Author Topic: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...  (Read 8682 times)

[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #30 on: April 11, 2018, 12:18:06 am »
Wow [...],
that's some journey!  Kind of feel like a piece of urban candy floss compared to what you did, and do on a daily basis! 
This is one of those times that the character trait of being stubborn can serve us all I figure!
Thanks for all you do on these boards too, I see you so many places with such solid information....
 :) :smitten:
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 :laugh:

Hey [...]! Thanks! You are too funny!! Yes, we gotta be stubborn as mules to get through the benzo hell 8)

Hello Flora! Thanks!  8)

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[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #31 on: April 12, 2018, 05:00:09 pm »
[...], what a great story and thank you so much for sharing! You are a true warrior!
It sounds like you have peace in your life... I am happy for you.
I hope I can get they this and find peace as well🙏
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[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #32 on: May 02, 2018, 08:14:26 pm »
Great to hear your story. Have been on benzos for 15 years before I started my second taper.  Irony is, I was TotaLLY off using a more rapid taper per the shrink.  I had rebound anxiety after that that escalated, and then after 6 months became full blown psychosis with personalization and derealization, total loss of sleep and appetite.  Went back to the shrink, who after trying lyrica  and antibody (clueless) just put me back on BENZOS (ativan).  If I would have had this group back then, I would.Have just suffered it out,knowing I wasn't looking my mind.  Now I moved to valium 15 mg, and am 1/2 way down 7mg.  Builder has helped me with a liquid water/vodka taper for the rest of it.
Only thing is, I am now 66 and have other health problems as well. My husband and I have a nice retirement fund, and I am not completely horribly sick, but am fatigued and have no motivation.  I am looking at at least another year for normality.
May I ask how old you were when you finally got well?  I don't need to be a "self sufficient mountain woman", but I need to get out and live my life and share the housework and gardening with my husband like I used to. 
Reading your success story, and this group was really a lifeline this week!
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[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #33 on: May 05, 2018, 02:36:45 am »
I pray I can keep my sanity as you have...as I begin my exit from klonopin. I will need all the help I can get. The funk feeling some days are relieved by ingestion of the Rx. I hope the fear of losing my mind will abate and a slow taper will make this tolerable. Damn this drug. Thanks. All help appreciated.
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[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #34 on: May 05, 2018, 03:02:18 am »
[...], what a great story and thank you so much for sharing! You are a true warrior!
It sounds like you have peace in your life... I am happy for you.
I hope I can get they this and find peace as well🙏

Thank you [...] shell! I do have peace in my life now. Going through this process has certainly given me peace & a whole new perspective on what really matters in life. I find pleasure in simple things now.   :smitten:

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[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #35 on: May 05, 2018, 03:08:42 am »
Great to hear your story. Have been on benzos for 15 years before I started my second taper.  Irony is, I was TotaLLY off using a more rapid taper per the shrink.  I had rebound anxiety after that that escalated, and then after 6 months became full blown psychosis with personalization and derealization, total loss of sleep and appetite.  Went back to the shrink, who after trying lyrica  and antibody (clueless) just put me back on BENZOS (ativan).  If I would have had this group back then, I would.Have just suffered it out,knowing I wasn't looking my mind.  Now I moved to valium 15 mg, and am 1/2 way down 7mg.  Builder has helped me with a liquid water/vodka taper for the rest of it.
Only thing is, I am now 66 and have other health problems as well. My husband and I have a nice retirement fund, and I am not completely horribly sick, but am fatigued and have no motivation.  I am looking at at least another year for normality.
May I ask how old you were when you finally got well? I don't need to be a "self sufficient mountain woman", but I need to get out and live my life and share the housework and gardening with my husband like I used to. 
Reading your success story, and this group was really a lifeline this week!

Hi [...]!

I was 57 when I finally felt better. You will get there too. It really is just a matter of waiting it out. I did find that eliminating as much processed  unnatural things from my life helped immensely. I am glad my success story helped you in some way. Hang in there Marja, things will get better for you... Please keep me up to dated with your progress!

 :smitten:
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[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #36 on: May 05, 2018, 03:16:16 am »
I pray I can keep my sanity as you have...as I begin my exit from klonopin. I will need all the help I can get. The funk feeling some days are relieved by ingestion of the Rx. I hope the fear of losing my mind will abate and a slow taper will make this tolerable. Damn this drug. Thanks. All help appreciated.

Hi [...]-

I see you are new here...let me assure you that you will get better. The key is to taper at a rate that is tolerable. Some people for what ever reason end up with intolerable symptoms. Many times this because of lack of knowledge about the proper way to taper. Read as much as you can on the various boards & ask lots of questions. Maybe you can "right the ship" so the rest of your taper is more tolerable  :thumbsup:
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[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #37 on: August 05, 2018, 01:25:21 pm »
[...] ...Inspirational...thank you needed to read that right now...even through he tears
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[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #38 on: August 06, 2018, 01:33:25 pm »
Hey there [...]!

Nice name!  ;)

I read through your posts...sorry you are having such a difficult time. I was where you are now...benzo withdrawal IS the most difficult thing that I have ever endured...If I did it, anyone can...best advice I can give you is to stay strong & keep pushing yourself forward every single day....

Our tapering choices may effect the intensity of our symptoms. I believe that I made the mistake of not going up high enough when I reinstated (I only went up 50%) I see where you are considering reinstating & going slower...think this may help you become more functional & enable you to cope with symptoms better. I have found that 10 - 15% above the dose taken just prior to rapid taper/withdrawal works well for many who I have followed over the years. Just a suggestion for a start point if you decide to go back up in dosage to get relief :thumbsup:
 
Want to assure you that things will get better for you. Try to be patient....keep yourself distracted & continue reaching out on the forum...never give up hope...your old self WILL return  :therethere:  :mybuddy:

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[Buddie]

Re: When Bootstraps Arenít Enough...5yrs off & HEALED...
« Reply #39 on: August 06, 2018, 03:35:12 pm »
Great story and healing journey. Wish I had the resources to do all the positive things you did to help in your recovery. Money can't buy happiness but it sure can help you heal your body and mind in this world.

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