the last 23 years in a fog. My brain is still adapting. 

 

I’ve been searching this forum looking for an answer to my biggest question in this whole benzo nightmare . It’s one simple question for my doctor. As a psychiatrist, how did he not know about the dangers of prescribing benzos to me for 23 years? Two neurologists told me my memory issues, slurred speech, migraines, hand tremor were from the Valium. My gynecologist and Internist told me it was from the benzos.  The ER doctor told me it was the 3X daily prescribed benzos. My sister told me. My best friend hinted. Everyone told me it was the benzos. I told you what they said. You were adamant that they were wrong. You said you were  the psychiatrist. A Specialist at $100 for 15 minutes. I was far too brain to figure out the obvious.

 

I guess I have another question. Lol. Has anyone told their doctor?  If so, what happened?

How long have you been off benzos

Your psychiatrist is clearly incompetent or he has a vested interest in protecting myself. 

 

My psychiatrist denied it also .. he has now retired.

Your psychiatrist is clearly incompetent or he has a vested interest in protecting myself. 

 

My psychiatrist denied it also .. he has now retired.

 

My psychiatrist also denied this, plus my Dr wont accept this is withdrawal either  :idiot:

 

*Please excuse any grammatical errors. I’ve spent the last 23 years in a fog. My brain is still adapting. 

 

I’ve been searching this forum looking for an answer to my biggest question in this whole benzo nightmare . It’s one simple question for my doctor. As a psychiatrist, how did he not know about the dangers of prescribing benzos to me for 23 years? Two neurologists told me my memory issues, slurred speech, migraines, hand tremor were from the Valium. My gynecologist and Internist told me it was from the benzos.  The ER doctor told me it was the 3X daily prescribed benzos. My sister told me. My best friend hinted. Everyone told me it was the benzos. I told you what they said. You were adamant that they were wrong. You said you were  the psychiatrist. A Specialist at $100 for 15 minutes. I was far too brain to figure out the obvious.

 

I guess I have another question. Lol. Has anyone told their doctor?  If so, what happened?

 

Matzah writes:  <<"It’s one simple question for my doctor. As a psychiatrist, how did he not know about the dangers of prescribing benzos to me for 23 years?">>

 

Why does a flat-earther deny that the earth is a sphere in spite of undeniable evidence to the contrary?  Am I comparing an educated, intelligent pyschiatrist to a flat-earther?  Yes, I am.  There's something deeper at play here, and your psychiatrist is not immune to it.  Nobody is.

I play around with the idea of writing my old psychiatrists and psychologists a letter, about how my anxiety was actually caused by the benzos.  I have no proof though.  I feel certain that benzos caused me many problems but I am unclear how I can say this properly to anyone yet.

*Please excuse any grammatical errors. I’ve spent the last 23 years in a fog. My brain is still adapting. 

 

I’ve been searching this forum looking for an answer to my biggest question in this whole benzo nightmare . It’s one simple question for my doctor. As a psychiatrist, how did he not know about the dangers of prescribing benzos to me for 23 years? Two neurologists told me my memory issues, slurred speech, migraines, hand tremor were from the Valium. My gynecologist and Internist told me it was from the benzos.  The ER doctor told me it was the 3X daily prescribed benzos. My sister told me. My best friend hinted. Everyone told me it was the benzos. I told you what they said. You were adamant that they were wrong. You said you were  the psychiatrist. A Specialist at $100 for 15 minutes. I was far too brain to figure out the obvious.

 

I guess I have another question. Lol. Has anyone told their doctor?  If so, what happened?

 

He knows. He PRETENDS he doesn't know. This is a defense they use to not be held liable.

I am not sure some really do understand what these do to us.  I was in counseling while on Xanax.  This counselor did not prescribe to me.  She softly suggested I stop.  Given what I know now, if she were any good she should have hammered me with the awful future I faced getting off.  I really don't think this phd knew. 

I am not sure some really do understand what these do to us.  I was in counseling while on Xanax.  This counselor did not prescribe to me.  She softly suggested I stop.  Given what I know now, if she were any good she should have hammered me with the awful future I faced getting off.  I really don't think this phd knew.

 

I had somewhat of a similar experience only with a VA Psychiatrist whom I had a lot of respect for. They gave me a copy of Ativan's side effects from the Mayo Clinic Website. I didn't even read it because I was just thankful that the Ativan was helping me with the horrendous symptoms I had been having from the Ambien.

 

I need to stress that I was clueless that Ambien was at the heart of why I even chose to remain long-term on Ativan.

 

I realized after finally doing my own research on Ativan, some 6 months after that conversation with my Psychiatrist, that I basically had been adding fuel to an existing fire. Ativan=the fuel and Ambien=the excisting fire.

 

The Psychiatrist had rightfully been flustered with my stand to remain on Ativan. But they really should have recognized that Ambien was equally dangerous and warned me about it as well. Also, if I recall correctly, they did not explain how DANGEROUS Ativan is and how I would SUFFER beyond human comprehension if I did not do a proper taper. I was such a mess at that point in time....

 

I really feel for people who are still getting caught up in the web of these drugs and remaining non-the-wiser as to why they are/have been so deathly sick.

I believe that many simply block the truth in their own minds, just as a member of a cult builds a impenetrable wall around himself for protection.  If the shrink acknowledges the ugly truth about one of his key go-to treatments, his whole his house of cards could collapse.  Ain't gonna happen.

Thanks to everyone for responding. I really appreciate it.

 

I have to find a way to move on. . It’s just so hard not to be angry.  I lost ten years on benzos (bizarre health problems) and one year getting off them. So much wasted time.