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So, I'm calling it, I have brain damage. For sure. My head hurts everyday. Headaches, pressure, pain... like a vice is constricting my brain. It drives all of my other symptoms as far as I can understand it. Feel dopey; like my head weighs much more than it's supposed to. My memory sucks. 19 months out pushing 20. Small improvements but the brain is so foggy with this constricting feeling in my head. Nobody has come up with any kind of treatment / relief (from what I've read on this board) for it so there may only be a few who are experiencing this. I think I'm going to put in a call to Baylissa to see if this is in any way, shape, or form normal for BZ withdrawal this far out. Can't believe it.. (tears).

 

I don't know folks, this far out with little resolve in this particular symptom makes life really not worth living at this point. I'll keep trucking though until I can't.

 

 

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Baylissa will tell you it is normal and you will heal.

 

Ajusta is right.  That’s what Baylissa will tell you.

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Thanks; I would imagine that's what she would say. If this was a symptom that everyone had then I would believe it's just BZ withdrawal but it doesn't seem that way; there are few people who have this symptom - especially this far out. This pain / pressure / whatever it is, is stopping me from moving forward with my life... I cannot do what I need to do (interviewing, thinking, memory, career, life) with this symptom every day. I'm strong to have suffered through this walk through purgatory but my strength is not what it used to be. I was an idiot for taking this medication without fully realizing and understanding and believing in the consequences. I cannot solely blame this on my doctor... I am responsible for what I put into my body but this is truly unbelievable in it's scope of suffering.
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I have had the heavy head thing since before Benzos. It is what got me the ME diagnosis.

 

If you look online a lot of people think it is anxiety.

 

Mine seems to be related to a neck problem as on the rare occasion my neck has released it has disappeared. The longest that lasted was 2 days in the last 22 years. It is so bad I habpven’t been able to work, drive or socialise in all of that time.

 

Having done a lot of reading on this over the years the thing that most people seem to find helpful is yoga.

 

Have you tried seeking out a good teacher and practising yoga every day.

 

If it is withdrawal causing it then yoga won’t do any harm if you feel up to it and go slowly.

 

If it is anxiety yoga and meditation will help.

 

If it is a mechanical problem yoga and meditation will probably help.

 

Strengthening your back and shoulders and neck may help as will deep relaxation at least once every day.

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AJUSTA:  I know, you think I'm a very tough person. I have written about positive thoughts, and getting rid of the bubble, that is just about other illnesses and difficulties. I know, you're having trouble, even if you're still on Benzo. But, you have been on a doctor's visit, GREAT!  Being outside the home, is something very positive! Many don´t  manage it, what strange!  There is something positive, you can write on the line for what's good! :)
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Colley, at 2 years off Klonopin my persistent symptoms are similar to yours.  The only way I get daily relief is to move as much as this decrepit old bod will allow - walking when weather allows or stair-climbing when it won't.  Before starting out I invariably feel like I can't do it but I'm always glad I did.
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So, I'm calling it, I have brain damage. For sure. My head hurts everyday. Headaches, pressure, pain... like a vice is constricting my brain. It drives all of my other symptoms as far as I can understand it. Feel dopey; like my head weighs much more than it's supposed to. My memory sucks. 19 months out pushing 20. Small improvements but the brain is so foggy with this constricting feeling in my head. Nobody has come up with any kind of treatment / relief (from what I've read on this board) for it so there may only be a few who are experiencing this. I think I'm going to put in a call to Baylissa to see if this is in any way, shape, or form normal for BZ withdrawal this far out. Can't believe it.. (tears).

 

I don't know folks, this far out with little resolve in this particular symptom makes life really not worth living at this point. I'll keep trucking though until I can't.

 

Your symptoms are consistent with benzodiazepine withdrawal and however hard it is and believe me, I know .. it will get easier .. it can take several years to even see some improvement .. but it will improve.  you have come this far and you can keep going, one day at a time, getting through each day and doing whatever you can do to distract from it. 

 

Yoga certainly seems a good idea if you can do that.

 

Perhaps come to the protracted board if you want .. you are not alone.

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colley: yes, we all have 'brain damage' caused by toxic pharma chemicals.  the obvious question is if this is a permanent.  the logic tells me, that if the brain adjusted to the presence of those chemicals, it will also adjust to the lack of them.
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It’s not withdrawal. It’s recovery from a tixic poison that injured the brain. The brain well heal and return to normal function. I’m 22 months out now and have symptoms like that also. Your not alone. Give it time. There is only one thing that is a 100% fix for this mess we’re in and that is time. Take care of yourself and I hope your relief comes soon.
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AJUSTA:  I know, you think I'm a very tough person. I have written about positive thoughts, and getting rid of the bubble, that is just about other illnesses and difficulties. I know, you're having trouble, even if you're still on Benzo. But, you have been on a doctor's visit, GREAT!  Being outside the home, is something very positive! Many don´t  manage it, what strange!  There is something positive, you can write on the line for what's good! :)

 

I did write about it. How else would you know about it.

 

I am being very optimistic. I am just trying to get over the trauma of literally arranging my funeral 2 months ago. I feel extremely traumatised.Then I will start to taper again.

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Problem is, I more often than not feel like I'm going crazy from all of this after so much time has passed. Is it possible to think yourself into mental illness? Pretty sure it is. And this is 19 months out... it's not like it's the first year.... and that's great that we will heal; and I thank everyone with chiming in with their well wishes... but when? I'll most likely just lose it completely at this pace before I heal. My positivity shines through yet again... 

 

 

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You could look at the Neuroplastix Workbook online.

 

It’s written for pain but probably applies to other things as well.

 

It has a lot of info about things to do to switch off pain signals which might work for other things if done consistently.

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I am about 7 months out and still have symptoms after taking Ativan for years. Low pressure in my skull (i also had migraines before this started as well) and i am still suffering from an almost crippling depressive state and anxiety levels.are ridiculous. Constant dread and an intermittent depersonalization make me agoraphobic and even foggier than i was before all of this. I dont know when this will ever end but this misery is some of the worst i have ever experienced even now with the pain and aches slowly subsiding.

 

I view it as necessary, and part of the healing process...this will eother pass or it will not and i will have to learn to adjust to this lower quality of living. That is the worst case scenario. Nest case i am.better next week. If i keep at it, i could be better in a year, maybe 3...who knows? If i just keep on keeping and making the most of what i have, i think this is doable, howevwr miserable it is in the meantime. I am still here.

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